Update!!
Update!!
I wore short sleeve again today and it went pretty well! I had my right arm completely uncovered the whole day and on my left arm I wore bracelets that covered most of my arm. I don’t know if anyone was staring because I wasn’t really paying attention but no one said anything which is good because they shouldn’t. Sometimes I felt like covering up but then realized I didn’t have to. I also had the pacer test today and I ran in short sleeves for the first time ever since starting sh and it felt so good. I got a score of 30 btw which is my lowest ever score cause I usually get around 50 but I didn’t really care abt it or try.
In 3rd period i saw this girl who was wearing shorts that showed the scars on her thighs. I didnt know that she did sh but it made me happy that she didnt care if others saw. It also gave me a little courage to know that I shouldn’t have to cover the scars on my thigh and others might not even notice.
I think the biggest insecurity I have to get over are the scars on my left arm. Although I wore bracelets, they don’t cover everything so a few scars were showing including my biggest one which I’m most insecure about. I did kind of have either a jacket covering it or have it facing away from other people most of the day but that’s okay. I know soon I won’t care about it anymore.
I know one day i’ll be able to go out without any bracelets and not feel like I have to hide. Thanks for reading again and I will update again. Below is a picture of the outfit I wore today.
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Okay first for some context: I used to sh. I did it for almost 2 years but i’ve stopped and I’m currently 4 months clean!! I have scars all over both my arms and upper thighs. I have some in other places but those are less visible.
Anyway, I’m so happy because this week I took a big step in recovery; I wore shorts and a t-shirt to school! This was my first time ever wearing a t-shirt without covering up since i started sh.
Btw my left arm looks “worse” than my right arm so when i was wearing a t-shirt I was mostly covering that side with a jacket but some times I wasn’t so i was close. But I had my right arm completely out and although it has less scars and less noticeable ones I’m still proud of myself. Right now I feel almost completely comfortable with showing my right arm maybe even without bracelets on but not my left one yet but i’ll get there soon.
And for shorts I also mostly had my scars out but since my shorts go up kinda when I sit i covered it with a jacket a bit but it’s okay. I have 1 big scar on my thigh that’s pretty low down which is probably the only reason I’m uncomfortable wearing shorts. The other ones are pretty small and less noticeable.
I think the reason I was scared to show my scars is because I thought people would judge me and say things about me or think bad things but so far no one has said anything and I also realize I can’t hear other people’s thoughts so even if they were thinking about it I wouldn’t know. Also i shouldn’t care what others think of me.
It was so random when I started being brave enough to do this. I think it’s because I have this school trip for orchestra to an amusement park coming up and we have to wear t-shirts and the past 2 years i’ve worn a long sleeve shirt under it but this year I wanted to just wear the t-shirt. So now i’m kind of like practicing wearing short sleeves until I’m comfortable enough to maybe wear it on the trip. I might even wear shorts too.
Lastly, I think another reason i feel more comfortable is because I’m starting to lose weight and rn I’m not like fat but I am a bit overweight. And the crazy thing is i’m barely even exercising and i’m still losing weight because i’m being calorie deficit. I used to think that i’d have to do these crazy daily workouts but i really don’t need to. I think I started around mid April and so far I’ve lost 9lbs!! I don’t feel that much different but I hope i start seeing the difference soon. But anyway i feel like when I lose weight i’ll be more comfortable in clothes.
Thanks for reading all the way through if you did <3. It was very relaxing and peaceful writing this. I will be updating on my progress for both weight loss and wearing shorts and short sleeves in the future.
I’m probably gunna get permanently hearing damage
they're always with me 24/7
Ugh I really want a boyfriend
This is so random but I just want someone who loves me in a romantic way and who cares about me and doesn’t care that I have scars. Someone who’s kind and caring and accepts me for who I am. Someone who wants to hang out with me and go places together. And I want him to tell me he likes me so ik it’s real.
What makes this worse is that I think i’m aromantic so i don’t know if i’ll find someone I like but the idea of being with someone is really comforting to me.
Ik even if I do find someone we probably won’t last past high school but idc. I will still be happy as long as they’re a good person.
I’m going to a new school next year and I really hope I find someone and if I do I want us to be good friends first so i already know them. I’ve never had a bf before but hopefully will get one one day.
Real
like what am I even for
Height: 5’ 4 (162cm)
Start weight 4/18/25: 165lbs (75Kg)
Current weight: 155lbs (70kg)
Goal weight: 130lbs (59Kg)
Under goal weight: 120lbs (54kg)
