Usually if a song is longer than ~6 minutes it's a special-occasions-only song because my ADHD does not have the patience to sit through the whole thing.
However a couple weeks ago I heard "The Sun, The Moon, The Star" by Æther Realm—which is a third of an hour long—and since then I've listened to it multiple times a day.
Absolute masterpiece of a song, recommend it to everybody
Caveat is it's melodic death metal, which might be a turn off to some people
"Manjiro Sano" aka "Mikey"
I get that they think they are bringing me up by saying that, I do. But all I can feel is them dismissing the fact that I have ADHD and I cannot work the way I’m apparently supposed to. By saying this, they’re saying that I just have to keep pushing onwards the same way I always had to because I was able to do it before.
Going back to that car engine analogy thing…
My car engine is not working as is standard. It randomly shuts off. Trying to get it to turn back on is a pain. Sometimes, it manages to stay on for a while and I can get the car to move for a few miles, or kilometres or metres. But sometimes, it keeps shutting off as soon as I manage to turn it on. Or sometimes, it wouldn’t turn on at all, no matter what I try.
But I have to get to my destination. No matter what I have to get there. So I keep trying. I keep worrying about if I’m even going to make it there on time. Or at all.
Okay, I don’t know where I’m going with this but I feel like I have to write this for some reason
I remember when I was a teenager and kept insisting to my parents that there was something wrong with me because I couldn’t make myself study or do homework when I should and I was so stressed and anxious because I kept procrastinating, they kept telling me that I just need to train myself.
They compared it to a car engine for some reason, saying that when a car hasn’t been driven for a long time and you try to drive it, there are issues with the engine running, but if you drive it everyday then it runs smoothly. And that it was the same way with motivation and productivity, apparently.
Then I finally got diagnosed with ADHD
And somehow they have either forgotten or brushed aside all the times they’ve scolded me and argued with me, and now they are saying, “But you were able to do it! You should be proud!”
Can someone please tell me what fanfiction this is? I need it
this fandom has truly ruined my ability to look like a normal person who doesn't just randomly snort with laughter to myself with no explanation at any given moment... because so many times a day I'll just be sitting there minding my own business and then suddenly remember some lawlight fanfic I saw one time where L's real name was revealed to be "Lustice"
Angel sees some pretty crazy stuff
the whole guilt-tripping language in posts about important topics paired with how I'm still getting bitches in my notes talking about why it's actually good to tell "bad" people to kill themselves continues to prove to me that a lot of people have absolutely no concept of social justice or activism outside of assuming the worst of and then viciously attacking strangers on the internet
the end of the world began on the day adrien agreste turned thirteen years old.
(first chapter is up! happy october)