阿竟然不知道学校有关于mary的conference。有一个lecturer和一个phd Candidate都在研究她

“liking something in fiction doesn’t mean you condone it in real life” but instead of dark fanfiction tropes it’s about liking jeeves and wooster while being a socialist

“Mary’s accession to the throne thrust her into yet another nontraditional role: regnant queen. Mary was the first woman to claim the English crown since Empress Matilda did so in the twelfth century; unlike Matilda, she was the first woman to successfully hold the throne. In the intervening years a number of strong queen consorts had exerted influence over reigning kings, but not until Mary ascended to the throne did a woman have control over the realm in her own right. She ruled as a single queen, as her sister Elizabeth did after her, and also as a married queen, having decided to marry for the sake of producing an heir to the throne, like her father did before her. She would take on the roles of Virgin Queen, wife, and would-be mother, and she would usher in an unprecedented time period in the history of Great Britain, when a trio of female monarchs, Mary herself, her successor Elizabeth I, and Mary, queen of Scots, would rule England and Scotland for half a century. Yet Mary, as the first of these three remarkable rulers, had no role model (except perhaps her grandmother Isabel), and no precedent to follow in defining her untraditional role as queen regnant of England. She was the first woman to take the political helm of her kingdom at a time when the nature of female rule created ambiguous feelings at best. Yet she successfully established herself as both king and queen of England; negotiated with the Emperor Charles V for her own marriage with his son Philip of Spain, the highest ranking Catholic prince in Europe, in a marriage treaty that gave Mary autonomy; and reintroduced Catholicism to England. In spite of her reputation for failure, it has been said by one historian that her only real failure was in dying too soon and by another that her only failure was in dying without having produced a child of her own to follow in her footsteps. What if Mary’s two false pregnancies had resulted in the birth of a living child? This is another liminal moment in Mary’s life—had she been succeeded by a Catholic Tudor heir, her reputation as “Bloody” might not have had the staying power that it has had.”

— Princess, Bastard, Queen, Villain by Sarah Duncan and Valerie Schutte, 2016. In The Birth of a Queen: Essays on the Quincentenary of Mary I

每次马桶里放着84也不让冲 就非要这样让我用

给翻看旧帖的自己：千万不要再回国。记得这次回国回家的遭遇有多难受。身体+精神+work受到多少影响。

Totally typical Felix behaviour. Blame his cousin for being sexually threatened (that’s what UK guidance says before the film), because he has already been blaming Farleigh (mostly likely a minor at that time) for sexual encounters with teachers.

I would have loved Felix finding Ollie mid ride on farleigh hahahaha so instead of Ollie having to do the plate thing Felix just kicks farleigh out. Like he didn’t let them finish or anything just pulled Ollie’s naked ass off farleighs dick and took him to his room, throwing him inside the bathroom so he’ll shower before walking out and telling Duncan to pack farleighs things cuz he’s not staying for the rest of summer pfff

Anyways in my mind farleigh had a little crush on Oliver like “guys hear me out” type crushes hahahaha

My precious memories and public records about things most important to me were both destroyed. They vanished. At several times. Unpreventable and I can do nothing.

One thing I found really interesting: I still hold the assumption that North Koreans are probably brainwashed and can be actually good people. But I can’t think the same about people in my country. Maybe it’s because I was bullied by them. My friends were bullied and threatened by them. And the saddest thing is people closest to me could be one of them.

SALTBURN (2023) dir. Emerald Fennell

或许我应该转变心态 像14年他说的 即使徒劳无功

没收我喜欢的衣服 只有她觉得好看的衣服才是好看

在我很忙有事而且腹泻的时候非要美其名曰给我买衣服实际上是去她喜欢的一家小店非要买 店主姗姗来迟带着一只不拴绳汪汪叫的小狗

给翻看旧帖的自己：千万不要再回国。记得这次回国回家的遭遇有多难受。身体+精神+work受到多少影响。

我从床上坐起来，被子都堆积裹在腿上，浑身有点燥热，《mad》编曲总让人怀疑窗外有救护车。

看到一个歌名《明日再会》。在听《mad》，想起颁奖礼。羡慕徒弟。想看小林给黄填歌词，顺便想起《最高分数》。

屏幕出现这专辑封面时候马世芳正说道......

还有他的衣领 人民如潮涌？