All Of The Artwork I’ve Illustrated Inspired By The Last Of Us. I’m Not Ready For The Finale.

I can hear the disappointment I'm crying. This gave me a good laugh. I'm going with emma as the funnier one 😂😂

ok so if she's talking in her sleep I'm gonna infer that y'all cryptic Christen and Tobin peeps got something going on. it's okay I respect that imma just live happy knowing my heart that y'all are together. I just wanna know who's the introvert and who's this extrovert?

It’s really not hard to hear Emma sleep talking when I’m sleeping in the top bunk bed 🙄

As for introvert or extrovert, we kind of both play both roles. Emma’s very charismatic and great in social situations. I’m maybe a little quieter but am definitely the funnier one 😂 We both need time to recharge at home after lots of socializing though

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Okk First of all I love almost all of your fics. They all feel very cathartic in the end like sweet sweet payoff even when the beginning are sometimes too heartbreaking. So thanku for writing those angst with happy ending.

Now I wanna ask which is your all time favorite fic that you feel got the characterization of kara and lena closest to the show, since you have no bookmarks . Also which fic is that you go back to most often from time to time.

godddd asking me to pick one of anything is an extremely tall order, the best i can do for you is a handful:

people will say we’re in love by @takethegrasskara is the best exploration of kara’s character i’ve ever seen

i need you to pencil in the rest by @mooosicaldreamz is probably my favourite characterisation of lena post-reveal

and then truce by @itllsetyoufree, would you forget me? (do i know you?) by @hrwinter and the love of forgetting by kl_morgan are probably my favourites in terms of story and all-round canon-ish characterisation, and all of these are fics i’ve read multiple times!

I’ve been thinking about The Half Of It all weekend (the trailer of which just started randomly playing when I logged into Netflix on Friday and I was curious enough to give it a shot and have no regrets) and when I was gushing to my brother about it earlier, I realized why I love it so much:

See, setting up the whole “nerdy girl helps jock boy get popular girl” cliche and then throwing in the twist that “nerdy girl loves popular girl too” is fantastic, every part of the queer storyline was beautiful, the opening monologue and how it was a direct parallel to the water scene, the painting metaphors, the jean jacket, the cliche religious hick small-town that could have been mine, the fact that they literally showed a mountain and prompted me to spend a whole day making a Landslide AMV (cough), the secret looks they give each other throughout the movie, that final kiss and the promise of something more in the future, all wonderful, beautiful, NEEDED…

But none of that compares to the amazing love story that happened between Paul and Ellie. These two going from being rivals to being tentative friends to having a genuine love for each other that confuses Paul because he’s a teenager in a small-town and, let’s face it, he probably only learned “you either feel a casual friendship with this person or you feel horny af” because that’s the binary they teach in these small town high schools, so it makes sense that he looks all sorts of confused when he realizes how much he likes her, and you can tell that he’s still confused, even as he goes to kiss her, then she immediately pushes him away which adds to even more confusion, then he realizes that she’s queer, which goes against every bit of small-town-religious-hick lesson that he had ever learned. So, he lashes out at her and he runs away and I do wish he had been supportive all along but then we wouldn’t get the scene in the kitchen so it was honestly worth it because…

The scene in the kitchen. When Ellie’s father is reminiscing about his own familial love towards his daughter and he asks, “Have you ever loved someone so much you don’t want anything about her to change?” and you just see Paul’s reaction, just look at this:

That is someone who just realized what platonic love is!

Not only that, he realized that his platonic love for Ellie is so strong that he is willing to accept her, no matter what, and help her, no matter what, and love her, no matter what. Not a romantic love, not a familial love, but a pure, genuine, deep, platonic love between a boy and a girl! WHAT A CONCEPT!

Then, of course, he stands up for her, literally, in church. He does so without outing her and, just a note, he never outs her to her father, even when her father begs him to say why Ellie is so upset, Paul never outs her and I know, I know, people shouldn’t usually get props for not being jerks, but seeing as how every other guy in that school is that stereotypical hick/jock, the fact that he’s able to subconsciously keep her secret shows how deep his love is, even when he doesn’t even realize it.

