INTRO🐅⚔️

I'm highly suspicious of women who say they're lesbians but spend more time hating men instead of lusting after/loving women.

Like yeah I get it, feminism is important but getting triggered at guys ALL DAY long is not it.

I know too well that it is possible to be sad and gay at the same time

My first cross to bear is my family. I can't even explain how it feels to grow up in an abusive enviroment just to move out and live among people who don't respect you and see you as lesser, have hatered in their eyes everytime they look at you, dismiss your words as if you were a child or an animal with no agency, see you as needy for wanting your basic, natural human needs satisfied.

Second is being a neurodivergent woman in society. It taught me that being overly altruistic is a one big trap.

1. It's against my nature

2. It's denying myself basic respect by accepting that it won't be mutual

Raymond Thibesart (French, 1874 - 1968)

Spring Trees

reject femininity and embrace femaleness

I'm not a feminist and will never be, feminists hate me "sexualising" women. Being attracted to women means seeing their bodies as sexual and that bothers them. I love characters in video games with big breasts, I love things that are seen as "male gaze".

I won't feel sorry for my sexual orientation. I won't call all women sisters. I see their bodies as sexual.

I have many many fears.

Some can paralyze me. They make my voice weaker. I'm trying to speak up as much as I can.

And everytime I do I'm mad at myself I didn't say more.

I don't know if I'll change but I wish I could. I want to change. I want to be myself and not afraid of getting hurt.

Not afraid of speaking my mind. Loud and clear.

Loud and clear.

tolerant people are not truly tolerant when it comes to people with mental issues

once I get over my own problems and heal to a point where I can stand on my own and assimilate into society, I'll make sure to shame every single person who is needlessly cruel to someone who's neurodivergent and doesn't cause any harm

I promise this to myself.

gender was made up by the patriarchy to control women

As a psych student I have to learn that it's important for teens to understand their gender roles and perform them. Fuck this!

It isn't. Woman is not a social role. There is no such thing, only stereotypes and bs ideas.