Dozing Off Inside A Summer’s Sunny World Is Heaven.

rain has tap tapped on my window

so i left it ajar so it could join me in my sleep

whisps of cool air were good company for my dreams.

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one day you’ll find me

strumming my guitar by the sound of the ocean,

warmth of family and friends around me

who knows

A little guy I hallucinated. He was at a bus depot. I like to think he was just waiting for a bus, too.

200 days ago i told myself i needed to start healing. I even wrote it down.

And then i did.

It was hard.

And it hurt.

In August of 2021 I felt happy for the first time.

It’s now January and guess what? Things aren’t perfect or even that great.

And I. Am. Still. Happy.

Yes there are bad things. [I miss my partner who FOR SOME INEXPLICABLE REASON has chosen to be born british. And i am not. Thankfully. But it does mean he is far away. Not cool. >:\ ]

BUT IN SPITE OF THAT

I am still happy.

i am loved

i am love.

i like this.

And I love this

And i love me.

And I love my people who love me and helped support me while I healed.

And so, I am happy.

really, if you think about it, im all of your guy’s evil twin

how do people manage to do this whole life thing?

all my coffee has dirt in it and the shadows stole my boyfriend

i iust want my starry man back

awe hey im okay i just died from cramps

we are always enough.

there are those who will say we will never be enough.

But the truth is we were always more than enough. And they hate us for it.