It's affirming my identity as an alienkin?? Kinda?? Thanks ig??? The angst sucks tho wtf?? I'm scared
Ivan digital art. Not my best work but im happy with it. Someone please find the meaning with the flowers ill giggle and kick my feet /nf /silly (He has arms they're just tucked behind his back π)
oomf posted about jason grace a bit too close to the sun and is now being haunted by jason grace himself and it's so fucking funny to me
@ruddigerspawss how does it feel to be haunted /j
[OC X CANON APPRECIATION POST! π©·β¨]
vent post bc im tired and feel alone in this
TW; dysfunctional families, implied abuse kinda I'm not really being abused
I fucking hate being "perfect." Stupid, I know, I feel like I should be grateful.
Have you heard about golden child and scapegoat dynamics in dysfunctional households? Because me and my brother are living examples of that. I'm the golden child and I loathe it.
I have it so much better then my brother, I know. But being the golden child, I am my mother's trophy, and it's exhausting. I am a doll, not a person. A bragging right. An award. I have to always do what I'm told, be smart, achieve high things, always have to look pretty, have perfect manners, tons of impossible expectations, be the perfect little girl. Or she starts yelling. I hate it so much. I'm tired, I'm really tired. I stress myself out to be enough for her. I'm the definition of a burnt out gifted kid. Yet i feel like i'm supposed to be grateful because the one above made me smart and pretty. I can only be who I really am online, with my s/o, or with my friends. And I loathe it.
And I just feel alone. I see posts about how golden children will become the abuser and it scares me. I don't feel like anyone understands that both the golden child and the scapegoat suffer. I don't want to be my mother, I swore I'd be better. I don't want to be her. I don't know how to break this cycle.
Fuck.
OH MY GOD.
MY FAVORITE MUSICIAN NOTICED MY ART (first pic) HOW TF AM I SUPPOSED TO BE NORMAL ABOUT THIS?? IVE REACHED MY PEAK AS AN ARTIST HOLY SHIT
anyways oc art too I guess but also me crashing out
I'm remembering my great grandfather and his little sister, who survived but also lost their whole family, and my family still deals with that trauma today.
Please take 60 seconds for the victims. They were people too, and deserve to be remembered.
hey um. If yβall see this post. Take a minute. Yes, a full sixty seconds. If thatβs too hard, thirty. Today is international shoah/holocaust Memorial Day. Take a moment for the victims. It is needed more than ever.
Iβm remembering my great grandmother and grandfather, who lost everyone but survived. And lived to make my grandmother, my mother, and me.
Every character that has died in Alien Stage so far has all gotten a comic from their own perspective.
Sua got one where she wants to tell her 'sister' that she found paradise in the hellish place.
Ivan compares his love with Sua's and thanks Till for being the victim for his shallow feelings.
Hyuna makes sense of her love for Luka, and tell him to take his time solving her puzzle.
All of them got to tell their perspective in some way.
...Except Till.
From start to finish, he never had interviews done, he never interacted much with other and just never...spoke.
The only time we ever see him outside of the videos in in the comics from other POV's.
His own death comic was not done in perspective. It was done in his mother's.
And Io loved her son. She cherished him and wanted him to find his happiness wherever he went.
But she never truly knew him. He was snatched away from her far too early for her to ever know him.
Till is a character who we, as an audience, only know from surface observation and the thoughts of others. We have no idea of what was actually going on in his head.
We have ideas for everyone else who are dead, except Till...
...WHICH IS WHY IN THIS ESSAY, I WILL PROVE TILL IS ALI- [gunshot]
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