my dad likes to call the stretches of time where you’re not creating “dreaming periods” and says that they’re meant to allow you to absorb all of the beauty, life, and inspiration from the things around you so that when you’re able to create again, you will have fanned your spark back into a flame. sometimes its hard to see those moments as anything but stagnation, but he always says that they’re natural and healthy and needed—things that should be embraced rather than feared.
Allow me to stare at this Luthor beauty. (6x08)
Supercorp: The Proposal AU 💍
Waiting to see the Best Player in the Nation again
Bring back captain CP! ❤️😭
what do you do when you're lonely?
It depends. There are different kinds of lonely, aren’t there?
There’s the quiet kind. It’s almost light. It’s the soft realisation that nobody has understood you for quite a while - in fact, you’re not really sure when you last felt understood. It settles around you like a blanket and you let it. It’s a return to familiarity.
When I feel like this, I go for a walk, or write a poem, and think a lot. Usually, I realise that it is an impossible task to expect anybody to understand me completely but I am understandable in fragments to different people at different times and that is okay. The most important thing is that I understand myself.
There is the specific kind. When you feel isolated or left out or unloved by a particular person or group of people. When you don’t understand why. When you feel that there must be something wrong with you, something different or awkward that makes you difficult to love. It’s heavy and shameful.
When I feel like this, I think about my perceived differences and realise that I have people in my life who are grateful for them. I think about whether I am truly being excluded or whether I’ve just interpreted a situation in that way because of my defense mechanisms. And I talk to my loved ones because everybody needs a reminder that they’re loveable from time to time.
Finally, there is a violent kind of lonely. It is desperate. Chronic. Hopeless. For me, it accompanies a period of being continuously misunderstood. Being called selfish when you were trying to be selfless. Being called cruel when you thought you were acting out of kindness. Being called defensive when you were trying to communicate. Being told you didn’t care when you know you did. It isolates you from everyone, even you from yourself. This is when you begin to wonder whether people really mean it when they say they love you.
I think this kind of loneliness can only be solved by looking deep inside and trusting yourself to be who you think you are. To have conviction that you are kind, and compassionate, and imperfect, but good. And to know that you are loveable because of these things.
This country claims to be democratic but 9 unelected people who's values and opinions formed decades prior, who can get into this position without strong or even any valid credentials, can decide to negatively impact or even destroy millions of lives and they cannot be held accountable for it. They can't be impeached or voted out. It's only the most convoluted combination of election-year voting, voter suppression/lack thereof, and idk fucking cowardice from both sides that got any of them to where they are now. 9 people who are cemented in their beliefs and then use the law and constitution to justify their moral opinions that they insist don't influence their rulings at all. We can't vote then out. We just have to hope they retire or die under the presidency of someone who doesn't want to actively kill everything, and eve then we have to contend with any given republican or spineless Democrat in the Senate.
And even then, we cannot get rid of them. Nine people make decisions for 300+ million, affecting their ability to defend themselves, to live peacefully, to lead healthy and happy and safe lives. Nine people can ruin lives for decades to come.
Nine people. Nine. People.
Yoooo bruh do you have any fic recs?? I saw you recommend and when im feeling alone you remind me of home by mooosicaldreamz and it has been one of my fave since.
welp. brace urself.
you prolly know this but anything and everything by ms. @searidings and ms. @coffeeshib cos come on, man. what more could u want? but special mention to "i'll take the desert, you take the coast" (cos i think its very underrated but i love this fic so damn much, so. there.) and to "is it gravity (or are we falling in love?)" YES U WERE FALLIN IN LOVE, U GODDAMN IDIOTS. TF DOES GRAVITY GOT TO DO WITH IT? anon that will be u screaming that after u've read a couple chapters.
forever girl by @theevangelion (which i feel like you've already also read. but ya know u can read it again and we can ugly sob about it together. I MEAN ITS A FIC RIGHT? IT SHOULDNT BE THAT DEVASTATING. but oh it is. oh it really really really is.)
this one series by @rainaftersnowplease called "doctor lawyer beggar man thief" (it's a college au that i also think is so very underrated. but its so so so great and most of their other au's are also very lovely so check 'em out)
and since we're on the topic of college au's, here have another one: "Lena Luthor: hot girl bummer" by @/Rouser on ao3 (this one is an on-going fic. BUT MYGOD IT'S STILL SO GOOD. ITS AN ENEMIES WITH BENEFITS SITUATION. its a gift from god.)
oh and my favorite au thus far, "Accidentally Till It's Not" by @indathreneblue (IT'S SO WONDERFULLY WRITTEN, AND KARA IS SUCH A SIMP BUT WE LOVE HER FOR IT.)
im also gonna go ahead and insert "fire meet gasoline" by @stennnn06 (cos rojarias and look i know this isnt a supercorp fic BUT STILL. i urge u. GIVE. IT. A. SHOT.)
and if youre in the mood for the slowest slow burn of slow burns: "A Rich Girl With Issues...Lots of Issues" by @inkedroplets (theyre gonna kiss soon i can feel it.)
oh and another favorite of mine: "take flight" by @fixyfics (its just such a joy to read) and check out their other fic too: "she's cursed"
hey anon all of this are pretty much au so whats one more right?
"Until Time is Undone" by @lena-in-a-red-dress (i read all 15 chapters of this at like 3 am in the morning and it was so damn worth losing sleep over. im not big on fantasy or medieval au's but this. oh this was an exception.)
so uh yeah...there's prolly a shit ton of other fics that i forgot to add here but that's it for now. hope u were satisfied with that anon! happy reading!
“I’m home.”
in honor of supercorp canon in brazil
this gif