💀 Zipping From Wow I Can’t For Shit I’m So Sad Abt It All Look At This And Hey Okay It Wasnt Actually

hehehe i’m soooo happy feel like i’m IMPROVED AND CRACKING DOWN AT THIS DRAWING FIGURES SHIT! !!! i feel like i’m more consistent with it too and ahhhh that makes me happy. so like i feel like i started to run into this trap of drawing in simplified ways of just drawing all of the body in one go and the problem with this is well. the fact that i get the proportions wrong and it becomes flat, since the simplified way was like. flat drawing of the torso and i thought my problem for a while was trying to get the portions and also kinda realised my drawings were becoming flat. but i didnt want to go back to drawing in ribcage etc since it was like so. much more steps and hahaha i just! terrible! but i did get some enlightment between these moments where i felt like my understandings and shit were getting better.

i also realised drawing circles helped instide the flat simplificiation helped but anyways it was until today i figured way. and its honestly less figured out and more like things clicked into place. recently, ive been wanting to not zoomed into the canvas since i realised that it becomes small that. and i think overall picture from zoomed place will help wih spacial stuff and i have been using more pen like brushes so like i can focus on my line and stuff. anyways i didnt think that today i would be doodling, i did want to but eh it wasnt something i just wanted to do. and since i didnt wanan force it i just let it be… until heheh i got the urge to draw today <333 and so! i got the pen and went to cracking it. picked a art pose ref and got to it: and this session i wanted to take it slow. its something i also realised about me self. like i sometimes go to fast with sketching stuff, that really, its better to just sometiems SLOW THE F DOWN. ahaha.

and also this time, i wanted to better draw in head. then just circle. and after that, its time to block in body: i leave out the next, and since ive drawn in head more properly i didnt feel like using the simplied body thing or whatever i do. and just did like line for the shoulder and from then, tried to block in the pelvis/crotch era with line and i think its where it clicked. this method of constructing body from line portions and sometimes full boxes/squares. so i can get my portions right and i can have more freedom with it all and i think this all worked out before i did diff things across my journey: like when i really wanted to get better at drawing the chest but was having struggle with it all since when i drew torso first, it just wasnt workig so then i tried to draw collarbone and then chest right after. it also helped with not drawing the chest further up then it supposed to be. also when i was having struggle with where the crouch started/where belly botton was and did this kind of instintcive portion thing where i would go to ref and from chest go to naval to crouch and see that for me, i would do it a little more up than it should do. it was the same for knees, so i would do that. and those times where i thought drawing the arms first was helpful, it was and still is sometimes in some poses. and also that one video i watched that while the exact method isnt for me, the way was helpful while trying to understand n draw arm start/deltiod/shoulder. and thise videos that did pose from other view to help better explain really helped today when i was trying to break down this lying pose since ahaha i havent really hacked on those and theyre hard! but wow did i get better understanding from trying to draw in side view. anyways man it just made me feel/realise all those steps i had and stuff and when id go through OMG I FOUND THE WAY TO DRAW THE ART and even those some early poses that looked good and then became bad but it wasnt. it was me jumping from different ways and different levels to GET TO HERE!

the ups and downs, worked out in so many ways….? im so happy….. it feels like /all/ of it is paying off mann… im so happy. like when i honestly did like/felt so easily frustated in the begining and realised well. problem was that was that i was approaching the studies with such realistic(?) kind of way that. dumbing/simpling shit down made me give up less….! and that time with me trying to study more seriously and doing humerous bone study and muscle…. and that i didnt end up continuing but i stilll rememebr what i learned. and i feel like it will help when i get back to studing arm.

like right now, my arm and legs and head study i really need to work on. even neck. lol the way i forget neck a lot ahaha. and also the doing from diff angles, the digure. also i do like as im doing this studies im also trying to get a feel for the gesture and how to make it less stiff. i feel like now, im getting more better understanding of everything and better direction and ahaha def now that i will fall into those downs again and frustation and feeling like its going bad again but at least now, its all be accumalting my better understanding. ahhhhh im so happy right now.

I do wanna continue for tmmr ^^ and hopefully draw more of the characters I want for my art goal and do try that smol simple comic idea I had…. that would help with background+comic prac but also I feel like it would be good to just take a day off. even if it might bad in long term. I just feel like taking a day off.

back to my okay i think i’m getting the hang of this

💀 zipping from wow i can’t for shit i’m so sad abt it all look at this and hey okay it wasnt actually so bad and hey it’s looking good and hey doing this constructing step step thing is kinda working out to getting motivated by vids and doing quick poses and oh wow i’m getting hang of it yay to lets goooo and back to wtf i can’t draw shit man i want to cryyyy

COMEBACK….!!!

did have a brief moment yesterday of crippling loss… I think was before yesterday not sure to check but MAN… THE GRIEF THAT HUT ME ABOUT ART… like you know when do art that’s Super Nice and Good and YOU FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSLER!!!! AND UR LIKE IM IMPROVING(TM) and you take a week break cuz hand and needed and come back and god. You CANT EVEN!!!! And it feels so like you have regressed so badly and then you do rush art figure prac and THATS SO BAD and you can’t even look at other art people’s art cuz it makes me you sad and then tho you look at ur recent art (thank me for continuedly to move stuff toup to recent so I can see what my recent art is like) ANYWAYS…..!!!!!! like oh. oh OH. it wasn’t necessary amazing first go but I do def remember it not being this frustrating and anyways it at least made me feel better. come today and hey you know what! I felt like art mood! but it wasn’t until I was hit with hey. oh my gosh. DRAW TURTLES AND MY GUY THAT AU?? OJAY!!!! and I was gonna. but then I saw my figure thing and was like what if. warm first cuz you know.

and you know!!!!! I really should do this warm up!!!! It felt much better than the other figure try.

