I seeall this stuff from my childhood. So many things where I realize, everything I did from my 8yrs old self, was coping.
I had a shitty childhood, but really
With 8 I cut the eyes from old pictures out.
With 9 I drew black over my father in every picture I own of him.
With 10 I wrote in a diary telling it how I hate everyone and everything.
With 12 I got letters from my bullies telling me how worthless I am, I spit in them.
And with 15 I wrote a letter how I will kill myself.
I found this now, cuz I now move out I just realize how bad I actually was. I never fully understood why everyone is so impressed and stunned bymy behavior and casuality about all of this. Until now.
And now I’m sitting here, almost crying, realizing how fucking messed up I was. I am. How fucking good I am at coping and ignoring. How fucking stupid I was thinking I wont get better.
God, I cant fully comprehend the fact that the little girl, destroying her possessions out if anger, trying to kill herself, always mad and angry at the world. The little girl who was insuch a bad spot, was me. Is me idk.
Im still so fucking mad. Still so fucking vulnerable, I never realize how vulnerable, because I well, just keep going, keep living.
Is it a good coping mechanism, stubbornness or just ignorance? Idk all I know is I’ve got better.
My depression and anxiety will never go fully away again. But I’ve got control and freedom.
Pluto is the slowest moving planet. It spend anywhere from 10 to 30 years in one sign, and because of this, Pluto influences many of the things we see in entire generations. Pluto tells about life challenges, how week seek out power, and the drastic differences between generations. Find out where Pluto was when you were born and what this did to the generation below. (All the information about the generations comes from the notes I took during a “Generational Differences” class)
Pluto in Cancer: 26 May 1914 - 14 June 1939
Duration: 26 years
Generation: Traditionalists
How does Pluto in Cancer affect the Traditionalists?
Cancer is known for being a traditional sign, so having Pluto in Cancer during a generation called “The Traditionalists” is no coincidence. This generation is known to be extremely conservative and hold family values high. Cancer in Pluto has influenced people to be very loving and caring towards their families and close friends. They may not be logical thinkers, but they understand the depth of things. It is difficult for Cancer in Pluto to deal with any change. (Once again, The Traditionalists). They expect young people to be their definition of respectful which means being disciplined and understanding. They find it hard to let go of their traditional values (For example, a man must marry a woman and vice versa), so conflict between this generation and Millennials (who’s Pluto in Libra and Scorpio influences them to fight for justice and equality) is expected.
Pluto in Leo: 14 June 1939 - 19 August 1957
Duration: 19 years
Generation: Late Traditionalists (1939-1946) and Baby Boomers
How does Pluto in Leo affect the Baby Boomers?
Leo is a fire sign, and know for being competitive, yet optimistic. The Baby Boomers are known for going after what they want, specifically in the work force. They believe teamwork and optimism are important. Pluto in Leo is optimistic and a great leader. The placement of Pluto in Leo influenced this generation to be very enthusiastic and risky. Pluto in Leo is are much more creative and colorful (color television began in the 1940s, how ‘bout that?) people than Pluto in Cancer, so conflict between these two groups is expected. They don’t stand for people who are constantly negative and will surely point it out when you’re being that pessimistic.
(Here’s where the dates get crazy)
Pluto in Virgo: 19 August 1957 - 5 October 1971, 17 April 1972 - 30 July 1972
Duration: 15 years and the months between Libra
Generation: Late Baby Boomers (1957-1965) and Early Generation X (also Generation Jones)
How does Pluto in Virgo affect the Gen Xers?
Gen Xers were a very independent group. They also became very skeptical about things and felt the need to analyze for themselves. Having Pluto in Virgo, a very analytical and logical sign, definitely influenced this thinking. They value a work life balance, and are great at organizing ways to do this. This new value and interest in work can be seen because now both parents in household were working, despite this, they didn’t hold much value in their careers. To them, it may be “just a job”. They can be very conservative, but nowhere near as much as the Traditionalists. They value honesty and believe that one earns respect. They can be critical towards others, but also hate criticism. Millennials and early Gen Z people tend to notice this hypocritical nature, especially when Baby Boomers and Gen Xers are criticizing them. Virgo and Capricorn are very compatible, so there is a chance that late Baby Boomers and early Gen Xers will get along with the Gen Zers. The relationship for those Virgo x Capricorn will most likely be parent (who had children late in life) to child, and sometimes be young grandparents to child.
Pluto in Libra: 5 October 1971 - 17 April 1972, 30 July 1972 - 5 November 1983, 18 May 1984 - 27 August 1984
Duration: The few months between Virgo, 12 years, and 4 months the following year
Generation: Late Gen X (1971-1980) and Early Millennials (1980-1984)
How does Pluto in Libra affect this time?
Pluto was in Libra in the middle of two widely different generations. It’s much harder to see the similar affect Pluto in Libra had on these generations. This placements influences people to want to explore and understand the world. It also influences people to want to create harmony and justice within the world. This is very obvious to see in Millennials, as many of them identify as feminists, fight for racial equality, and fight for LGBT+ rights, however this is less obvious for the Late Gen Xers. They were growing up with the early Gen Xers who had Pluto in Virgo. Pluto in Libra influences the Late Gen Xers to compromise with the Early Gen Xers who uphold their own values. Those born between 1971 and 1980 are what I like to call “Millennial Xers.” These “Millennial Xers” allowed for the Pluto in Virgo values to rule their life. However, now that Millennials are in their 20s and 30s and beginning to enter the world, these “Millennial Xers” are expressing their Pluto in Libra influences much more.