Then, of course, you have him crying on the platform and chasing the train to show her how much he loves her, to make her laugh and cry and whisper, “Moron!” and you know that, whatever the future holds for Ellie and Aster, that’s nothing compared to the love and support that Ellie will always get from Paul and that’s nothing compared to the love and support I have for this movie, it’s so good, you need to watch it…

Thank you Vlatko for personally making sure that anyone with Jill Ellis trauma is now once again freaking out for no reason.

what do you do when you're lonely?

It depends. There are different kinds of lonely, aren’t there?

There’s the quiet kind. It’s almost light. It’s the soft realisation that nobody has understood you for quite a while - in fact, you’re not really sure when you last felt understood. It settles around you like a blanket and you let it. It’s a return to familiarity.

When I feel like this, I go for a walk, or write a poem, and think a lot. Usually, I realise that it is an impossible task to expect anybody to understand me completely but I am understandable in fragments to different people at different times and that is okay. The most important thing is that I understand myself.

There is the specific kind. When you feel isolated or left out or unloved by a particular person or group of people. When you don’t understand why. When you feel that there must be something wrong with you, something different or awkward that makes you difficult to love. It’s heavy and shameful.

When I feel like this, I think about my perceived differences and realise that I have people in my life who are grateful for them. I think about whether I am truly being excluded or whether I’ve just interpreted a situation in that way because of my defense mechanisms. And I talk to my loved ones because everybody needs a reminder that they’re loveable from time to time.

Finally, there is a violent kind of lonely. It is desperate. Chronic. Hopeless. For me, it accompanies a period of being continuously misunderstood. Being called selfish when you were trying to be selfless. Being called cruel when you thought you were acting out of kindness. Being called defensive when you were trying to communicate. Being told you didn’t care when you know you did. It isolates you from everyone, even you from yourself. This is when you begin to wonder whether people really mean it when they say they love you.

I think this kind of loneliness can only be solved by looking deep inside and trusting yourself to be who you think you are. To have conviction that you are kind, and compassionate, and imperfect, but good. And to know that you are loveable because of these things.

Florence Pugh asYelena Belovain Black Widow (2021)  Director Cate Shortland

TW: Pedophilia

Teenagers are rarely taught the reason why they can't consent to sex with adults.

And that's because teaching them that would completely unravel our coercion-based society.

It can be difficult to explain in detail the exact reason and all the specifics in a way that they will understand. But the simplest way to phrase it is that in some cases, even when someone agrees to something and even when they appear enthusiastic about it, there's too much of a power imbalance that it's no different than forcing them. Also, having power and being abusive doesn't require a conscious expectation to be obeyed.

Imagine a world in which every teenager understood that and was easily able to call out anyone who tried to convince them otherwise.

They'd know that there's no such thing as an employee consenting to working for a poverty wage, working in unsafe conditions, working long hours, or working without taking breaks. They'd know that there's no such thing as consenting to paying a bank overdraft fee. They'd know that there's no such thing as consenting to student loan debt. They'd know that there's no such thing as consenting to medical bills. They'd know that there's no such thing as consenting to generating profit for banks or landlords in order to have a place to live and being evicted or foreclosed when you lose your source of income. They'd know that there's no such thing as consenting to a police search. They'd know that there's no such thing as a child who's okay with their parents spanking them. They'd know that being dependent on someone does not mean that you can never criticize them. They'd know that if it's considered abusive to simply play along when someone obeys, then it has to be much more abusive to actively expect to be obeyed, which many adults do to them.

And people who benefit from a society based on coercion masquerading as freedom wouldn't like that.

So instead, teenagers are taught something dismissive. They're taught that what they want doesn't matter. They're taught that they're too young to know what love is. They're taught "it's the law". They're taught things that are insulting to their intelligence, which they'll naturally rebel against.

