Leriff Anduion (@notleriff) And Yurah Tsukino By Amaipetisu

We tried watching some aquarium tv today. Rahir was hypnotized by bright fish. I think he still prefers the real birds outside. This little guy reminds me every day to be curious and explore. Also hide from strangers.

Watched Arcane S2 and it was pretty good but I was NOT expecting THE LESBIANS to just- LADIES.

The constant switching of art styles felt like I was in an 80's music video montage. Some of it was really touching, but other parts I felt lingered just too long. Can't wait for it to crash and burn in S3!

Okay now give me Shadow Isles thanks.

7/10

While I feel good at the start of my day, it always begins to slow down, and the weight of depression settles in. It's hard to motivate myself to do anything and even if I do get it done, I feel as though I haven't done enough and have to keep going. I have to do a lot to feel I accomplished anything and by then I'm overwhelmed mentally. It's not a good feeling.

We played Mouthwashing!

6/10 was overhyped. It was not a bad game, but eh. In the year of our lord and savior, Silent Hill 2, eh.

I started a project. Picking up the trash around my building and in this dense area where a lot of our little critters hang out. I filled a single trash bag today before I figured out how difficult it’s actually going to be. This picture is after I finished.

I pulled multiple plastic bags and picked up about twenty discarded alcohol bottles from under the leaves.

Gross. I don’t understand how people can think this is okay. I smartly bought gloves to wear beforehand.

I really want to do something meaningful, and I feel like this is a good deed that I am capable of doing. I do want to purchase a rake to better get under the brambles and to scope for any snakes that might be underfoot.

Not to mention the area between buildings. When my neighbors aren’t parked there, I think I’ll go snatch up all the trash in that area. If nothing else, it’ll make me feel better.

I know this is kind of a medium project that could be done easily with more people, but I don’t have any local friends to recruit. After this, I might start walking the neighborhood to pick up trash off the side of the road.

Anyway, I’m proud of myself for this. Even if I only did one bag, it’s a start to make a difference.

Seek Peace, not Praise.

Ah, to be a cat who has no responsibilities and only needs to find someone warm to be comfortable. My little moon cat who teaches me to slow down and relax... and sometimes go wild. Also that gaming is not as important as cat.

I don't understand, but I feel like my own home makes me... depressed. I was so motivated to do things, but then I get back home and walk in the door and it's almost instant defeat. Dragging my feet to even do the simplest of things, I just want to lay in bed and sleep the day away.

It's not feeling overwhelmed by chores. I love doing housework, tbh. It keeps me busy as I'm a housewife and otherwise unemployed. I just feel... empty. Is it my schedule being overnight?

How can I help this? Home should be a place of comfort, love, and joy... but it makes me feel alone (when husband is at work), empty, and sad. Even my cats can only offer me little comfort and company.

My husband is ill and there's nothing more I can do for him, so my mania is taking over. I've done the quiet clean ups and retried making banana nut bread with this recipe. The first time I made it I had a dumb and forgot flour... you know, the main ingredient in bread. I need more hobbies that keep my hands busy because when I run out of chores, my manic episode worsens, and I feel as though I want to crawl out of my skin and scream.

Bipolar really is something.

My husband, @notleriff, showed me the synopses for the upcoming WoW expansions.

And I started crying.

The good memories came flooding back and my favorite zone is going to be front and center and it just felt like "oh, that's home...". But I realize that going back might not be in the cards for me. Playing WoW was definitely the most toxic era of my life and I suffered heavily for it.

But damn... going 'home' sounds so nice.