Goth Equivalent To Live Laugh Love

I adore the fact that Michael Distortion is described as having a horrible laugh that sounds like a headache etc etc and then Michael Shelley shows up and turns out he's just always laughed like that. Jon and Co. were just bullying this poor man for his natural laugh this whole time

why dont you read/watch something that forces you to confront the fact that you are capable of feeling empathy for a person who has done deeply cruel or evil things. And maybe you’ll calm down

Plz talk more about Richard Papen and his sexuality thx

i will gladly do that !!! now it was about three months since i reread the secret history so maybe i won’t be able to point out everything in the book but someday im going to reread it & make a post abt it or something. because wow. he is so gay……… 

so look. his descriptions of his male friends are so much more detailed than his description of camilla. if he now likes camilla that much, why is he more focused on describing francis and henry? 

he kisses francis back just because. he lets francis to continue to kiss his neck. they are literally messing around and he is enjoying it. sure, he tells francis to “give him a break” but when francis says it’ll be fun, he doesn’t protest again. like if charles hadn’t walked in on them, had they slept together? i am not doubting it.  

he sees charles as very good looking. he appreciates camilla’s androgynous looks a lot. because she doesn’t look very traditional feminine. because she reminds him of charles??? he likes charles so much tho??? like charles abuses his sister and when richard gets to know this, he stays on charles’ side. like through the end he thinks what henry and camilla does is wrong? because it hurts charles but also? because henry is with camilla? idk that’s just how i see it? if he truly was in love with camilla, he would have left charles? like, if he is so in love with her, then why isn’t he furious with charles for how he has treated her?  

the month where he lives with henry he seems content & happy. or, he is extremely comfortable around henry. they had just met but ? he is so comfortable in henry’s company. i so wish donna tartt had written out richard’s attraction to henry and that he and henry would have been lovers, it starting with  henry saving richard’s life and their relationship developing during the time they lived together. 

and last but not least, “i loved him too.” he hasn’t known henry for a very long time when henry takes his own life but richard actually confesses that he loved henry. he could’ve say “i miss him too” or something but nope. richard doesn’t seem to marry anyone after camilla declined his proposal. okay so. why? i see it partly because he is traumatised after what has happened but he can never talk about it because then he will risk going to prison. = he needs a partner who he can talk about his trauma with. henry is dead, charles is god knows where, camilla doesn’t want him and francis is already married. so he ends up alone with his degree in english literature.  

he doesn’t seem very interested in girls over all to be honest? like on parties and such. he is very fixated by the greek group & especially francis, henry and charles. i don’t know but when i read the book, i don’t see henry’s & julian’s relationship as teacher and student, i think they’re having an affair in some way. this you won’t think of if you don’t have those queer glasses as i am wearing. it is due to those glasses i think richard being gay would be so logical? i know some may only see me as a queer boy projecting but believe me. i don’t like richard at all so why the heck would i project on him. i get why people see him as bisexual and ofc everyone has their own headcanons, but to me it is extremely important that richard papen is gay because i see so many actual proofs for it in the book so it would make so much sense to me?? (not that you need to prove a character being non straight but this is something i have thought of every time i have read the book) 

so what i think we have here is a story with some of the best characters i have ever read about, a case of compulsory heterosexuality and an amazing but wasted potential to get a queer perspective on a story with a fantastic heart wrecking storyline

 for that’s about it & sorry it became so long, i just,,,,its so important to me that richard & henry both are gay !! 

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The questions I ask myself, roughly in this order, to interpret any* tarot spread:

How did the cards appear? Because I shuffle for jumpers, it matters whether cards pop from the deck together. They form pairs (or groups) which have stronger connections to each other than other cards in the spread.

What types of cards are on the field? Majors? Minors? All numerical cards? Court cards? What suits? What numbers? This is where I consider the raw, memorized meaning of individual cards and the archetypes they represent.

Are there obvious patterns or cadences in the order? Think like poetry, ABAB or AABB, but with the types of cards. In a hand of five, it's interesting if the order is Major-Minor-Major-Minor-Major. Or maybe the cards are in a descending numerical order, Nine-Eight-Seven-Six-Five. Or, perhaps Nine-Eight-Six-Five-Four -- the jump in the pattern matters.

Are there repeating numbers or suits? Repetition strengthens the significance of a number's or suit's meaning.

Are there repeating motifs in the card art? Again, repetition strengthens the significance. This includes colors, background details, people, animals, and so forth.

Where are figures in the art looking? Are they looking at other cards? At each other? Away from each other? The direction of figures' attention directs where that card's focus might be.

Is there a cohesion or flow in the spread, or is it interrupted and disorganized? Some spreads flow smoothly left to right, while others show disruption and a lack of coherency. This question looks a the spread as a whole again after all other questions have been asked to consider all elements together.

Does it make sense? Do the cards answer the question being asked? How do they apply? Is there something missing? Is there a deeper meaning to delve into? Do I need clarifiers? Do I need to try again with new cards? Can I explain these cards to the querent and have them understand my meaning?

And then I write out my analysis! There's obviously more to it than this, with a ton of nuance at every step, and I could probably write a whole essay about any individual part of this... and I probably still will, honestly. (And I started to, then decided to just write up a little list instead, lmao.)

*May not work for some tarot spreads, depending on the style.

thinking about this forever btw.

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Jon is 100% the type of guy where Martin says something normal and chill and he just responds so sincerely that it takes Martin aback like 5 times daily. Martin will say something like "I'll be in the other room if you need me" and Jon will look him dead in the eye and say "I always need you" with 100% earnestness and sincerity and Martin is down for he count