Occasionally I Remember That I (age 9/10) Was In Love With Eyeless Jack And I Was SURE I Was Going To

I only care about 4 things

My gorgeous girlfriend!

Books!

everything and everyone that ever percived me, to the smallest good morning to the deepest conversation, every opinion, every gossip, when they see something and remember about me, all the raw and unfiltered thougts about me, the ones they would never say

Soup!

Nobody tagged me, but idc

favorite color ꕀ green and brown

last song ꕀ Like Him (ft: Lola Young), from Tyler, The Creator

currently reading ꕀ Dune: Part Two (THIS IS GOOOOODD)

currently watching ꕀ Marble Hornets

currently craving ꕀ A break from this cruel world and of my feelings... and lasagna =)

coffee or tea ꕀ coffee 4 ever bb(or until i have a heart atack)

Tags: @kitty-pilled-gamma (Bro idk anybody here😭😭)

get to know your moots tag game ! ✶ answer the questions, then tag six people

favorite color ꕀ green and brown last song ꕀ tú by maye currently reading ꕀ the luminaries by susan dennard currently watching ꕀ the great british baking show currently craving ꕀ massaman curry. like always. and like. alcohol and a couple cigs HAHA. a break too :P coffee or tea ꕀ always tea! i don't like coffee

ty for the tag @saltcxrcle ! tagging: @lelapine @toadspondofwhimsy @outof-spite @h0neyst4rz @hhoneylemon @our-lady-of-venom

Trying to prove a point to my transphobic parents

Reblog if trans men are REAL, VALID AND HANDSOME MEN, NO MATTER HOW THEY CHOOSE TO PASS

Reblog if trans women are REAL, VALID, AND BEAUTIFUL WOMEN, NO MATTER HOW THEY CHOOSE TO PASS

And finally, because it's a part of my argument for this point, and also because they are,

Reblog if nonbinary and genderqueer people in general, are REAL, VALID, AND GORGEOUS PEOPLE, NO MATTER HOW THEY PASS

that a beautiful art, but the inspiration is sad, I hope you send they to hell :)

Finally finished this piece about the toxic beauty standards imposed by my parents while growing up. Painting all those eyes felt both meditating and drove me insane.

TW: child abuse

I included some of the comments my family has made about my appearance over the years, some of which are contradicting, just to show how impossible it was to please their toxic beauty standards. To them, I was always too skinny and too fat at 115lb. And being 5'6 was too short.

My mom told me to get plastic surgery for my monolid eyes, because only double lidded eyes are considered beautiful by Chinese standards. She pointed to her friend's daughter, who did get plastic surgery for her entire face, and said how much better the girl looked, how I should be like that.

My dad commented on my flat chest, asking how come my mom has boobs while I don't. My stepmom pointed out the frown lines around my lips, saying I don't smile enough. My stepmom always bullied me to the point of crying (by calling my mom a whore and such), so she knows exactly why I don't smile enough. My stepdad said my personality is too horrible to get a normal job, so I would have to prostitute myself, but that I'm too ugly to get clients so I would starve. When I told my mom what he said, she told me to stop lying.

After a lot of therapy for my CPTSD, I can look back and realize that they were the ugly ones, in all sense of the word. But for so long I had such little self-esteem, I would avoid photos. At my first artist alley over a decade ago, fans of my art wanted photos with me but I was too ashamed of myself to accept. I've improved a lot and no longer fear being photographed. I still struggle with other aspects of my childhood abuse (a story for a different day), but with each passing year I feel like I'm regaining bits of myself.

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A peek of the painting process, the full hours long videos will be DMed on my Patreon on Sep 5th

Gastropoda....

im a snail

a wizard is going to turn you into a random animal! whether you like it or not! how nice of them! spin the wheel to find out which class your new species belongs to (and then probably do a google).

Os fantasmas ainda se divertem!

Eu fui assistir Os fantasmas ainda se divertem, no INSTANTE que eu vi a Delores eu sabia, essa mulher precisa se tornar (meio que ja é) um icone!

Eu sabia que o Beetlejuice era meio pamonha, mas que tipo de pessoa (ou demonio) que ama uma pessoa não daria a alma pra ela? ainda mais para a Dolores, tipo?! Eu amei ela, amei o filme, mas acho que podia tem um final melhor para ela, e para o Jeremy. E o PIOR, eu não tenho ninguém para falar sobre!

Why do people want to justificate learning something new? "Oh, you're learning about animals? You will be a veterinarian. "

What if I just want to learn? What if I need learn? What will you do when I tell you that if I don't learn enough to immediately sleep of exaustion, the black mass of my own thoughts will tell me until I sleep "you did absolutely NOTHING the whole day, you are the worst person of your family."

What if they are right?

live, laugh, green grapes

Falei de você para os pássaros E mandei-os ir Cantar sobre seu beijo que nunca provei E cantar, para os leigos terem um gostinho do céu Mesmo que não acreditamos nele -canto dos anjos

I awake the gay inside you lol