Shefaali-the-thoughts - Shefaali's Memory Dump

Hi Shefaali, I am so glad so see you resume posting again. I was worried and missing you while you were away for last 8-10 weeks. I hope all is well. I just wanted to emphasize again how wonderful your posts on Tumblr are. Your mind is truly beautiful and sexy and you seem to be blessed with (or you have worked hard to aquire) incredible writing skills. It is such a pleasure reading you and imagining your life! I hope your hubby, 2nd hubby, stag, boss, and swimming pool boyfriend are all fine!

Dear Anonymous,

It is at times as this when I felt knowing the name of the one who is writing the message would have been really great.

Thank you very much for the kind words and compliments. The fact is that I am neither blessed with, nor worked hard to acquire any writing skills. When my memories overwhelm, I keep dumping them on the notepad. Yeah, the dialogues are at best the ‘best memory’ and as you may have guessed, not the exact words spoken at that time, but fairly similar to what could have been. I hardly go back to ‘edit’ anything except for spelling mistakes because my typing speed is at best, well, to use a better word, pathetic.

So thank you for the compliments and taking your time out to read someone else’s shit.

:)

Shefaali

My stag would do this to me, but not while standng, only after I am laid flat on the bed.

Thank you...

What would happen should your husband discover your "activities"? Would you marriage survive? Would he be turned on? Would he reluctantly let you continue, hating it (and himself?) all-the-while?

I wish I knew the answer. One thing that helps my situation immensely is that my husband is posted abroad on work and visits india twice in a year on vacations.. During this time the frequency of my meeting the bulls reduce though my stag (who’s my husband’s colleague in india) still manages the appointments and informs the bulls about my availability after my husband returns abroad.

My husband typically stays for about 2 to 3 weeks during vacation. So even during this period i have to make some time out to meet my long term boyfriends (ie my stag himself, a friend i met at the swimming club i go to, and the husband of one of my friends) at their home since they can’t go completely without sex during this window.

The other thing that helps immensely is that I know that my husband has a very high libido. Which implies that it won’t be possible for a man of his libido to continue for 11 months in a foreign land without indulging in sex. The apartment where my husband stays abroad, is also frequented by a female colleague of his as they have lunch and dinner together, either at his place or her’s as she has also traveled abroad alone leaving her family in india. I have on frequent occasions heard her voice in the background while speaking to my husband over phone. I have strong reasons to believe that my husband is not just ‘friends’ with her and that the two of them must have very willingly and consensually found ways to retain each other for their need of regular sex and survive as fully functioning human male and female. I understand how important sex is biologically for a human being, specially for my husband who used to fuck me at least once every day, if not more. And I also know what a fantastic lover he is from the way he pleasures me. i am positive that having fucked his colleague once, she can never again refuse an invite for sex with my husband. I have no problem with he being a long term bull to his female colleague abroad as long as his heart belongs to me. Me too despite my long term boyfriends and the various bulls that have sex with me, have retained my heart for my husband only.

So to answer your question as to how he would react if he came to know of my sex life in india, i would say as long as he is assured that it’s just my body that I derive pleasure in through these men, he would be ok although yeah, he probably wouldn’t be my stag himself ever and nor would i even remotely consider cuckolding him.

Does this answer your question?

Your blog is very articulate. Would love to interact more with you

Thank you for the encouraging words.

Hey, good to see you see post again. Long time :) hope all is well with you. Is there a way I can inbox you, tried a couple times but messages didn't go through.

Thank you for the compliment.

Your blog is a window into your mind and I love peaking into that window. Waiting for your next post. And thanks for everything you have written here.

Thank you for the kind words.

No, am not unfaithful. I let the bulls use my body but my soul belongs to my husband. He knows that very well. He doesn't think I am unfaithful and nor do i.

Dear Shefali, Glad you’ve starting posting again. You think your husband noticed another man’s presence when ever or if you allowed him to drop his seeds . In your mind did you ever compare the two men in their techniques of making love ?

My interactions with ‘other’ men were very limited when my husband was here. So the probability of what you mentioned was very low, though not absent. About comparing two men, I do not think it is ever possible to do so. No two mean are alike in their approach, touch, feel, grips, noise, clutches, use of force. So with my limited knowledge, I consider it unwise to even try to compare a man with anyone else. They are all an experience by themselves and attempting to even draw a comparison is not prudent, that’s what I feel.

And yes, you misspellt my name :-)