I Can Not Do This Man. Te Amo Carlos. Sei Nei Nostri Cuori Per Sempre. Inciso Nella Pietra. Ti Amiamo

HE'S BABIE

LANDO P1!!!!!! MY BABY!!!!! MY POOKIE!!!!! HE WON. HE DID IT. I WILL SOB AND THRASH. HE DID IT. HOLY FUCKING HELL. LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOO

i feel like a mother who's just seen her child win :)

i'm so proud of himmmmmm

no end of the season race has hit me as hard as this one. I'm sobbing profusely rn. I'm gonna miss this season so much. I'm gonna miss valterri and zhou (especially them together), i'm gonna miss kevin magnussen and his never-ending chaos, i'm gonna miss franco and his lack of media training, i'm gonna miss carlos and charles and their silly giggles (i'm not even prepared to process this one), i'm gonna miss lewis and bono, lewis and toto, lewis and george, i'm gonna miss seeing my french war couple (pierre and esteban), i'm gonna miss alex and fanco, and also alex and logan, i'm gonna miss daniel, i'm gonna miss and miss and miss and miss.......

carlos girlies, how we feelin' ?

everytime i look at him, i have this urge to let out the loudest screech know to man because WHAT DO YOU MEAN SOMEONE HAD THE AUDACITY TO HURT THIS CHILD.

you guys wanna know what i love? FOUND FAMILY.

yeah i know i have a lot of trauma to unpack but whatever.

i will eat a found family book, movie, song, fanfiction EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.

friends who are like siblings and care for eachother. YEAHHHHH. an older man who comes to care for someone or multiple people younger than him. YEAHHHHHH.

basically anything. i love when people care for eachother. like that shits knocks me off my feet every single time. like oh my god.

taylor swift is insane. it's official that she wants me to kill myself.

THAT'S MY FAMILY.

so I read the invisible life of Addie Larue and have many thoughts. i loved the book. the one and only complaint i had with it was that addie's character was not as full fledged out and complex as it could have been. other than that, i loved the concept and the execution. i fell in love with Henry and Addie's tragedy. they could have been so much more. they deserved the world. and Henry Strauss if you were real, the length i would go to make you feel loved is unfathomable. now for the "villain", Luc, you hot, infuriating, nauseating man(?). i loved him as much as i hated him. he was an extremely twisted entity and it was difficult for me to form an opinion on him entirely. but i understand what he represents and what Schwab wanted to convey with the story of Adeline.

it's the essence of being a human, always wanting more that they can bite. just more of everything. love, passion, anger, happiness, acceptance, and most importantly time. being a woman i somewhat, in someway understand addie's desperation. but god did she made me want to rip my hair out. i understand what she did and why she had to do it. and i do sympathize with her on many levels. again, it's human nature to make mistakes. and addie did make a mistake but she made a beautiful, although no one was there to see it, life for herself. she sparked ideas and ideas do run far more deeper than remembrance and replication.

the character i related to the most though was Henry. i crave love the same way he did. i am as confused as he was. and i feel emotions in the same capacity as him. he loved and loved and loved and he thought that no one loved him. that he didn't have anything good going for him. he made me realise that there's people out in the world who love so abundantly and endlessly and never get it back. love is just give give and give for them.

that's all. for now atleast. the story was truly beautiful and it tells us so much about humans, our hunger and our desperation.

LEWIS!! LEWISBAHAKWKWLABAHGSUWIKWANAHKALA!!!!!!!! LEWISSSSSSSSSSSSS! FATHER WON. FUCKING FINALLY. MY KING. HE DESERVES THIS SO MUCH. YAY.