It’s like watching a car repeatedly drive straight into a wall. It’s unexplainable, it looks like it hurts a lot, but ultimately it ends up being darkly, ironically funny.
I had a nightmare last night.
I was a reporter.
sapphic spotify playlist / mlm spotify playlist
best friends
bestie by sizzy rocket
boyfriend by tegan and sara
hmu by spacegirl gemmy
iilwmbf by salen
jenny by studio killers
kari equals hottie by the dollyrots
no kings by the total bettys
sleepover by hayley kiyoko
two little girls by ani difranco
breakups - wlw
0108 by nakala
always this way by laura marling
bad at love by halsey
come on in my kitchen by larkin poe
conversations by lauren sanderson
cruise freestyle by nakala
curious by hayley kiyoko
deleted you by be steadwell
good girl by domo wilson
in my blood by ji nilson
let me go by be steadwell
like me by chely wright
me & her by heavens to betsy
new girl by be steadwell
now i’m all messed up by tegan & sara
she’s not you by grace petrie
strangers by halsey
talia by king princess
breakups - mlm
better off just friends by pansy division
closure by ieuan
fighting for by brendan maclean
glenview by pansy division
it doesnt matter to him by john grant
ramona by ieuan
stephen by brayton bowman
straight boy by shamir
the day u left me by ieuan
too much to ask by pansy division
bisexuality
b.i.g by caitlyn scarlett
bad at love by halsey
bi by alicia champion
bi by alizee
bi by living colour
bisexual by grlwood
blinders by phem
boys by maris
boys/girls by torrey mercer
do not disturb by halestorm
gettin’ bi by crazy ex gf cast
girls/girls/boys by panic! at the disco
i do both jay and jane by postman
i wanna bf with a car by kate nash
in or out by ani difranco
not myself tonight by christina aguilera
pretty boys and pretty girls-book of love
swings both ways by robbie williams
cheating - wlw
all the girls love alice by emeli sande
boyfriend by marika hackman
girlfriend by kitty
greatness by jen foster
i kissed a girl by jill sobule
cheating - mlm
all american boy by steve grand
billy brown by mika
deadahh by lil ph*g
girlfriend by mnek
i kissed a boy by jupither
im still your f*g by broken social scene
life lovers by pansy division
to be alone with you by sufjan stevens
christmas
12 gays of christmas-bubba love sponge
a dirty gay christmas-jonny mcgovern
homo christmas by pansy division
i saw daddy kissing santa-rupaul
itsa very queer christmas-erin mckeown
river by sam smith
rudy the big booty reindeer-big freedia
santa baby by rupaul
santa is a gay man-big freedia
crushes & love - wlw
all day and all of the night - kate nash
and then she kissed me by st. vincent
aquafina by cj run
beautiful girl by sophie b. hawkins
boys aside by sofya wang
bwu by tegan and sara
california friends by the regrettes
cardigan sweater by jasmine kennedy
caroline by girlyman
cherry by rina sawayama
come what may by daisy o’connor
daisy by zedd
girl by the internet
hometown by maddie ross
honey by kehlani
i love you, sadie by wyvern lingo
if it isnt her by ani difranco
know your name by mary lambert
mad about the girl by valerie june
marian by julian weldon
marry me by tender forever
proud by ji nilson
radiant warmth by miki ratsula
rebel girl by bikini kill
red by miki ratsula
runway by kodie shane
she by jen foster
she says by ani difranco
she keeps me warm by mary lambert
sing to her by kodie shane
sunshine by grace petrie
watercolor roses by ness nite
wild by molly burch
with a girl like you by thao & the get down stay down
crushes & love - mlm
all american boy by steve grand
american boyfriend by kevin abstract
and i love him by benjamin gibbard
caramel by john grant
denny by pansy division
garden boy by boy blue
handsome man by matt alber
hold each other by a great big world
i met a man by romanovsky and phillips
just some guy by anthony rapp
love came along by pansy division
mannequin by leon markcus
michael by franz ferdinand
my guy by kele okereke
too beautiful by pansy division
two men in love by the irrepresibles
what a beautiful day by brett every
gay & lesbian culture
bears by tom goss
blue collar sex kitten-lauren ruth ward
boys wear pink by todrick hall
butch in the streets by tribe 8
closet femme by kate reid
drag king bar by bitch and animal
dyke bars never last by sapphic lasers
elderly lesbians by sara renberg
everyone is gay by a great big world
femme bitch top by tribe 8
gay bash by melange lavonne
gay parenting by melange lavonne
gay sex by be steadwell
girls like girls by hayley kiyoko
i can be a lesbian by judy small
i don’t do boys by elektra
i’ll never want a bf by bec sandridge
influenced by queers by judy small
lesbian chic by judy small
lgbt by lowell
lgbt by rupaul
like boys by hyphen hyphen
qda by god is my co-pilot
queer by frankie simone
queer for you by the degenerettes
the chapstick lesbian song by cassendre xavier
the ellen page by partner
