Sounds Like I Need To Get On Prog

Sounds like I need to get on prog

Since starting progesterone, I swear it’s like someone rewired my entire emotional circuitry.

At first, it was just about friends—people who were kind, supportive, and just… safe. But now? It’s deeper. It’s like this pull. I need to see them again. I need to know they’re okay. Do they miss me? Do they feel the same pull?

Suddenly, I’m craving touch and closeness in ways I never expected. Like, why do I want to hug everyone and just… stay there? My brain keeps slipping into autopilot, and I catch myself staring at someone thinking, “God, they’re so cute and hot and perfect and I just want to—” And then I have to slam on the brakes before I blurt something out and make things awkward.

But honestly? I kind of love it. It’s messy and intense, but it’s so alive. Before transitioning, I was… numb. I didn't know how to care because I never really needed to. I kept people at arm’s length. Messages annoyed me. Socializing felt like a chore.

Now? I love it. I get excited when someone i know messages me. I’ll stare at my phone waiting for that “hello” from my favorite people. It fills me with emotions in ways I didn’t know I was starving for. It feels like proof—proof that someone thought of me. Me, specifically.

I just wish people messaged first more often. Because if I reach out to you, it means something. It means I care, maybe even more than I should admit out loud.