Post #1 - Flaming Hot Cheetos 

Rough Draft: Scene 3 Page 19

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The following blog contains mentions of sexual assault, domestic violence, and pedophilia. All depicted characters and scenarios are fictional. Any depiction of abuse will be handled with the explicit intention to avoid the glamorization of child exploitation and/or violence against women.

This blog is not an endorsement for abuse.

Fawn is not for the faint of heart. Expect triggering situations told in detail.

happy easter!

I might be reading this super late, but Happy Easter to you too! 🐰 🥚

Rough Draft: Scene 2 Page 10

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FAWN: Pages 22-24

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♫ - What I’m currently listening to.

Okay, so that was quite a bit. I'm going to make an effort to get this chapter off the ground in a timely manner. Big post is still coming soon (probably tomorrow).

Post #20 - A Friend Indeed

♫ - What I’m currently listening to.

Last week something absolutely amazing happened; I got back in touch with my very good friend on Discord! Before then it’s been a year since we last spoke, so I was very much convinced that that would be it; our friendship cherished, but otherwise mesmerized in the past. I’m really happy we are talking again!

Above, and below, is artwork I drew for two (of many) UT roleplays we have written together. The one above has inspired the writing of The Worst Kinda Curse, even though the main character in the original roleplay was not Alphys. The swampy monster town in Louisiana is straight out of it though. I would share the details, but as I consider it, I realize these are stories we wrote in private and just for our own enjoyment.

The artwork for the above was an AU of the Underground being a religious dictatorship with human slaves. We created a whole new world together and piecing the canon characters into more dubious roles was something I enjoyed tremendously.

Fun times!

She has drawn a ton of gorgeous art as well, her skills are off the charts, but I feel as though it is hers to share if she so chooses to.

I’m grateful to have you as a friend @stickorstones. I hope we can continue to write stories together and create more fond memories!

Post #13 - For the Love of Art or the Love of Money?

♫ - What I’m currently listening to.

TL;DR - I will no longer give myself deadlines, and we will be blending formatting and thumbnailing together in order to get the ball rolling on the comic.

I joke all the time and say that if I don't want to follow through with something, I should set a deadline. This joke has been a way to avoid beating myself up after another project goes on hold, or another plan isn't followed. I suppose I am unreliable—I'd moan, only to realize this usually applies to personal projects I do for fun and not the other aspects of my life.

Fawn, and every fanfic I write, should be for fun.

I can say it currently is fun, but recently I feel myself growing stressed whenever I think about it. I've been dreading creating posts—absolutely hating the idea of it, so I've been avoiding it altogether. Social media has never been my specialty, and the few times that I forced myself to give it a try I often got caught up in the numbers, the engagement, and the thirst for attention. It's bad for mental health, so I taught myself to put it away, to use it only as a bystander and not as a "content creator".

I don't want this to be that way. I genuinely want to see this comic to the end if only for myself and no one else. It would feel good to look at 30 or so pages of finished artwork, and say, "yeah, I created that." Now that, that is what I crave, so I'll keep going.

What I won't do is what I did last week and give myself 7 days to draw something I loathe without any guidance. Not only did I decide to not do that, (instead, I spent my free time writing a completely unrelated fanfic) but I lost a lot of the motivation that held before.

So! From now on I won't give myself deadlines.

I want to speed things up. There's been a lot of beating around the bush, and not actually drawing the comic, so to fix that I will be blending stages 2 and 3 together. There is absolutely no reason not to create the thumbnails as I'm doing the page formatting.

I'm closing the current poll as well. I'll announce the results in my next post. The good news is that Tumblr introduced polls directly on the site, so I'll be sticking with that the next time I run one of 'em.

Lastly, I still want to thank you for sticking by, liking the posts, or simply viewing them. I will be turning my personal notifications off for everything beyond asks submissions, since I don't want to get into the slump of feeling like I'm doing this for notes, but that doesn't mean I don't appreciate you taking your time out of your day to peek into my little bubble.

The longest a Tumblr poll can last is about a week, so unfortunately that is the time limit for this poll. By the end of the week this post will be deleted, and the results will determine Sonia’s fate. I’ll be sure to post the results in the Fanfic.

Thanks again for 20k hits!

FAWN: Pages 9 & 10

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♫ - What I’m currently listening to.

Okay, so I know this is only two pages, but I really wanted to keep up the daily posts while my attention is honed in on this. Do you guys think the tone is a bit too comedic? I know I'm asking a million questions, but the feedback is really helping to shape the comic.

Post # I Lost Count - Life Update? Yay!

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So, I’m aware this isn’t a personal blog, and I don’t exactly want to make it one of those, but I need to vent a bit, my friends have a lot going on in their lives that what I’m about to complain about will seem like small potatoes, and I don’t have any other social media. So, this Undertale Tumblr blog will just have to do.

For the last month and a half I’ve been attempting to get a business off the ground. I have all the documentations and legal whatnots, but what’s been holding me back is the flipping website. Maybe I’m cheap, maybe I’m just too prideful, but I decided I would build the site myself completely by scratch with zero knowledge of HTML, or CSS, or any of that. I’ve managed it. The little creative spirit in me picked up the basics after many hours of trial and error (now ask me to solve a simple math equation and you’ll see how intellectually inept I am). Amazing news, right? This website had its foot on my neck for weeks now, and this morning I was finally victorious!

Until I wasn’t.

I sent the site to my friend to test, and on mobile whenever you scrolled down it would zoom the page way out into the void. I thought I’d put back on my handy dandy hard hat and make a simple tweak here, and little change there—I fucked the whole thing up beyond repair, and I didn’t make a proper backup of the site, so now I need to start from scratch!

Well, not completely, but all the fancy code I added needs to be redone, and to be frank, um no. Not doing that shit again, so I’m just gonna have a basic ass website and call it day for now because the longer it’s taking me to mess with this thing, the longer I’m not launching my business. The little procrastinating, self-doubting, coward in me is super happy that I now have an excuse not to move forward and do this thing. Too bad since I spent too much money to just quit now.

All that said, I’ve been missing Discord lately. I’m currently only in one server, but I’d love to join another one, preferably something small and fandom focused. I’m fine with any of the fandoms I have written for (so far Undertale, Sonic, and TMNT, but you can add in ATLA too. Plus, I like some “adult” shows—whatever the fuck that means. Actually, I don’t watch much television, so that is a lie).

If anyone wants to send some servers my way I’d love that a bunch! I used to run several Discord servers back during lockdown, and I definitely do not want to do that again. Too much work that I currently can’t keep up with, but having a chill place to discuss fandom stuff, or creative projects, or fucked up websites that break on you when you change one line of code, is something I’ve been craving lately.