only dyke at the open mic-kate reid
the only gay person by sara renberg
the queer song by two nice girls
twinkie twinkie little star-pansy division
twinks by matt fishel
vaccines made me gay by grlwood
war paint by frankie simone
homophobia & coming out
american boyfriend by kevin abstract
apple pie by todrick hall
becoming myself by domo wilson
behind closed doors by matt fishel
boys in the street by greg holden
checking out your babe by tribe 8
compulsive liar by ezra furman
dumb by todrick hall
feminist housewives-bitch and animal
forbidden by todrick hall
g.d.m.m.l. grls by tyler glenn
gay thoughts by the growlers
gay sex by be steadwell
heaven sent by parker millsap
hold your hand by nicolette forte
homo song by mara levi
lezbophobia by tribe 8
love is love by naz & ella
love is love by starley
married in london by janis ian
miserable america by kevin abstract
not worth hiding by alex the astronaut
pride by grace petrie
radio friendly pop song by matt fishel
she keeps me warm by mary lambert
since when are you gay? by childbirth
some of my best friends-pansy division
thats so gay by pansy division
the village by wrabel
this is me by jen foster
whats expected of you-lipstick homicide
who wears the pants?? by soko
you can’t pray the gay away-laura bell bundy
pining - wlw
1950 by king princess
better anyway by lauren sanderson
boyfriend by marika hackman
boyfriend by tegan and sara
carrie (i want a girl) by moaning lisa
done deal by grace petrie
explosion by zolita
flirting with her by sir babygirl
girls by girl in red
girlfriend by kitty
girlfriend by ria mae
i need a woman to love by kesha
i wanna bf with a car by kate nash
i want her by blind fury
i wanna be your girlfriend by girl in red
jenny by studio killers
jessie’s girl by mary lambert
pretty girls by sequin sally
sister by kate nash
sleepover by hayley kiyoko
pining - mlm
boys that dance by ieuan
girl crush by harry styles
good guys by mika
good wife by mika
guy.exe by superfruit
him by geo louis
homie lova friend by anye elite
i love you by woodkid
i really wanted you by pansy division
i wanna boi by pwr bttm
i wanted him by lontalius
im the friend by pansy division
my heart aches for you by pansy division
need a man blues by bronski beat
preppy boy by john grant
the art teacher by rufus wainwright
the man i love by chester lockhart
sex - wlw
bestie by sizzy rocket
bitches by tove lo
boinked the bride by ember swift
box by siya
dive by tiffany gouche
dreamboat by mirah
flowers for anna by ames
girls by beatrice eli
hefner by tana mongeau
holy by king princess
i didnt just kiss her by jen foster
kissing pink by kodie shane
lick it by god-des & she
pussy mine by bella thorne
pynk by janelle monae
sweet girl by nicole dollanganger
tangerine by cj run
true love cafe by nicole dollanganger
sex - mlm
20 years of cock by pansy division
beercan boy by pansy division
bloom by troye sivan
chanel by frank ocean
daddy by sakima
dick of death by pansy division
groovy underwear by pansy division
he’s got his mothers hips-john grant
he’s trippi by sakima
i lost my innocence by ezra furman
iced out dick by lil ph*g
its just a job by pansy division
james bondage by pansy division
new pleasures by pansy division
rachbottomoff by pansy division
seventeen by troye sivan
snug slacks by john grant
t.h.u.g (trade) by todrick hall
tease by tyra b
the cocksucker club by pansy division
tinted windows by pansy division
wet by anye elite
transitioning & dysphoria
a guy named joe by joe stevens
boy in a dress by namoli brennet
daughter by ryan cassata
daughterson by joe stevens
dysphoria by saint wellesley
f*gette by athens boys choir
ftm at the dmv by schmekel
genderless by jonesin and the hurt
genderqueer love song by schmekel
girl or boy by dani shay
my lgbt story by itsbambii
new men with old man names-schmekel
second puberty by jake edwards
sex:male;gender:whatever-human kitten
tell me a story by skylar kergil
the village by wrabel
trans is love by marissa kay
trans punx by size of sadness
transgender dysphoria blues-against me
true trans soul rebel by against me
they/them/theirs by worriers
you cant tell me by jake edwards
youth
carla williams kissed me-jamie anderson
compulsive liar by ezra furman
diplomats son by vampire weekend
first time he kissed a boy by kadie elder
grace by jamie anderson
i lost my innocence by ezra furman
kiss the boy by keiynan lonsdale
loners by maddie ross
mr, peterson by perfume genius
pat me on the ass by pansy division
room by palehound
seventeen by troye sivan
seventeen by kevin abstract
son of a preacher man by tom goss
the art teacher by rufus wainwright
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Please pass this on to everyone so that they are aware of the danger. I don’t how it is all around the world but I know it can’t just be here so please please spread the word. Thank you.
