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钟二郎吃鬼里面一段我现在再看着就想要百合 原来真的是百合 当年傻乎乎没看出来

不看她pyq=下一步杀母

给翻看旧帖的自己：千万不要再回国。记得这次回国回家的遭遇有多难受。身体+精神+work受到多少影响。

到底有没有一家ktv歌单里面有《心甘命抵》，我已经从6月忍到现在了

bfi网站上竟然有programme notes存档 好棒

前几天在汤看到一个贴说lmk的fandom如何如何因为不了解原著而扭曲了其中深深根植的中国思想、价值观，我真是想翻白眼，西游记原著本身就是个大杂烩东拼西凑出来的，玄奘和（可能源自印度）神话人物的同人。要说扭曲原意，中国政府就用它为意识形态服务过很多次，商业影视剧、网文作者、职场导师也已经解构过无数次了，哪有什么有确定共识的中国人眼中的西游记呢？反正我是乐于看到一切改编。

不过昨晚又在这儿看到有人anti孙唐cp，理由是这关系太toxic，我倒是明白了有的东西确实是中国人更容易懂，孙唐原著就这样，你再怎么觉得悟空被师父辜负也改变不了原著里面他对师父真心实意，不是东亚人理解不了那你出门左转吧。

this is another scene that absolutely lights my brain on fire -

There's a lot going on here and imo the way Felix reacts to Annabel talking shit about Oliver is SO telling from a characterization standpoint. Like Annabel is essentially telling him "no one likes your boy bestie and the girls think he's weird." It's so interesting because Felix doesn't necessarily *defend* Oliver here, he doesn't enlighten her to his tragic backstory, doesn't tell her "actually he's really inspirational because you don't know what he's gone through to be here." He instead just gently chastises her for being harsh and snobby and then....the next scene is literally Felix fucking her while Oliver watches. THIS IS INSANE LOL. So much to unpack.

First of all, it's definitely worth mentioning that Felix DOES hype Oliver up to the people who truly matter to him (his parents, his sister, etc). Like Elspeth is fully aware of Oliver's tragic and triumphant backstory before Oliver even arrives. She's also been told that Oliver is intelligent and handsome ("I told you he wasn't a minger" said looking so pleased with himself for bringing a handsome boy home LOL). Venetia has also clearly heard all about how much Felix likes Oliver ("oh I see why Felix likes you so much.") These statements put what happens here with Annabel in a very unique context. It's almost like...Felix doesn't want to share these amazing things about Oliver with his peer group at school. We talk all the time about Oliver gatekeeping Felix but not enough about how Felix is kinda gatekeeping Oliver, especially from the girls at Oxford. Felix doesn't want irrelevant people at Oxford knowing how amazing Oliver is because Felix wants Oliver and his inspirational achievements all to himself. Hm it's almost like Felix and Oliver BOTH struggle with boundaries bc they're both terminally obsessed with each other lol.

What happens after this scene is enough to make me clinically insane LOL. The cutaway is literally Oliver bricked up about to cum untouched while crying and watching as Felix fucks the girl who was just talking shit about him!! The rituals are SO intricate here hahah. In my mind - it's almost like Felix is getting off to the fact that this girl doesn't know about his little secrets with Oliver. She's only allowed to see the most surface levels of him and Felix is literally turned on by the fact that other people don't have access to Oliver the way he does. He'll leave the blinds open while he fucks her in plain sight BUT he won't share even the most basic details about his close relationship with Oliver. He keeps Oliver all for himself but lets the world see him fucking Annabel. It's an insane metaphor honestly and so telling as to what is sacred vs. what's meaningless to Felix. Felix doesn't want to share Oliver just as much as Oliver doesn't want to share Felix. Two sides of the same coin imo, just expressed differently!

我的心仍旧会被这种事情割伤

更搞笑的是另一方可是明确地恨着共产，她就真中立到没一句怨言，对着受害一方则必须进行挑刺

搞这圈sfw的怎么还能有中立人呢（胖虎图.jpg），翻了翻发现，之前信共产主义的，哦明白了，在这地儿信共产的都是特色人，一时接受不了自己牢固的、本能一般的、如母乳一样安全的“信仰”崩塌，也是可以理解的。

我现在越来越看不清俄国人到底有多少支持有多少反对了，只能说不要见到一个俄国人就assume她/他是支持的吧。但自从19年之后我简中交友都是先assume对方很pinky，总有一层防备的隔膜，过滤着我自己的发言

当年撒切尔还跟手下商议过送什么礼物给做为总理的他……

如果没看错的话赵紫阳家书柜里有俩queen's guard纪念品摆件 可爱…… 我猜是孙子孙女辈的带回去的吧