IT'S THEIR DAY

siiiighhhh I wish my bunnies would stop peeing on the floor. I have to wash their towels and mop the floor daily multiple times it's.... not good and it smells bad

I have like 15 towels but at least 5 are always laid out

they also have like 4 big litter boxes which they don't use that much. not sure how to combat this as before I always managed to get my bunnies to be litter box trained but with these guys... I'm gonna lose my mind. one of them still swings his ass to spread piss as well. I'm so tired please can spring fever be over soon

[HEY THIS IS STILL A WIP LOL]

I'm also a Cult of the Lamb enjoyer- HEH

Codex Seraphinianus, 1976-1978

‘The Codex Seraphinianus is a book written and illustrated by Italian artist, architect and industrial designer Luigi Serafini, from 1976 to 1978. The book appears to be a visual encyclopedia of an unknown world, written in one of its languages, an alphabetic writing intended to be meaningless.’

- Wikipedia

source

even cult leaders need a break 🎣

Bitches love reblogging this post every Tuesday the 18th

Living The Dream

I was testing out some cloud brushes I made in Photoshop last night and went little crazy with them. Each drawing was done under an hour. I will be making a tutorial plus download to the brushes after I finish the next Fisheye Placebo strip :)

bruh twitch emotes pmo so bad. you follow every tutorial and trick there is just for the emotes to be blurry. the animated ones are so much worse. why? how? how do others get them to be so smooth with the same fucking tutorial?! and what's with the bigass prestige vibe bigsass drawings people keep posting whenever they get a new emote?? is that a thing now?? I hate this I can't believe I offered commissions for emotes just a year ago. like it genuinely makes me so angry I might burst an artery

I just wanna go back and refund everybody that bought a commission off of me, like honestly. best I can do is a PNG for an avatar. I'm seeing stars how is this supposed to work!!!!!!!!!! is it just always supposed to be a little blurry oe what!!!!!!!!!!!

going by pure logic and all that I know after using the fucking computer and several art programs the last 15 years is that there is no way you can get a 112 x 112px image to look smooth in any way. are the tutorial people just gaslighting or is this some kind of unspoken garbage. like I thought I was moving within my own community how is communication still made to be so fucking mysterious!!! bro I can't do this. I'm gonna pass out. I can feel my heart beating in my fucking eyes. art was supposed to be my thing and I crumble at the godforsaken technicalities that seem sooooo simple but I just cannot get right. actually shit like this happens a lot with other things as well. I'll get the basics down but the part of completion always gets fucked up. how? why? what is so different about the way I do things?? How is the turnout so different even when I followed instructions to a T???????????? I can't do this. fuck this.

my boyfriend is in the hospital because there's something wrong with his heart

everything around me keeps getting fatally sick

my mom, my bunny, my cat. now my boyfriend

all I can think of is how no matter how hard we work on this and how much we plan to be there for him it will definitely all lead up to him dying anyways.

scared, suffering, in pain. unable to understand how there is nothing more that can be done and that this is definitely their end. and everytime I'm there to watch in agony, because how am I supposed to go on without them in my life

I'm going insane. My life is one big, cruel joke.

there's no way I'll survive if he dies. I simply can't Whatever is going on and whoever is responsible for this, take me instead. This is unbearable.