so while i was in japan i stumbled upon a pop up alien and space museum/art gallery (if you can’t find a thing in tokyo, it probably doesn’t exist) and there were these gorgeous feudal paintings of the tale of the bamboo cutter and it’s a very good story but
what if
it went
a little
differently?
kaguya is the princess of the moon. she is a young child, gangly thin limbs and a plump mouth permanently set in a stubborn pout. she is a beautiful child, even by the moon’s standards, with her cold opal eyes and hair the same deep black as the void of space. she is an unruly, irritable child. she runs from the priestesses who attempt to teach her her duties, and steps on the feet of little princes from far away stars that her parents parade in front of her. she can’t be soothed by sweets, by soft toys, by pretty songs. she is a being of constant want, and nothing in the whole of space seems to satisfy her.
kaguya does not love the moon as she should. she does not find beauty in it’s silvery, iridescent ground, nor in the pools beneath its surface that glint like mercury. she finds her citizens stuffy and annoying, and all the people from the stars think they’re better than them just because they shine a little brighter. it makes kaguya cross – the sun shines brightest of all, and the only beings that still reside on it is a great monster of a dragon that no one dares cross.
the priestesses try to entice her to learn this portion of her duties at least, but she runs from them and plugs her ears and does not listen. there are times when the sun and moon cross paths, and when they do the great dragon of the sun attempts to gobble them up whole. it is only by praying to the god tsukuyomi and erecting a barrier that the royal family can protect their home from the sun dragon.
it is kaguya’s most sacred duty, and she has no interest in it.
she’s simultaneously bored by her home and insulted when others find it lacking, and this contrary rational might be distressing to the logic of an adult, but kaguya is not an adult. she is a child, and being contrary is her prerogative.
she is walking through in the courtyard behind a palace when a shooting star passes her by, then circles back again. it’s s such a little thing, it must have been traveling for a very long time, because it’s burned down so it’s only about half as big as kaguya. this means the star is very old. “child,” the falling star says, voice ancient and crackling, “why are you sad?”
“i am not sad,” she answers, but as soon as she says that she knows it’s a lie, and tears prick at her eyes. “i am always lonely, though i am surrounded by people. i am always bored, though there are many things to entertain me. i am always angry, though there is nothing wrong. i am sad because i am a piece that does not fit.”
“maybe you are simply a piece that belongs to a different puzzle,” the falling star says, “come, climb onto me, and i will i take you somewhere new.”
“will it be better?” she asks.
if a falling star could shrug this one would, but it can’t so it doesn’t. “it will be different.”
different sounds better to kaguya. she agrees, not bothering to say goodbye to her parents or her people, does not take one last look at the beauty of the moon’s surface. instead she climbs onto the falling star, her skin thick enough that she does not feel its burn, and rides it all the way down, until it is a star no longer and only a falling rock, until she goes tumbling onto a whole new planet, and as she falls she thinks that this new planet looks very green.
~
there is an old man called taketori no okina. he lives alone in a great bamboo field, and every day he wakes up at dawn and cuts bamboo until dusk, then he goes home and eats and sleeps and wakes up in the morning to do it all again. when he was a young man, taketori no okina fell in love with a samurai who had laughter lines around his mouth and strong hands, who taught him how to wield blades with a strength and skill that could cut down the strongest soldiers. but taketori no okina only uses it to harvest bamboo. the samurai was engaged to the daughter of a respectable family, and so he left. he left his village not long after the samurai, unable to be there alone in the place where they used to be together. taketori no okina’s heart was so full of love for his samurai that he could not bear to love another, and so he never did.
he is awoken in the middle of the night by a bang that shakes his home and nearly deafens him. he stumbles outside, and a couple miles into his field he sees smoke. he goes running for it, concerns about fire and war – they’re in a time of peace now, but they weren’t always – rushing through his mind as he stumbles through. when he reaches the source, it’s to find his bamboo flattened in a ten foot wide circle and a little girl lying in the center. he falls to his knees beside her and carefully picks her up, cradling her in his arms. she’s pale, like she doesn’t spend enough time in the sun, and has long black hair. her thin chest rises and falls with her deep breaths, and he is relieved that she’s alive. “little girl,” he says, “you must wake up and tell me if you are all right.”
she opens her eyes, two pearls set in her delicate face. “i am well,” she says, and smiles at him. she curls into him, setting her head against his chest, “you are warm. i will stay with you, for you are warm and have a kind face.”
she falls asleep once more, a hand clutching something laying across her stomach and her other hand fisted into his robe. taketori no okina looks at this little girl and feels his heart expand, until it’s straining against his rib cage. he loves his samurai as much as he always has, but now his heart is bigger. it’s made room so he can fill it with love for this little girl, and so he does.
he carries her to his home and settles her into his bed. it’s a small bed, meant only for one, and she is a little thing, but he does not wish to crowd her, so takes the floor. tomorrow he will build her a bed and take her to market and show her the hot springs near the mountain. for now he falls asleep listening to her soft breathing with a smile.
the next morning he wakes up to her sitting on the floor by his side, running her fingers over a pockmarked stone. “what is that?”
