"Please stay" He begged and started to cry I gathered my things "Please just try"
I couldn't be his Not anyone's I've tried this before More than once
"I love you" He told me at the door I said nothing back What would hurt more?
I drove away And missed all his calls I wished I'd felt something Anything at all
"You'll never see me again" He threatened But his words were a gift Not a weapon
I don't think of you I don't look for you Blink, you're here Blink, you're gone
I walk through my day I go about life Step, you appear Step, you fade
I curl up in bed I sleep and don't Dream Inhale, I breathe you Exhale, I let go
Floating on my back Naked in the water I made a promise to The clouds above To never ask about their father
The sky turns gray And I feel cold I give my body to the earth Into her hands to hold One day she may cradle me When I am very old
I see the sun light up Below the horizon Piercing the clouds Warming the land That someday I will die on
Without my clothes I am the planet's creature Flesh and bone And limbs to feature This forest pond is a refuge And the wind's voice my teacher
Ocean, I have a confession to make. I am just a small bird, a very small bird, You are endless and vast, How can I tell you I love you?
I have fallen in love with you deeply, As deep as your floors, your trenches; But you are so grand and I, Well I am just a bird, would you wave me off?
I have this fragile, mortal body And I am jealous of your infinite waters. How could you ever love me back When I exist for just one of your moments?
I am standing, twig legged, at your shore, I am watching the clouds kiss your horizon And I have never felt smaller, yet I am drowning in my adoration of you.
Since we are being vulnerable, And my feelings are likely unrequited, May I ask, Ocean, who is it you love? For whom does your body ebb and flow?
It's just hair Sometimes I am Covered in it Sometimes it Isn't there It doesn't matter Much to me Whether I am Blanked or bare I thought That it defined me Or that one way Made you want me I don't know Why I cared But you shaved Above my lip What I thought You wanted there So I still think It's why you left me That it was just Because of hair
The house spider in my window Is resting for the winter It is her second year here She might not make it to spring She is thin and fragile now I will watch to see if she revives From her gentle hibernation What an impact she has had on me No creature is undeserving of love And I have had so much to give
Without reading any of my written words Is it possible to truly know me? Mind musings, soul serenades This feels like the only accurate, undiluted Version of my being
If you've never met my body Maybe you know me better than most Or maybe to know me is reading both Poetry being the translation of my body language Into my mother tongue
So I'll lay my words down delicately, intentionally Hoping you see them A dialect spoken just between us Yes, you would know me I think you could know me entirely this way
I dropped him Like burnt toast, So suddenly Unwanted, Heartlessly Discarded, and I, The one who Neglected and Blackened him, Convince myself It was justified
I am always asking questions I am a hypothetical idea I am a torrent of branching thoughts Meanings are occasionally sought
I am a half circle above a dot I am a rumination I am the one planting a seed No rain or sunshine guaranteed
I am the roots that are growing Down into the depths of the earth Reaching and probing so much deeper But I am also axiom's keeper
Even the wildest Of creatures Still long to be Held tightly Sometimes, If only for a Moment Even the freest Of beings Still long to be Kept in Someone's heart
"I can be someone's and still be my own." -- Shel SilversteinSide blog: @a-sign-of-fire
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