Hits You With So Many Bnnuy

i just realized my life for the past 2 years has just been "receiving support/help/treatment for mental health issues." all my goals have been measured by my mental health issues. all my growth has been measured by my mental health issues. etc. etc. and it feels like i'm not even living.

and like yes my mental health issues are severe, they do impact every aspect of my life, they do heavily inform my identity, how i relate to others, etc. etc. but like. at the same time. even when my mental health was severe as a teenager, i had life outside it. it may not have been much compared to my peers, but i still had a few friends, a few hobbies, a few things that made my days worthwhile.

i don't really have any of that anymore, and i haven't for a long time. i'll have bursts of inspiration and whimsy, but it's always squashed down by judgements echoing in my head. and the worst part is, i blame myself for doing nothing but go to appointments. i blame myself for my mental health getting as bad as it has.

but the reality is. i and so many other severely mentally ill children are not given the opportunity to thrive. we're forced to meet impossible standards. anything we may enjoy or excel at isn't prioritized. everyone's focused on our deficits, our problems, our dangerous/risky behavior, our academics, our future employability, etc. etc.

no one ever sits down with us and earnestly works with us to achieve what we want for our life - what we need. no one prioritizes our happiness, or protects us when we're in danger from others. they just try to fix us, and when that hurts us? we're blamed. we're the ones who aren't trying. we're noncompliant. defiant. misbehaved. irresponsible. it's never the system's fault.

our disabilities and our age just get us totally abused/neglected, all in the name of making us into functional adults. we're not allowed to just be children, and a lot of us don't make it to adulthood. but when we do and still can't function like our peers, the world just leaves us to rot, saying we're old enough now and need to figure it out.

it's so incredibly cruel. no matter your age, if you've been treated this way... it's not your fault. it's not our fault. you're not the only one. you're not the problem. you were/are just a kid - a child in pain... and also an equal - a human being, just like the adults who hurt you. you deserved better. so much better.

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Will you Be Celebrating?

Cheshire! Jax using his head to chase Jax around.

Sprig putting his tongue on Grumpy Bear from release the magic.

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Hey! Just wanted to say that TRANS RIGHTS ARE HUMAN RIGHTS! So is the LGBTQ! 🏳️‍⚧️ 🏳️‍🌈 so everyone is welcome!! Love y’all and stay safe!

Decided to experiment using a different pen tool. Figured I'd try it out on drawing this purple stinker. Still love this guy.

Jax belongs to Gooseworx

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I love Sonic Boom so so much

The sweet charm of it is that they don't have the weight of the world on their shoulders so all of them can goof around and act their age with no worries, no masks, show their silly goofy teenage and child sides and that's what they're doing 90 percent of the time

It's like closest friends having a never-ending sleepover and bullying their weird crazy uncle when he tries to ground them or something and they also have an emo cousin who occasionally shows up to make fun of their blanket fort and criticize on their snacks.

I love Sonic Boom

I'm disturbed by the amount of content portraying Jax as some sort of sex predator...Cause for one thing, just why, and for another thing, Gooseworx has confirmed that he won't cross some boundaries...So what the fuck...