My Meds Have Been Adjusted, And This Is Day Three On The New Dose. I Am Not Doing Well. We Don't Know

This is all I can show from 2021, but I was nearly there.

Anyone else ever experience that sudden horror when something loud just goes... silent?

When the constant hum of something making noise just drops?

It's like the air suddenly feels heavy and you're aware of where you are in your body and the space around you all at once.

It's a little frightening.

It took me too long, but I finally finished The Last Unicorn. I had bought a deluxe edition of the novel which came with an interview and a note from Mister Beagle.

What I didn't expect was the second story that came as an epilogue.

Two Hearts was beautiful, exciting, and the ending of this shorter tale is what finally made me cry.

I felt like a child again reading this book, though I stepped away and kept myself from reading it. I felt like once I read it, the magic of nostalgia would leave. It wouldn't be special to me, anymore. But it was. It truly was.

The banana nut bread was successful, btw! Was very yummy and was my first "bread" recipe. Going to try sourdough, next. What a huge leap.

My husband is ill and there's nothing more I can do for him, so my mania is taking over. I've done the quiet clean ups and retried making banana nut bread with this recipe. The first time I made it I had a dumb and forgot flour... you know, the main ingredient in bread. I need more hobbies that keep my hands busy because when I run out of chores, my manic episode worsens, and I feel as though I want to crawl out of my skin and scream.

Bipolar really is something.

My focus/theme for the year of 2025:

Less is More.

My desire is to focus on being grateful for what I have and trying to break my terrible habit of wanting more. No more window shopping online, no more visiting store sites for "fun", no more tossing something because it has a scratch on it. Unless it is unusable, it will be cherished and used until it can no longer serve its purpose.

This goes for most consumables and long-term purchases. I want to be more purposeful with my purchases - I want to buy things that are good quality and meant to last. I don't want to be persuaded to buy something because it is an "upgrade" to what I already own.

I also want to fix the items I have and learn to repair them instead of simply tossing them without attempting to find out why it isn't working first.

I want to learn to be grateful for the things I have. I want to be more aware of my spending habits and what I already own. I want to be less of a consumer, honestly. In a reasonable matter.

I am trying to start small and build my way up, but experimenting and adding new things in would work. I'm so hesitant because it won't be aesthetic but that's not the point of journaling, right? Thank you for your input! I appreciate you!

I have started to journal over the past month, but I use a simple hardcover notebook with lined paper. While I think it's very useful, I am interested in other types of journals like bullet journals and traveler's journals. I am not sure which would be best for me, though?

I don't really keep track of things like my water intake, what books I read, and daily tasks in my journal, but I do write a lot of my thoughts, my spiritual journey, mood at the start/end of the day, gratitude, etc.

I don't know how I could really work these all into a cohesive place and what type of journal to even begin with in the first place. I would love suggestions and insight from anyone who's had a similar problem. Thank you!

i'm very low mentally, emotionally, and physically. i'm doing my best, but all i can do is coast through the day. i really want to work on things like gposes, but i just can't find the motivation to. so, i simmer today. instead i'll try to see everyone else's creativity.

2020! First year of marriage to my beloved @notleriff and me doing the MOST artwork I've ever done. I had a blast this year.

Happy Birthday!!🥳🎂🥰 I hope you have a wonderful day!

Thank you so much, Airis! 💟 Your creativity inspires me to do more with my own!

72 F today. It’s beautiful. I felt the need to be barefoot and sit in the grass. I hate being barefoot, but today I needed to ground myself. It feels right. Being outside has always been a joy to me, no matter the weather. I am so glad to live in this beautiful world.