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Academia Friendship Clique

The Leader: lavender, honey, strawberries and cream, milk tea. The light academia friend, always smells of flora. white, gold, neutrals. Natural makeup. Neatly ironed clothing. Probably has a white/beige/brown cat with its own bell collar.  The Bodyguard: roses, chocolate, grapes, energy drinks. Punk academia variant, sometimes smells of an elegant musk. Black, silver, grey. Dark makeup, red lips. Shirt untucked, uneven socks, unkempt hair. Carries a pack of cigarettes, will play classical music with electric instruments. Dog lover. Will fight if provoked. Flips off professors. The Supporter: sunflowers, raspberries, water from the mountains. The cottagecore friend. Smells of sandalwood, gold, green, beige. Unkempt hair wrapped in flowers she grew in her room. Summer evenings with a little breeze, violin player. Loves to bake for her friends. Is baby. The Quiet One: peonies, chocolates and caramel, black coffee. Dark academia, thought to be the leader’s twin but in black. thoughtful and mysterious, won’t speak more than a few sentences at a time. Black, blue, silver, brown. Almost like the baby sister of the group, adored feverishly. Daydreams a lot. Will tell you Allan Poe is her great uncle. Straight A student. The Fashionista: hibiscus, vanilla and berries, light academia’s childhood friend. The one you go to for fashion advice, fur coats, leather boots, warm sweaters. Little effort in looking beautiful, has a beret from her great grandfather. Fruit juice, sometimes gets carried away when venting but her friends love her regardless. White, gold, brown, pink. Better in fashion than in studies. 

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You always say I can talk to you but it's getting bad again and it just feels like I've been bothering you

Confession #39

it just bottles up and up until you can’t hold it, and once you spill it, you don’t feel anything anymore

astnomer student aesthetics

The concept of the secret history classics class over zoom continues to occupy all my thoughts but unfortunately julian would just hold his class in person bc he has no regard for the health and safety of his students

when i’m about to be happy

you destroy me in pieces

intensions are different,

in tension you leave me

no pain turns my mind into hate

my love is more than i can break

give me peace in this mess that you’ve build

stay, and i will give you more than you ever did.

monolithic love that i’m telling about in my monologue,

it is story for two

and i wasn’t even a drop

in your pool.

while my mind is racing in my failed attempts of letting him go

my heart finds its peace in images of his touch

the softness of his palm, and warmness of his smile

two steps backwards due to thousands of miles in between us

but there is a thin line that i believe keeps us tightly close

a line through which my kiss will find you

and on every gloomy day i will feel your hug

My kind of academia aesthetic

Listening to Chopin, Beethoven, Mahler, Debussy and Ravel and closing my eyes when the best part comes on

Going insane when the author I'm studying does something great-incredible-admirable as I start to fall in love with him/her

Thanking artists for sharing their art and assuring them silently that their message arrived

Trying ballet steps whenever I come across a mirror + the sound of pointe shoes, theatre's particular smell, tearing up after curtain calls, reharsing pantomime in an empty studio

Heart clenching all the time when a piece of art just strikes me good

Feeling spiritually connected and dreaming to have a chat with Virginia Woolf, maybe while drinking some tea

Knowing Opera arias by heart and humming the melody while busy doing something

Also, being super excited when it's almost theatre time! Like soooo excited! Can't wait!

Studying in an ancient benedictine monastery in Sicily and exploring every inch of it, walking a lot randomly and finding new pretty and quiet places to stay in

Looking up during a boring class and contemplating old frescoes on the ceiling

Tying ribbons in my hair

Ranting angrily about Lancelot in "Le chevalier de la charrete" to my best friend who absolutely had no idea about what was going on

Randomly telling my brother things I learned and him asking for more because I usually make him laugh a lot

Bragging about how much I love every subject I study and absolutely not regretting my choice

Smiling while reading because that passage was sooooo smart-written

FEMINIST. APPROACHES. AND. WARRIOR. WOMEN. IN. LITERATURE.

