At First I Didn't Understand Why I Was Obssessed With Platonics And Romantics Relationships Like Ash

At first I didn't understand why I was obssessed with platonics and romantics relationships like Ash and Eiji's ( Banana Fish), Eddie and Richie's (It), He tian and Mo Guan Shan's ( 19 days), Wilhelm and Simon's (Young Royals), Hachi and Nana's (Nana), Marceline and BubbleGum's ( Adventure Time), Mike and Will's ( Stranger things)...

It's ONLY because I've never been the first choice, never had a best friend or a lover. Nobody was or is in love with me. I never feel wanted and people don't need me. And that's why I've been watching those shows and dreaming about this kind of relationship.

I don't even know if they helped me when I felt alone or if they make it worse. But sometimes I tell myself that one day, one day it's going to be my turn, my turn to be loved.

It's crazy because if you look at their relationships they love each others for who they really are, even if one of them has trauma, one of them is a loser, one of them has issues and has been abused, one of them is weird.

Anyways.