Current mood = Brown clouds
I just feel so super empty and numb today. I miss surfing. I miss my parents. I miss my old friends. I miss dancing. I miss falling asleep to k-dramas and walks to grams. I miss caring. ED... Why did you do this to me? I'm locked in a cage with you and I want to escape but without you... Without you I feel like I lose myself. Maybe I just hate myself. I hate this.
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i wish i hated food
i wish i got nauseous just thinking of eating
i wish the sight of food made me want to claw my stomach out
i hate constantly fighting myself