Yoooo bruh do you have any fic recs?? I saw you recommend and when im feeling alone you remind me of home by mooosicaldreamz and it has been one of my fave since.

welp. brace urself.

you prolly know this but anything and everything by ms. @searidings and ms. @coffeeshib cos come on, man. what more could u want? but special mention to "i'll take the desert, you take the coast" (cos i think its very underrated but i love this fic so damn much, so. there.) and to "is it gravity (or are we falling in love?)" YES U WERE FALLIN IN LOVE, U GODDAMN IDIOTS. TF DOES GRAVITY GOT TO DO WITH IT? anon that will be u screaming that after u've read a couple chapters.

forever girl by @theevangelion (which i feel like you've already also read. but ya know u can read it again and we can ugly sob about it together. I MEAN ITS A FIC RIGHT? IT SHOULDNT BE THAT DEVASTATING. but oh it is. oh it really really really is.)

this one series by @rainaftersnowplease called "doctor lawyer beggar man thief" (it's a college au that i also think is so very underrated. but its so so so great and most of their other au's are also very lovely so check 'em out)

and since we're on the topic of college au's, here have another one: "Lena Luthor: hot girl bummer" by @/Rouser on ao3 (this one is an on-going fic. BUT MYGOD IT'S STILL SO GOOD. ITS AN ENEMIES WITH BENEFITS SITUATION. its a gift from god.)

oh and my favorite au thus far, "Accidentally Till It's Not" by @indathreneblue (IT'S SO WONDERFULLY WRITTEN, AND KARA IS SUCH A SIMP BUT WE LOVE HER FOR IT.)

im also gonna go ahead and insert "fire meet gasoline" by @stennnn06 (cos rojarias and look i know this isnt a supercorp fic BUT STILL. i urge u. GIVE. IT. A. SHOT.)

and if youre in the mood for the slowest slow burn of slow burns: "A Rich Girl With Issues...Lots of Issues" by @inkedroplets (theyre gonna kiss soon i can feel it.)

oh and another favorite of mine: "take flight" by @fixyfics (its just such a joy to read) and check out their other fic too: "she's cursed"

hey anon all of this are pretty much au so whats one more right?

"Until Time is Undone" by @lena-in-a-red-dress (i read all 15 chapters of this at like 3 am in the morning and it was so damn worth losing sleep over. im not big on fantasy or medieval au's but this. oh this was an exception.)

so uh yeah...there's prolly a shit ton of other fics that i forgot to add here but that's it for now. hope u were satisfied with that anon! happy reading!

I'm watching Project Runway, and I'm having visions of Kara being one of the top designers, who keeps winning challenges for the sole purpose of being able to choose her model for the next challenge. She repeatedly chooses the same model, over and over. That model being Lena.

It's no secret-- in the interstitial interviews Kara blatantly declares that there's no way she's going to let anyone else choose Lena.

Lena is a competition staple, appearing across multiple seasons, and having the highest ratio of top looks across designers. Like, it becomes a running joke that whoever gets Lena as a model is practically guaranteed a top look, and if you end up on the bottom with Lena as your model you fucking DESERVE to be there, because you already had a leg up and you freaking blew it.

So the first time Kara gets Lena as her model, she knows she has to bring her best work. And she does. Again and again, for the express purpose of being able to choose her model for the next challenge. And the one time she slips and ends up as a top look but not the winner, Lena is selected by someone else. During that challenge apart, the b-roll footage catches Kara being distracted by and staring at Lena as she works with a different designer. But Kara still manages to pull it out and when she wins the challenge she leans forward and catches Lena eye with a wink. "I'll see you next time."

They lowkey become a hot topic of fan reaction, like are they or aren't they??? No one even knows if either of them are queer, but after Kara wins the competition she gets super big in the industry and her pieces are seen everywhere, but she and Lena are still seen out and about totether, making people wonder if they're friends or something more. Kara goes to all of Lena's shows to see her walk, and they often collaborate, so a lot of times Lena walks for Kara's collections. But everyone keeps wondering, until the day Kara wins some prestigious fashion honor and thanks her wife Lena in her speech.

Then the entire fashion world explodes in excitement.