Pluto in Scorpio: 5 November 1983 - 18 May 1984, 27 August 1984 - 17 January 1995, 21 April 1995 - 10 November 1995
Duration: The few months between Libra, 12 years, and 8 months later that last year
Generation: Millennials! (also Generation Y)
How does Pluto in Scorpio affect the Millennials?
The Millennials are all about diversity and technology. Pluto in Scorpio has influenced these individuals to be intense and have strong emotions. They fight for human rights and have a talent for helping those that are considered different become accepted. They focus their mind on more taboo things such as sex, the occult, death, and the mind. They try to remain positive, but definitely focus on darker things. Because of this, there may be conflict between these Millennials and Baby Boomers who value positivity and lighter topics. Pluto in Scorpio are strong people who question all the rules, and can gain much power if they try to. Having Pluto in Scorpio can explain the interest that Millennials have in sex and taboo things (like astrology!).
Pluto in Sagittarius: 17 January 1995 - 20 April 1995, 10 November 1995 - 27 January 2008, 13 June 2008 - 26 November 2008
Duration: The few months between Scorpio, 14 years, and 6 months later that last year
Generation: Late Millennials (1995-1999) and Early Generation Z (2000-2008)
How does Pluto in Sagittarius affect the Early Gen Zers?
I’m very very excited about this one, because, boy, does it explain A LOT. Having Pluto in Sagittarius influences people to be blunt and expressive. They want to be the center of attention and can be extremely impatient. They have this optimistic belief that they can do anything they set their mind to. All things that the young people in the world now have been known to do. They value freedom and want to find this for other people who don’t have it (EQUALITY!). They don’t conform, are bold, and free-thinking. They think on a global scale now and want to explore the world and history (may explain their interest in old things: vinyls, comic books, etc). They are less likely to believe in religions and may even create their own. Why do Millennials not get along with their elders? First, Cancer and Virgo are two of the least compatible signs of Sagittarius. To refresh your memory, this means the Traditionalists, Late Baby Boomers, and early Gen Xers are very incompatible with Millennials. Yet, Millennials are the stronger and more expressive ones who are willing to fight back when someone questions them.
Pluto in Capricorn: 28 January 2008 - 13 June 2008, 26 November 2008 - 20 January 2024
Duration: The few months between Sagittarius, and 17 years
Generation: Late Generation Z (2008-2024)
How will Pluto in Capricorn affect the Late Gen Zers?
We’re not really sure how this group of people act right now, as the oldest ones are only 8 years old (as of 2016) and the majority have yet to be born. Having Pluto in Capricorn should affect this generation to be patient yet ambitious. This will be very different from the previous generation who’s almost never patient. The older generations who shame Millennials often are less likely to shame those with Pluto in Capricorn. They are organizers who want to create structure among the chaos. Last time Pluto was in Capricorn was during the American Revolution, where structure in the chaos paid off greatly. These people want to create order and know that persistence pays off. They are likely to be great politicians, which is good news for those living in America right now during this very odd presidential election, but also for the rest of the world which seems like it’s just going farther and farther downhill. We put a lot of hope and faith into this generation to make the world better, and with Pluto in Capricorn, they may just succeed.
OMG I love it!
I’ve seen the 5 rankings of 3-E best kisser and found that it’s gonna be pretty funny if Karma kun’s really serious about the ranking. How can I say, He’s a hate-to-defeat boy and not gonna admit his defeat until he proves it himself. So I decided to drew this comic strip.
At first, I wanna did it just in rough sketch but who can stand drawing Nagisa kun just sketch and ignore his cuteness. NO! I totally can’t do it! So it took quite long time to finish this comic. Hope Karunagi fan love it :D
there are fanfics you will recommend to your friends with enthusiasm and then there are fanfics that no-one can ever know you have read
Just so beautiful.
1920s- Star gazing, dances like nobody’s watching, beautiful but doesn’t know it, rainy days, shy, old books, night time drives in the summer, fairy lights, pale skin, drinks tea
1950s- Flawless makeup, amazing singing voice, thick hair, sweetest person you know, mesmerizing eyes, always has snacks, seems shallow but is really nice, sunrises, the smell of lavender, insecure
1970s- Lots of plants, the most amazing jewelry, down to earth, polaroid pictures, soulful, sun kissed skin, plays acoustic guitar, talking into the late hours of the night, beautiful hair, paints
1980s- True crime, colorful wardrobe, game nights with friends, great with animals, candles, contagious laugh, soft music, walks on the beach, bold, writes poetry
1990s- Scrunchies, coolest shoes, movie marathons, baking, adventurous, a leader, sleepovers, fueled by coffee, hilarious, dyed hair, always on the move, dusk, always smells good
2000s- Cotton Candy, acts confident but is scared, walks through the woods, constantly tired, perfect nails, massive cd collection, never knows what’s happening, singing in the car, soft blankets
Reblog with which one you are!
Cutie 🐶
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