The Russian One Jumped Out At Me Because I Say It So Much *ahem* And Then I Started Looking At The Rest,

He'd find some other way to punish himself - for the time being. Once the sunshot campaign is over, unless someone actively stops him by talking to him like a sick goat* and passing the highest persuasion check ever he'd still take his life once he's no longer needed.

Thing is, Nie Mingjue is a lot of things but he's not a hypocrite. We know this when he goes 'I'll kill myself after killing him' with Meng Yao. But he is aware that there is too much at stake to remove him. He didn't become the general because he can hit things really hard, I'm sure (I mean, he can, but that's not the reason) but because he's a good leader and a great tactician. He knows this. He knows how much is at stake.

I honestly think talking him out of killing himself would be harder than talking him out of killing Meng Yao was.

I don't want to entertain this thought any longer. I love Nie Mingjue. I don't want him hurt. (And I say that as someone who loves Jin Guangyao every bit as much.)

*Have a weird Austrian idiom directly translated into English, haha.

imagine the following scenario:

during the sunshot campaign, due to the demands of war, nie mingjue frequently has to move his troops through farmland, the farmers of which depend on the land and the crops they raise for survival. nie mingjue orders his men to not disturb the farmers' crops; however, he has trouble enforcing this order.

eventually, nie mingjue decrees that the next person who damages the common people's crops will be executed, regardless of rank or status. and when two men do not take this decree seriously and steal some crops for themselves anyways, nie mingjue actually has them executed.

unfortunately, barely a week later, due to severe sleep deprivation, nie mingjue himself neglects to watch where he is going and ends up trampling a farmer's crops.

some notes: as it turns out, nie mingjue is basically the only person on the entire hejian front who has the ability to be an effective general. his battle prowess, understanding of war tactics, and ability to command the loyalty of his men are unparalleled. furthermore, there are many secret operations currently underway, and while multiple people in the sunshot campaign know about these, only nie mingjue knows about all of them and can see the full picture. thus, if nie mingjue dies, then the sunshot campaign will suffer a severe setback.

"does not punish himself" is not a poll option bc lbr he would not dodge punishment

Dye Their Flowers With My Blood

A solar eclipse, a curse, and the age-old question: Why are we here? Having died twice already adds a certain urgency to that one.

(I have reached the half-way mark in my YOI project, and I needed a moment to collect myself. This one has been a long time coming.)

Okay this is lovely. They have an extremely lovely longfic, too*, which I've just read and I have no words.

The Waves are Rising and Rising, to be found on Ao3. Seriously. It's so, so good.

happy valentines day! have some happy 3zun, based on a lovely moment from the Good Mornin'! sequence in Singin In The Rain :)

I want the golden dice. I haven't tried Tactician and I don't have a guide. Yes, I know this is a bad idea and I'll need one eventually.

ANYWAY, meet Black Water, borrowed from Heaven Official's Blessing because Honour Mode needs a) pragmatic character and b) someone who can die and come back because I want to do this with one person.

In that vein, the first autosave is secured elsewhere. This is the only time I'm doing it, I just don't want to go back to character creation.

Let's see how this goes.

For starters, talk to him like a normal person. Someone should have tried that some time. (Yes, I know a total amount of two (2) people did that - and those don't include Minshan because hero-worship is not normal.)

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He's in your room what do you do.

Sorry I didn't know what to do with this photo.

Hello! Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to five other writers 🥰

Haha, this is fun:

Air (and the sequels): Because a massive ton of research went into my first ever hard sci-fi fic. That thing had so many comments on the original platform, too, but it no longer exists, which makes me a bit sad. (Star Trek, K/S)

Avenge the Living, Heal the Dead: Because I'm really, really proud of this one. There will be a sequel, too. (TGCF, Beefleaf and Hualian)

Counting Blurry Stars: Because it has what must be the most wholesome pair of greenflasgs in history. (Yuri!!! on Ice - it's marked incomplete, but I thought it was finished at the stage it's currently at, haha.)

Dye Their Flowers With My Blood: Because it's the fic my younger self would have loved: A redemption story for at least one of a group of villains. (Inuysha, but a Shichinintai fic.)

Tug-o-War: Because it took me ages and the thing fought back, but I love what it became. (Witcher x Chronicles of the Raven; several rare-pairs: Hirad/Ilkar, Thraun/Will [which I'll tell everyone who listens is canon], and Regis/Shani, which blindsided me a bit.)

C'mon, we need to catch up! Some of the tags are so angry, haha. Viktuuri needs to win everything, it's in the name!

The Anime Binge-Watcher's Queer Anime Ship Tournament!

The second round rages on! This match-up has me absolutely terrified that my number-one pick is going to be crushed by the titan that is Victuuri. But I can hold out hope, right? Right??? Cast your votes now!

All Round 2 Match-Ups

Rules and Full Bracket

If anyone ever wonders why I left the Abramamitic religions behind me in favour of some weird form agnostic omnism with strong pagan leanings, read the answers to that one. So much earnestness for what can't be proven, so much fervour for old story books. Oh boy. With someone who hasn't done this entire Catholic thing any more for almost two decades, this is bizarre.

I mean. I did consider myself Catholic, I even considered joining a convent, but it NEVER occurred to me to call pagans satanic or any such things. This is the kind of attitude that turned me off the whole thing. (Apart from the bits that say 'I am the only god' and 'I am jealous of all the other gods that TOOOOTALLY don't exist' thing that makes ZERO sense and is toxic af. I don't want anything to do with jealous people, human or otherwise, they can stay the hell away from me. I ain't doing this.)

That the person in question is not even Christian doesn't matter. All three are the same thing to me. Same sky daddy, same arbitrary rules that made some sense back in the day and none now, same fervour in the followers that gobble up what they're fed by the higher-ups in their particular brand of the 'I love you but if you step a toe out of line I'll destroy you even beyond death' cult. They were when I liked them and they are when I'm glad to be out.

Boy. I really don't like them any more it seems.

Edit: I mean, it's poetic, in a way. I used to wear a gold chain with a small cross, Star of David, and crescent to signify that they have the same value and worth, and then I started, little by little, to resent all three. That process took many years. And then, one day, my chain broke. I was really sad and decided to have it fixed. I noticed in time and didn't lose any of the pendants. I never had it fixed. I know now I never will. The broken chain is a symbol in itself. I am lost to them and they are to me.

really recommend getting a partner with a different religion than you and very little knowledge of your religion because the opportunities for explaining things to each other are just exquisite

Avenge the Living, Heal the Dead

New Chapter:

The investigation has been crudely planned, but it leads ... well, somewhere. How to get back from wherever that is is a different question entirely.

Both. I'm gonna do both when I finally write my 3zun fic.

Sometimes you have to write a piece that tears apart Jin Guangyao at the seems to see what he’s really made of. For better Nieyao