Hate Myself For These Numbers

“But if you forget to reblog Madame Zeroni, you and your family will be cursed for always and eternity.”

Like I said my body is against me currently and for some reason I ate terribly today

Today's Log: Blueberry Jam

Peanut butter

2 GF blueberry waffles

Peppermint mocha Kcup

Almond milk

SF peppermint mocha syrup

Plain potato chips

Slice of Goudah

Light Greek yogurt

French onion dip powder

Liquid IV acai berry flavor

SF berry gum

6 GF thinmints (serving is 4)

Stuffing casserole

If you're a transfemme and can't or don't want to tuck, you are amazing. Your body is good. Your body is feminine enough - you don't have to do anything to "prove" it. No matter what is best for your mind and body, you will always be good. To hell with the idea that you must alter yourself to be a "true" woman - you are already there.

An apology

I'm sorry if I help fuel your ed

I'm sorry if this account is one of the reasons you have an ed

In sorry if you looked on my page out of curiosity then stumbled down the tabitha hole

I'm sorry if my page influenced your ed in anyway

But let me say something

It might be too late for those people but please I'm BEGGING you if you don't have an ed and are at the "curiosity" stage let me tell you the saying "Curiousity Killed the Cat" has never rang more true, so LEAVE. I'm not asking you nicely I'm telling you FUCKING LEAVE.

I don't care if I seem rude to you, get the fuck off tumblr RIGHT NOW. I ignored these when I saw them and I regret it this disorder is one of the WORST things that happened to me, you know anorexia is the most deadly mental illness ? If you don't recover you will DIE.

I want to scream through my phone, I am so fucking angry, I don't want to influence any eating disorders !!!

As the sister of a recovered anorexic being their family member is horrible, seeing someone slowly deteriorate, hearing the fights escalate, not knowing when you would see them for the last time, wondering why they won't eat this. When I was 8, my parents FORBADE ME FROM WAKING MY BIG SISTER UP IN FEAR I WOULD SEE HER DEAD BODY. DO YOU UNDERSTAND ?! THEY THOUGHT A CHILD, A BABY, WOULD SEE THE PERSON SHE LOOKS UP TO DEAD.

THIS ILLNESS IS NO JOKE, NOT A SKINNY DISNEY FAST PASS, NOT A CUTE QUIRK, IT'S DEADLY.

And as an anorexic let me tell you, it's even worse. You will cry in front of the mirror, pinch your "fat" until it's red, shower in the dark, the scale will be your best friend and worse enemy, you will hate yourself so much more, you will MISS FOOD, you will miss being able to eat fries or pizza or spring rolls or crisps or potatoes, you may be thinking "I'll still let myself eat them from time to time" NO YOU WON'T, you will probably have a breakdown when you have them on your plate, you might purge, you might starve for the next day or more. Your personality will dissolve, you will be constantly angry and irritable.

Oh and also, if you have siblings or cousins I would like to inform you that people are more likely to have an ed if a family member had one and I KNOW you care about your family. (I am not accusing any one of purposefully influencing family members it's just for information)

If you have an already existing ed you can stay, if not then get the FUCK OFF MY PAGE YOU BEAUTIFUL PERFECT HUMAN BEING AND GO HAVE A SNACK. This illness is not beautiful and aesthetic, it's torture.

the princess saves herself in this one —amanda lovelace

Reblog if you’re so disgusted with the way you look you want to cry when you look at yourself in the mirror

50 Skinny Quotes

“Hunger will not betray you like eating will”

“Hunger hurts, but starving works”

“Hungry to bed, hungry to rise, makes a girl a smaller size”

“Calories won’t make you happy”

“Starving is willpower”

“Pleasure to the lips adds pounds to the hip”

“Do not reward yourself with food, you are not a dog”

“If it was easy, everyone would be thin”

“I’m not telling you it’s going to be easy, I’m telling you it’s going to be worth it”

“Eat to live, but don’t live to eat”

“Hunger is your friend and it won’t betray you like eating will”

“Your stomach growling is the sound of your fat screaming”

“Everything looks good on skinny”

“Know that the pain will pass. When it passes you will be stronger, happier, and more aware“

“The greasy fry it cannot lie. Its truth is written on your thigh”

“Giving into food shows weakness, be strong and you will be better than everyone else”

“I made myself fat, I can make myself thin”

“If I eat anything, I’ll eat everything, so I eat nothing”

“Waking up thinner is worth going to bed hungry”

“Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels”

“Every calorie you eat equals another step towards destruction“

“Eating will not solve anything”

“Ballerina or beanbag?”

“No one ever got skinny sitting on their behind”

“You could die at any time and once you are dead, you will be that weight FOREVER, do you want to look fat when everyone comes by to see you in the coffin?”

“Eat less, weigh less”

“Starve my pain away, make me beautiful, make everything okay, turn my problems into bones, crush them up, gather the remains, blow away the dust“

“Junk food is cheap but thin is priceless“

“Never trade what you want most for what you want at the moment, it only leads to failure”

“For every day that you binge, it pushes back the day of your ultimate goal weight by a week”

“You only fail if you stop trying“

“You are not hungry, you are bored, learn the difference”

“ You will not regret getting skinny, but you will regret overeating”

“Do it so that people ask, “has she been eating?”“

“I am not there yet, but I am closer than I was yesterday”

“Need motivation to lose weight? Just sit in front of the mirror naked”

“If you are not hungry enough to eat an apple, you are not hungry”

“Dear stomach, you are not bored, you are hungry, so shut up”

“Stop eating, you must be beautiful”

“So you can show everyone who doubted you, you can do it”

“Coffee and smokes, and cold diet cokes, that’s what pretty girls are made of”

“Stay strong, and starve on”

“Inside us is a thin person struggling to get out, but she is too sedated with a few pieces of chocolate cake”

“Keep calm and hunger will pass”

“The fact that you are not where you want to be should be enough motivation”

“You’ll never get skinny if you keep on eating”

“An imperfect body reflects an imperfect person“

“The thinner is the winner“

“You cannot taste perfection, you can feel it“

“If you aren’t thin, you aren’t attractive“

Stats

ED: EDNOS (currently leaning towards restrict)

UGW: 90 lbs or 40.82 kg

GW: 105 lbs or 47.63 kgs

CW: 138.9 lbs or 63 kg

SW: 180 lbs or 81.65 kg

HT: 5'4.25 or 160 cm

Measurements: Waist 29in/73.6cm Bust and Hips 39in/99.06cm

Also I'm gluten intolerant and vegitarian (mostly) so I might post some recipes

Some male thinspo because I don't see a lot of them

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