Should Of Done It When I Had The Chance

It’s actually devastating that I feel comfortable in anyone’s house but my own

Maybe you’re wishing for the wrong things.

Värmland, Sweden (December 22, 2023).

Yearning for what I can’t have. Premature and doomed.

Wish I could be committed to literally anything

take me out back and give me the old yeller special atp i’m fed up dawg

Yearning not even for anyone in particular I just want sighhhhhhhh

hi tumblr how we doing

It makes me so insanely pissed that people care

I know it sounds stupid and self loathing and it is

But I don’t understand why people still stay with me despite how fucked up and neurotic I am

I feel like I do nothing except make my problems other peoples burden

Take this stupid fucking account for example

All I do is bitch and whine

I’m sorry you have to be around someone like me

I’m sorry that I hate myself so much that it bleeds out of me in every way possible

I wish I was different so bad

I wish I could be a better friend

I wish I could be a better brother

I wish I could of been a better son

I wish they didn’t die only knowing me as their daughter

I’m sorry that this is such a big part of me

I’m sorry none of this makes sense

I am in so much pain