04/16/2025

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

Some study motivation before I start my day 🩵

Transitions are hard...

Like I know I got diagnosed last year with ADHD, but I haven't felt like this in so long? Seriously, I don't know how I've functioned so well in college, and now in PhD, my brain is starting to give up on me.

I wish my school or someone had taught me how to use a neurodivergent brain growing up. Maybe it would be less difficult right now.

It feels like I make a plan, and then the next thing I know, my brain chooses not to follow it cause it's not exciting enough. I wish I could just work 4 hours a day and then rest and recharge using the remaining time. I know this is impossible with my current workload and commitment, but I can't wait for that day to come when I can create my schedule and I don't have to worry about not having enough income each month.

Good luck my pals who are also neurodivergent ~

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

It's been helpful posting a little motivation before I start studying and working on tasks that I dread or fear 😊

This is my first time seeing this collage, and it really resonated with me! I like how it shows different aspects of life (mainly studying), which is a good balance. Looking forward to bringing more of this energy into my life 🩵

03/21/2025

I had a medical appointment this morning so I didn't start my part-time job until the afternoon, which also delayed my time to complete some schoolwork.

I find myself gravitating toward tasks that involve clinical work and blissfully neglecting my class assignments like 10-page papers and group presentations 😅 I haven't even looked at my thesis progress and created a new timeline yet. I don't think I have the mental energy to do any of this right now.

Maybe working with my energy and passion right now is the way to go ~

Completed

✅ medical appointment

✅ part-time work

✅ walk my dog

That's it for now, but I might come back and update this before the end of the day if I finish more tasks =)

Have a wonderful weekend, lovely humans 🩵

04/04/2025

Had a full-day of workshop and I still have a few more to go... The day hasn't been that bad. Not until I realized how much I got charged for a recent imaging I had to do for my accident 🙃 They say US health insurance sucks, and I cannot agree more. I'm trying to stay positive and keep faith in the Universe, but it's hard when things like this happen. I don't know what more I can do. I don't know how I'm supposed to let go and surrender.

Completed

✅ Workshop ✅ Hangout with my friend ✅ Dinner ✅ Thesis work (30 minutes) ✅ Phone call with partner

To-Do

⏹️ Shower before bed

03/24/2025

I updated my semester planner over the weekend and am ready to refocus my time and energy to finish my 4th semester in this program.

I was caught up with time-sensitive tasks and reworking my planner again for most of today, but I promised my accountability buddy that I would work on my thesis at least a little. I need to remind myself that:

It is never too late to start a task; it is never a failure to revise a plan.

I can't say for sure that I come back stronger each time. But I know I come back wiser and more rested with every setback.

Completed

✅ Scheduled medical appointment (finally!)

✅ Read all school emails and replied

✅ Updated semester planner for the next 1.5 weeks (for 2 group projects)

✅ Updated calendar to work on group projects and thesis

✅ Wrote a personal article

✅ Therapy session

✅ Did laundry

✅ Find PPT slide for group project

Thesis Tasks

✅ Updated thesis writing schedule for this week

✅ Review advisor's feedback on thesis draft

✅ Made 1 correction (I skimmed through an article for this so I'm calling it a win)

Today's study concluded at 1:24am.

Study Music 🎧:

"The House of Wind | Magical Night Under the Starts with ACOTAR Spring Court Ambience" - Prythian on YouTube

Some motivation to start today =)

Even when you're tired, remember why you started.

04/09/2025

Started reading this Webtoon called "Ex-Love Review" and I couldn't stop until I can find the latest chapters. So I'm just gonna finish one task and head to bed...

Completed

✅ School ✅ Part-time job ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Quiz ✅ Dinner ✅ Read Ex-Love Review ✅ Clinic report results x2 (finished in 30 mins?? Amazing!!)

To-Dos

⏹️ Shower (I'm gonna shower in the morning, I promise 🤞🏻)

[End of day: 1:05am] Got more done than I expected, but I definitely neglected some things 😅 I think I'm starting to burn out, which is why I started reading on Webtoon to get a dopamine hit. Need to figure out how I can better rest and do schoolwork at the same time... Good night 🩵

3/3/2025 Day 2

I changed my schedule yesterday and created a new plan. Seems to be working so far!

It feels a little weird to start doing my main task at 3pm, but I feel less pressured to wake up early and speed through my morning routine. Also, I noticed that I don't like checking my phone when I want to focus on my day. I feel slightly guilty for people who text me on a Monday, but seriously, I just want to be in my own head all day and focus on what I want to finish.

Side tangent: My dog was snoring and making growling sounds while he was napping today lol. He makes me feel alive 😂

This looks like my dog but is not my dog. Close enough =P

3/1/2025 Day 1

I feel like yesterday wasn't that bad, so today should start pretty well too... Guess I was wrong / not as accurate as thought about my own behaviors.

I ended up waking up and checking social media, and it sent me down a spiral of starting this new online novel about werewolves and fated mates. They know me too well lol.

Now it's past 3pm and I have a long list of to-dos, combined with what I didn't get to yesterday. Will this kind of life ever end? Will I ever decide to not push away what I need to do right now and enjoy the instant gratification that causes me long-term despair?