“it is all that is left of my friend. she was once a great star but she fell, as all great stars must. she carried me here because i was sad. but now i am sad that she is gone.”
“that’s all right,” taketori no okina says, and she blinks down at him. no one had ever told her that it was okay that she was sad before. “she was very special, so we must put her in a very special place.”
he gets up and builds a ledge across the window with a platform just big enough for the stone to fit. he lifts her up so that she can set what’s left of her friend on it herself. “now she can see you and sky she came from at the same time, and you will always be able to see her.”
“she cannot see anything anymore,” she says, but she likes the idea of it, the sentiment. she feels less sad at her loss now, although she can’t say why, since nothing has changed.
once he has set her back on her feet she looks up at him and says, “i am kaguya. what shall i call you?”
“they call me taketori no okina,” he pushes a lock of her dark hair behind her ear, “you may call me whatever you like.”
she wrinkles her nose at that name. it is too long, and too formal. if she is to call him that, then he might as well call her princess kaguya, and she might as well not have left the moon at all. “i will call you oyaji,” she declares, and it’s not a term she’d used even with her father on the moon, but for this old man who built her a shelf and carried her home and had large, rough hands that touch her gently, she thinks it fits.
~
kaguya quite likes the new planet and her new father. he is man who’s spent a lifetime working and doing little else. he has a tidy savings that he cheerfully depletes on her; he buys her colorful kimonos for her to wear when he walks her to market, and functional kosodes for the days she spends playing in the river and darting through the bamboo forests. he tells her stories at night, of his samurai, of the emperor, and when he exhausts his reservoir of stories about this land, he tells her the tales of other ones – the fire-rats of china, the buddha of india, and when he even those run out he tells her of dragons, of a magical island called horai.
she loves these stories, and she loves him. there are days when she is sad and cross, and on those days oyaji kisses her forehead and tucks the blanket around her shoulder and brings her something spicy from the market for dinner. oyaji just lets her be sad or angry when she wants to be, and because of that kaguya finds that now she gets sad less and less, that more often than not she’s …. happy.
she notices the special care oyaji takes when he talks of samurai, and sees the strength and power in his limbs when he cuts bamboo, and decides she would like to be strong like the samurai in his stories, like oyaji is himself. so she asks and asks, and he’s worried that it’s too dangerous for her. but oyaji loves her like she’s his own flesh and blood, and is unable to deny her anything.
kaguya grows up. she grows up on stories of far off lands and magic, she grows up on warm, simple food made by someone who loves her, she grows up learning to wield blades with the same brute efficiency as oyaji. kaguya grows up beautiful. her skin is darker now that she dances in the sun’s rays, her hair is long and fine, and her eyes are as they’ve always been – pale and beautiful, small versions of the moon she was born on. she moves with a steadied grace that only a deadly woman can master and has the whipcord strength of body from days working in the bamboo fields alongside her father, but all the delicate features of the princess she was born as.
they were left alone when she was a child, when oyaji took her hand and guided her to meat stalls and cloth sellers and bought sparkly combs for her to wear in her hair. but kaguya is a child no longer. she is a young woman, and tales of her beauty spread far and wide. just as when she was a child and princes from far off stars came to court her, now princes come from far off lands. as a child she stepped on their feet, and as a woman she wishes to take her shiny blades and cut them from navel to neck. but she is not a princess here, she is the poor daughter of a poor bamboo cutter, and must act accordingly. she can’t go slicing up arrogant suitors who believe they are entitled to her, no matter how much she would like to.
the most persistent are five princes from lands far from here. she requests a betrothal gift from each of them, and says she will marry the first to return.
from the first prince, she requests the stone begging bowl of buddha.
from the second prince, she requests a jeweled branch from horai.
from the third prince, she requests a fire-rat robe.
from the fourth prince, she requests a cowry shell born of swallows.
from the fifth prince, she requests a colored jewel from a dragon’s neck.
off they go to fulfill her impossible requests, and kaguya rests easy knowing that they will not return, or if they do they will return empty handed.
but this is not the end.
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Well out of the blue I just remembered today the time I accidentally joined the cast of a production of The Princess Bride….in the middle of the production.