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I'm not losing weight fast enough. For now on I will limit myself to only 500 calories perday. Although I'm losing weight and I'm watching the scale go down I would want the weightloss to actually be noticeable.

So for 500 calories a day I will just have to get used to the hunger. I no longer want to be a big chick all it attracts is abusers and liers

Breakfast - 4 cups of ice water 💧0 Cal!

When will I start to feel light and weightless? I'm desperate for that attention skinny brings and I will not stop till I get there. If I have to pay my mental health for it then that is the price I am willing to pay. I want boys to look at me, I want girls to envy me. And I want my family to take back every little negative thing they have ever said about me back. I will no longer be the fat freind, the fat sister or the fat coworker. Ha! They will all watch me get thin.

And I WILL get there. They will all see. Every guy that has ever ignored me will finally be forced to pay attention. That will make things right.

For now on- Listen up fattie

860 calories will be the MAX that I can have. ABSOLUTELY NO CHEAT DAYS. Fatties don't deserve cheat days.

I will have to drink 8 cups of water each day to prevent me from eating.

I WILL chew my food 25 times before swallowing.

I will take my protein powder and supplements daily

I WILL get plenty of sleep at least 8 to 10 hrs per day. Beauty queens need their rest.

I'm already at 830 calories yikes! All because I ate some of my coworkers food. So the plan for today is to FAST untill 12am the following morning.

Rules for fast-

Take vitamins and supplements

Sip plenty of water

Sip plenty of low cal tea 🍵 sweetened with splenda

Diet soda is allowed zero calorie

Take a warm shower to get my mind off food

Take a long nap

Binge watch YouTube

If I can manage this fast I will stay at 830 calories. Still alot but at least I didn't consume more calories. At this point I'll take what I can get

I wish I could survive on as little calories as possible. I long to punish myself for the wrong I've done to my ex, my mother or just anyone really that I have displeased with my presence. I need to punish myself. Only then I'll be a good girl inside and out. I'd say a good number for myself would be 500 calories. I need to punish myself. I CANNOT exists on food. My suffering will be atonement for all my sins.

I feel bad for going over so many calories. Ugh I HAVE to stop eating the food at work 😩

16 pieces of wheatthins plain 140

1 smart kettle corn popcorn 100

240 calorie snack

Food cravings....

Tonight I'm craving a chicken sandwhich and with bread and I can't have one 😩. This makes me so sad 😞

1 mug of vanilla chai tea with splenda 0 cal

Skipped lunch today. Took a melatonin pill 5mg when I got back from grocery shopping after work 😴. I slept from 10am all the way till 6pm.

0 calories for me. Still at 474.

I had a dream I was eating cheesy pizza then I woke up scared that I had gone way over my calorie intake. The pizza was so darn vivid and juicy. Fuck

I think I'll have some tea instead before I head to work. Now that I awoke I'm not that hungry just thristy.

Lost 2 lbs since yesterday. Idk how that happened 😕 must be water weight. But hey, 2lbs is 2 lbs!

Today's Breakfast-

9 egg whites (18 cal each) 162 cal

1 spoonful of splenda 0 cal

1 chopped up potatoes ( 127 grams) 100 calories

1 healthy pinch of salt 0 cal

A dash of smoked paprika 0 cal

A few sprays of Pam's cooking spray 0 cal

1 glass of water 16 oz with ice

3 xtremewellness Tommato and basil wraps 50 cal each- 150

1 small gala apple (108 grams) 62 calories

Total for meal - 474 calories ...

700 calories is my new safe number now. I dont feel safe eating above 700. I know it's not sustainable but I will give everything I got to meet that number. I don't want to be fat anymore it's making me a target for abuse and my weight has kept me trapped in a bad relationship.

Every lb I lose will dig me out of this cage my ex has put me in.

Blueberry tea with splenda 0 calorie treat and bubble gum

Grocery shopping today-

Zero sugar torani flavor syrup carmel and vanilla

Zero sugar coffee creamer pumpkin spice

More tea flavors

Canned pumpkin

Cinnamon

Low calorie food list

**Food items should be weighed for accuracy

Tea- 0 calories

Water- 0 calories

Coffee medium roast/flavored 0 calories for flavored check the bag to make sure.

Arugula 5 calories per cup

Lettuce- 5 calories per cup

Egg whites- 18 calories per egg yolk has to be removed

Alfalfa Sprouts- 8 calories per cup

Napa Cabbage 13 calories per cup

Cucumber 16 calories per cup

Celery- 14 calories per cup

Radishes - 19 calories per cup sliced

Bok Choy- 20 calories per cup

cabbage- 22 calories per cup

Mushrooms- 22 calories per cup

Eggplant 35 calories sliced

Swiss Chard 35 calories per cup sliced Asparagus 40 calories per cup

Spinach 41 calories per cup

Summer Squash 34 calories per cup

Diet soda - 0 calories

zero suger coffee creamer 15 to 25 calories always check the package-

splenda - 0 calories

Stats for today

Breakfast-

Water - 0 calories

3 cups of vegetable soup - 321 calories with added salt absolutely delicious 😋

1 sandwich (2 slices of wheat bread 110 + 3 baloney slices at 80 calories each) 460

Total- 781

Lunch- pumpkin spice ice coffee - 120 calories

Puts me at 901 calories

Liquid Fast for 15hrs untill 12:45am midnight ✨️

10:21pm - vanilla chai tea with 3 spoonfulls of splenda 0 calories

Fear foods

Bread - enough said.

Peanut butter thick and Creamy about 200 calories per tablespoon

yogurt makes my stumach hurt also high in calories

any kind of chips- high in salt and super addicting 😅

ice cream way to thick and heavy on my stomach

full fat soda - way to much sugar and empty calories

steak full on choking hazard - way to much fat and high in calories also bad for your heart-

Egg yolks- high in calories and cholesterol

Goals for tomorrow ✨️🎃

Tommrow my goal is to grab some more low calorie goodies for my coffee and tea.

Tommrow I will come home- clean up - shower like a good girl. Then go to bed.

Tommrow I will challenge myself - i am to take in no more than 800 calories by midnight. I know I can do this

I feel

I feel so gross and stuffed for eating that begal

At work tonight..and I'm trying to convince myself not to purge it up right now. I haven't purged since the age 18... I'm 23 now. But I feel so sick inside pit I don't want to throw up my vitamins I just took. I guess I'll just have start over the next day back at 800. Ugh I hate myself right now

This is my first time trying Coffee-Mate zero sugar coffee creamer and it's a pumpkin spice version and it is only 15 calories per tablespoon! I am super shocked how good it tastes. So for now on I'll be buying the zero sugar kind for my coffee creamer. The second one I have is a terrainy salted caramel sugar-free kind which has zero calories and that too is also pretty good. I'm tempted to toss out all my other high calorie coffee creamers and coffee syrups but that's a waste of money so I'll just budget my calories accordingly and next time I'll just buy the sugar-free kind

My big jar of zero calorie sweetness

Pumpkin spice iced coffee 120 calories

Zero sugar torani syrup -

Ice- 0 calorie

Pumkin spoce coffee- 0

Splenda Zero calorie- Just added a lot in

Zero sugar coffee creamer 15 cal per tbsp

15×8=120