Every Day, I Wait To See If The Little Peter On Your Dashboard Gets The Microwave Door Shut On Him, I

Shorter, Ash & Eiji

I decided to finish this after all (I totally could've done more here tbh, but I just wanted to get it done atp 😅)

I did hide shorters eyes behind the glasses, because he weirdly looked like Jackson Wang to me???? Idk why though, I never ever used a reference of him or anything 😭😭😭

Can we talked about how gentle and worried Eiji was to Ash in episode 20

Through all the madness of falling in love ...

Speedpaint and image ID below the cut!

[ID: A digital painting with an atmosphere similar to the second ending of the anime Banana Fish. The camera is from Ash's perspective, watching Eiji, who is facing the sun. However, unlike in the RED ending where Ash is in Eiji's shadow, Eiji is holding Ash's hand and leading him toward the light, through the rye field. END ID]

[ID: A timelapse of the previous painting being drawn digitally, with no audio. END ID]

why is guilt such a leading theme and motivation in banana fish. omg

- max’s guilt for shooting griffin that leads him to research banana fish for 10 years and go to that whole adventure

- ash’s guilt for killing people (mostly shorter; ash and shorter are a clear parallel to max and griffin), putting eiji in danger, being unable to protect his friends

- shorter’s guilt for having to betray his friends

- eiji’s guilt for… well, everything, mostly getting in the way and doing stupid things and also a good bunch of stuff he isn’t responsible for  (he tends to blame himself a lot)

- sing’s guilt for not being a good enough boss, also for ash’s death in “garden of light“

- ibe’s guilt for taking eiji to the usa in the first place

Just finished Garden of Light, and this is me now

Me when I purposefully consume media that will damage my mental health:

has this been done yet

it's a cruel, cruel summer! 🍌🐟

commissions open!

i think about them constantly

I'm coming to the conclusion that Ash is just really bad at understanding the assignment.

Like cool, I'll banish Eiji, just let me shower him with an earth shattering compliment first.