Just Remembered How Many Things Need To Happen In My Story In Order For It To Be A Full Novel. I Am No

# rotting with ambivalence

i don't write poetry often, so this is likely not written well; and i have an unusual speech pattern, so this may not flow well aside from in my own reading; enjoy

i look at you and all i know is fading

my sense of couth lost, as im found desperately trying to reach it

all im bound to find is despair.

but you know that right?

youll tear me down to shame, night by night;

"my heart is not for the taking"

though this bruise feels all too loving

and so do my words.

another crack is left on my lips

i beg for you to think about me just once

to think about me in the sense of family.

we both know youll never get there

instead ill look for whats left of you;

i see you in the swans, their beauty suddenly ruined

i sit and watch as they deceive their admirers;

ill never blame them.

Hesperus Lark - a mood board

– Song of lost secrets

“do you still feel like that? do you love me, or am I just your fascination?”

Emene boss - a mood board

– Song of lost secrets

"What the hell are you so busy with now anyways that i cant be a part of it?"

Book tropes & dynamics i love (in no order)

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author who writes for fun x reader who's dying for something new

enemies, but lovers

*explains everything simply but in detail* x "..huh ?"

mute/rarely talks x never shuts up

takes care if siblings a lot x doesnt know how to handle kids

enemy goes to mc for help bc they didnt know what else to do

insanely fucked up woman that no one actually suspects x "what the fuck did you do to him ?!" only one who knows about it guy

academic rivals

found family ofc

*literally has a knife to their throat* "wait, youre kinda cute"

I keep wondering if making headcanons of my own ocs just makes them canon or not since I'm the writer. Or is it only canon if demonstrated in the story?

# Character profile: Salem grey

Picrew used, full credit to Naylissah. (moodboard here)

Role: protagonist

Name; Salem

age; 17

birthday; 14/8/1704

species; human

sexuality; gay

height; 5'10

"I didn't wanna end up like this. I'd have gone so far, I know I would've."

motivations; desire to be seen, freedom,

mannerisms; fast paced speaking, lots of questions, loud, nose scrunching, big movements, tilting his head, skipping letters

fears: drowning & dissapointment

hobbies: knife throwing, sailing, drink tasting

Criminal record:

aggravated assault

disturbing the peace

extortion

open container

underage drinking

arson

theft

The world seems to be a very big place that im willing to grow to understand .

– me in the middle of the night

Full offense but your writing style is for you and nobody else. Use the words you want to use; play with language, experiment, use said, use adverbs, use “unrealistic” writing patterns, slap words you don’t even know are words on the page. Language is a sandbox and you, as the author, are at liberty to shape it however you wish. Build castles. Build a hovel. Build a mountain on a mountain or make a tiny cottage on a hill. Whatever it is you want to do. Write.

how do you reconnect to life after being disconnected for so long

Rayen Perez - a mood board

– Song of lost secrets

"Hey stop, you know that wasn't your fault right? Neither of us could have predicted that night. "