viv also talked about going through panic attacks and/or depression for years in a dutch magazine. she said club’s psychologist helped a lot esp this season & shes ok now.
https://miedema-evans.tumblr.com/post/686438002639224832/vivianne-miedema-helden-magazine
“I was always the first to walk away from sessions with a psychologist at the Dutch national team. Always said: I don’t believe in this. In fact, when I heard the word 'psychologist’, I thought: I’ll stay away from you. When I arrived at Arsenal, a new psychologist had just started with whom I also didn’t click. After six months a new woman came, I had a good feeling about that. That was a first step. Still, it took me a year to admit: I think I might need you after all…
Thanks to that psychologist I was able to process things from my life, both football and private related. I used to shut myself off from feelings, I didn’t have time for them, wanted to keep going. That came out in different ways. At the 2015 World Cup in Canada, I was under a lot of stress and suffered from migraines. In those few weeks I lost six kilos. After the European Championship in 2017, I suffered from panic attacks. On the football field, when I was at home, wherever. If it was a severe attack, I had trouble breathing. After a panic attack, I couldn’t do anything for three days, then I lay flat on the couch, and I had to regularly skip football practice. But most of the time it happened just when we had some time off. Even if I had the feeling that my body was no longer cooperating or was very tired, I could panic.
It’s good that I bumped into that wall and started talking about my feelings. It’s not that I’ll never have panic attacks or feel anxious again. I still feel bad when I have to get on the tube to central London. Underground, really hot, way too many people… I really think: what am I doing here? But what do you want, I come from Hoogeveen. I had never been on a bus before, now I have to go underground…
When I also have a hard time, it is when suddenly the whole planning is thrown upside down. We get our schedule on Monday. If that suddenly changes on Thursday, then I think it’s terrible and I have to calm myself down. In the meantime I have learned to deal better with these types of panic attacks. It will never go away completely, but if I have an attack now, I can function for the rest of the day.
Last month I had my last session with the psychologist. If there is one thing I should be proud of in my life, it is the journey that I have embarked on with her. For the first time in my career I was able to be more myself at Arsenal this year. My teammates didn’t know what had hit them. They get to know me better, because I’m open. I am understood. They see: Viv is not as gruff and closed as she seems. And that’s up to me, you know, that they’re only seeing that now. I have never opened up to others. When I’m on the football field, I’m tough, I can be a bitch. Off the pitch I’m one of the biggest softies out there, I cry regularly, I’m an emotional person and I’m not ashamed of that.
I am now open about it and try to be the same with the younger girls in the Dutch national team. I know better than anyone what it’s like to break through and deal with pressure. I can help them with that. I regularly check with them to see how things are going and they know that I am there for them. This journey with my psychologist has been more important to me than any prize.” (2021)
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I don't think we talk enough about Amari's live the night Lebron broke the record. Azzi was very demanding and Paige gave in everytime. The looks between Ice, Ines and Amari something was definitely going down and then Amari moving to block the side of the bed completely.
I know we love the other live 😉 but this live is my Roman Empire.
She told them to shut up and they listened, she told Paige she wanted to play a game and she did. Our girl really is a princess, whatever she wants she gets!
damn paige is so lucky
All jokes aside, I think it's pretty incredible how they still have such hearteyes for each other after that many years
i think thats my favorite part of it all, how they genuinely seem to be crazy in love with eachother like some soulmate shit .. as cheesy as it sounds .. i just love love, ok? lol they give me hope
“Your vitals are back,” Alex sweeps into the MedBay, black leather boots scuffing the shiny floors. She shifts her weight to the side, a stack of files balanced in one hand. “Everything seems fine.”
“Phew,” Kara says out loud, kicking her feet back and forth on one of the gurneys under a solar array. “No infections? No cancer? No blood-eating fungi?”
“Nope,” Alex pops the ‘p.’ “It still bothers me, though. The pollen spray was obviously a defensive measure, and in one of the interrogation rooms no less. It doesn’t make sense that it wouldn’t do anything.”
Alex bites at her pen cap, quickly thumbing through the thick file one more time.
“Maybe I’m resistant,” Kara shrugs. “At least everyone’s not clawing to have sex with me.”
Alex’s eyes lance up from the file.
Wait.
Did Kara just say that out loud?
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(through gritted teeth) i love being out of my comfort zone it is necessary for my personal development
If I were a USWNT player, I’d be pissed and feel so disrespected and belittled. The coach saying the game plan was to settle for a draw? And to even admit that is embarrassing.
Like you’re the number one team in the world and you’re telling these players to settle for a draw? That’s just not it dude. I really can’t see you being around here long if that’s how it’s gonna be.
If it’s a great game and you lose, I wouldn’t be happy, but anything is better than this shit show waste of my time.
Please explain warrior nun to me. I wasn’t interested at first but you make it seem so cool I want to learn :)
I WILL explain it to you. Saddle up because I'm prepared to ramble. There will be spoilers. If you'd like another summary w/o spoilers, let me know!
First: our main character, Ava Silva. At the start of the show, she's a paraplegic and orphaned 19 year-old girl who is, quite literally, dead in the first scene. She is snarky, a little clueless but not innocent, and most importantly, she wants more than anything to live.
This is Sister Beatrice!!! She's the love interest, technically, but she's not the only one (just more of an important character than the other), and she's also so much more than that. She is a prodigious warrior who fights for the OCS; The Order of the Cruciform Sword, which is a sect of Catholic nuns that fight demons for the good of the people. She is good at everything with the exception of Not Being Gay, which is, incidentally, the reason she was sent to a Catholic boarding school in the first place. Suffice to say, her parents suck.
There's also a wide cast of incredible characters; we have (from right to left) Mary, who is The Coolest and also, somehow, more of an older sister figure than the actual sisters; Lilith, who's a bit of a bitch but we still love her, Father Vincent, who's also a bit of a bitch but we tolerate him, and then on the far left, there's Camila, who is simultaneously the Cutest and also the Smartest. (also not pictured here is Mother Superion, whom we also love.)
This show has so many good women characters. You will become obsessed with at least one of them. At least.
Essentially, Warrior Nun's plot depends on the use of the Halo, which is a literal Angel's Halo (or is it?) that fuses itself to the spine of one special nun, the Warrior Nun, who is then given the ability to see demons and also other various superpowers. However, because of its immense power, demons and other forces are constantly trying to seize the Halo for themselves, and due to a tragic series of events, a panicked nun has to give Ava the Halo.
Ava, who is dead at the time.
And it brings her back to life. Not only that, but it gives her the ability to walk for the first time since she was, like, four years old. Also, it gives her superpowers, too, but whatever.
So basically, Warrior Nun is about Ava trying to balance her will to live her life now alongside with the new duties that the OCS are trying to put on her. They can't take the Halo out, because it may kill her. Something something jesus parallels, something something taking the time to have the characters work things out for themselves, and you get this show. I cannot emphasize enough the character writing.
(Also it has one of the best sapphic slowburns I've seen in a show ever. They hit so many good tropes in such a well-paced manner. I can't even describe how well they're written. What the fuck.)
So. Watch Warrior Nun. We need a season 3!!