Taking pictures of the sky everywhere because I always look at it as the ultimate source of beauty

Intense philosophy lessons during summer, held by my father who studies philosophy just because he loves it, and exchanging facts about it during the day

Writing frantically my book's next chapter on the bus during my way home because I were daydreaming so hard about it before (+ my friend telling me it's as good as poetry)

Saving all the exhibition tickets I have been to

Being humble and ambitious at the same time

Telling everyone i'm studying humanities because the worlds needs to change and them not understanding how the two things are linked

"I'm having suicidal thoughts again and I want to tell someone. I want to open up and ask for help but I'm scared that they'll see me different so I just face it alone until the thoughts eventually win."

— my thoughts are killing me slowly

All About Auras

An aura could best be described as the energy given off by someone or something. Supposedly, everything has an aura, even an apple. Many people are able to either see or ‘sense’ auras, which may appear as a haze of light or colour surrounding something.

The colour an aura appears can have many correspondences, which can relate to someone’s mood or spirituality, or can be because of external factors such as light intensity. It’s even said to be possible to tell if someone is pregnant from the way their aura appears.

Common misconceptions about auras:

It is always the same colour.  - This is untrue, as auras tend to change colour when affected by many different factors. However one colour may be dominant.

It is always the same shape and texture.  - Nope, they could appear hazy, smooth, or spiky. Some could have auras spanning an inch from their bodies, but others could have auras reaching out to a metre.

There is scientific evidence for auras.  - Again, untrue. Despite many people being able to see auras, there is no way to measure them or comprehend why it is even there.

Your aura is a shield.  - Whilst it’s possible to utilise your energy to shield yourself from things through visualisation, your aura alone is by no means a barrier against spirits and vampire-like entities looking to ‘feed off’ your energy. Learn how to ward yourself.

There is only one colour at a time.  - Your visible aura can actually be a mix of colours. However, there are also seven different extents of your aura, ranging from physical to spiritual, which could all be a different colour at one time.

It is especially important to note that auras are constantly changing. This could be seen as Anicca, or impermanence, in which the Buddha taught that nothing is permanent and everything is constantly changing. The aura reflects this truth in ourselves and those around us.

Seeing Your Aura

Some people are able to see auras with ease without a whole lot of practice, whereas others might never be able to comprehend the aura. It is common for many witches to practice with seeing their aura.

Here is a simple exercise which will help you to begin seeing your aura. This is what I tend to get people to do often when starting with auras. If inexperienced, it is important to practice often in order to get better!

You may want to begin by meditating or casting a circle in order to have a better focus on your aura. Make sure you are calm and in the mindset to concentrate.

Find a blank area, such as a white wall or a sheet of paper, and hold your hand out to it. It is important that you don’t get distracted by the colour of the wall or anything on it.

Rather than focusing directly onto your hand, shift your gaze to look just past it. For instance just past your fingers, but not the space directly between your fingers.

Focus on this space. To avoid distracting yourself, practice steady breathing as you would in meditation.

Eventually, you should begin to see a haze of light surrounding your hand. At first it may appear small and even colourless, but keep practicing and you will start to see it even better.

Colour Correspondences

The colour of an aura can have many connotations, and can be dictated by thr shape and texture too. But here is a guide to help you with the typical deciption of simple aura colours.

RED -

Centred/grounded, passion, anger, energetic.

ORANGE -

Power, confidence, outgoing, good health.

YELLOW - 

Spiritual awakening/awareness, playful, happiness.

GREEN -

Healing, good communication, jealousy.

BLUE -

Intuition, calm, clairvoyance, honesty, fear of the future.

PURPLE -

Daydreaming, spirituality, artistic, psychic abilities.

WHITE -

Newness, purity, reaching enlightenment, angelic.

BLACK -

Negative feelings, blocked energy, potential illness.

BROWN -

Grounded, tied to the outdoors, afraid to let go.

PINK -

Loving, sensual, psychic gifts, dishonesty.

SILVER -

Physical and spiritual wealth, awakening of higher thought.

GOLD -

Enlightenment, protection from divine entities, guidance.

RAINBOW -

A rainbow aura can indicate a healer, a new soul, or reaching enlightenment.