What Have I Done?

I might be stupid and angry and cruel and mean and an absolute idiot, but i care, i really do.

I was barely thinking during any of what I did. I’m not sure if I was even actually happy.

Sometimes I wish you were able to stay that night.

And sometimes I wish I had said something sooner.

tumblr is like heaven for those who belong in hell

i would’ve given you some food if i knew you didn’t have enough. i always have extra

i wouldn't have taken it. ive already taken enough from you.

i appreciate you wanting to help me but i encourage you to wait until you think i've gotten better to try helping.

theres no use in trying to help me if you don't think im changing

im sorry i couldnt face you at all today

maybe if D paid attention to ANYTHING i've said, she would know that im not interested in her

You've done enough damage, D. Leave my life once again

How ironic is this... I'm telling her everything. I guess one of my friends will always end up being an angel. Somehow they always find me. I don't know why. She's my guardian angel now. Thank you "D"

I'll rephrase it. Don't keep me around if it won't genuinely make you happy

I can promise you that I'll do literally anything to prove I've made improvement.

hii :D what are you up to?!

nothing really right now!

I was about to go and bed rot because I have nothing else to do but I think I'll exercise before that :D

someday, everything is going to turn out okay. you'll wake up with no blisters, no bruises, no scratches. you'll go about your day like normal, surrounded by people who care for you. you'll laugh and joke with them like you always have, and it will be easy to forget the hard times you had before.

it's all going to be okay.

stay safe.

thank you so much. there's so much going on that i don't even put in my blog but words like these make me feel cared about. I know there are people supporting me out there more then ever right now. Thank you for your kind words.

I can do better to stay out of sight. Would that be good?

Even they told me “You are just naturally good at disappearing”

I can do that again. I can disappear.