I feel like. doing figure parc after coming out of trying to do a. drawing and it Not Going well and I feel like then I approach my figure parc as well… “seeing that im stilll good at art” but I think it’s more should be relearning and practising and learning etc and picking stuff up again since THATS NOTMAL! And past me wouldn’t be able to pick this up fast as I am now!!!! And ahahah yeah side views back spine it seems is like Being A Point I really need to observe and learn now cuz MY GOSH I need to. Also because MY GOSH I always draw so many side profiles and I need to save my self this grief……!!!!!

SIGHHHHHH today was certainly a day I guess. like it started off great…? I got sudden surge of wanting to improve and it was alright. liked the few figure stuff I did in the beginning…

—it started off STROVG!!! like look my first page of figures and the legs.,,. way better than I usually draw it. cuz I was paying special attention to them and was proud of it.,,

—I lol also did try to lmaooo do rib cage studies but gave up after a bit and the bit of the guy torso in the page was me following YouTube video. thee one I said that I found and was excited to follow in the future since it’s what I was looking for and welllll. I think I jumped the gun there. I do like the way they drew ribcage and the way their method of drawing felt like it was 3D but idk how to explain it when I followed it but like…? yeah idk how to explain but I do think I got something from it I guess.

—I also tried hands too but yeahhh my god hands r just too much. 😔 I need to practice them…….

—-and ehhhh the second page idk what happened but it felt like it wasn’t going well again but I did like the lil character interaction figures I did though so after a bit just gave up on that.

—-juv time!!!!!!!!! I wanted to draw her and so I did and that doodles of her face really and I do like how some of these turned out and I was just also seeing diff brushes and stuff…

—AND SO I WENT TO DRAW HER…. picked a ref that I thought would be perfect pose for her and that’s when things started to fall apart…. 😐

—I didn’t like it at all 😭😭😭like I just didn’t now what it was??? yeah I knew the pose was iffy but I think it had to do with her face or whatever and well as you can see I went back later to redraw it and lol I think I butchered the pose a bit again but anyways I think I got the face a little better? Since I kind of like it better but ehhhh still wasn’t satisfied also. I wasn’t sure as to what outfit to put her in either but just remembered this one cover where she wore that kind of outfit or similar from what I remember and just put her in that….

-anyways it did really bother me how i just couldn’t get her right so i did some more practices focusing on that… i was cooking something at the time and so ahaha i didn’t want to bring my iPad down and lol as you can see on the paper there’s stains of oil fjjfjfjfk. and honestly?! I don’t think im satisfied with this session at all… I mean some of them turned out great but ahhhh so annoyed I can’t reproduce it. i also tried changing her nose a bit here n there and mmmmh don’t know if I like it.

—well after that I just wanted to draw her to see if I got it and just to draw. and welllll. I certainly need to work on sittibg poses cuz wtf this was hard also ahaha I wanted to adjust the pose of ref so she’s leaning on her hand and lollll that was hard like I had a feeling of knowing what I was doing wrong but it was somehow hard to get it down?! I even in the end just took a pic of myself in the pose and tried to doodle it in but ahhhh still haven’t got the pose right but at least I think…? I got the gist of it. one big issue was I think the way her legs was that way that’s why it didn’t feel like she was leaning on her hand…. and I do kinda like how the top initial one turned out even if her pose doesn’t make sense. also man I really shouldn’t use this pencil for sketching in the lines… of pose… yeah I realised that a part of why I didn’t feel like I wasn’t getting her right is cuz I wasn’t using this brush. idk what it is but the roughness of it just seems perfect for her but problem is I can’t use it while doing poses since I have tendency to just scribble or to work over my lines and it’s a bad habit that I don’t like since it makes things harder, I feel like but also cba to go to the other brush… since I was just already using this one lol

—freaking heck…. This one…. alright man the pose the one that freaking drained me of everything ahahahah….. alright…. so I wanted to draw more and found this ref that I changed a bit… and my GOD was the hands so freaking hard to get. just look at my struggle below 💀

—honestly it’s a miracle that i managed that turned out actually good…?! im so surprised tbh that the end result wasn’t so bad… but also lololol i think i did have general idea for what the pose was meant to convey but lmao I didn’t do it in a way at all that conveyed it properly and it just doesn’t make sense now lololol. and man I do feel like not using that pencil brush here would have helped a lot more. also im proud of myself too, the way that yeah it was a struggle and annoying but it… didn’t feel so frustrating to point of quitting? more like wow after this I don’t want to do art for another 100 years. im. TIRED

—i mean yeah also I was sooo disspirited. like I thought I was lil better at this ahhhh. I feel like also I was getting lazy at drawing out structure for pelvis which is dangerous habit to fall on since it’s helps to reinforce what’s that and how the legs and whatever work… I think that’s what happened with my arms like I had general idea of what happens with arms/shoulders but because I just drew it out like whatever. yeahhhh things started to fall apart since I didn’t reinforce shit.

—and well yeah. after that I did draw in another juv but ahahah I was so exhausted by this point I just didn’t want to finish it or whatever and gave up on it lololol. exhausted!!!!

—I didn’t think that I would be doing any more art but I should know myself by now and yeah I did some general figure studies. but wow my heart wasn’t in it. also man…… the arms…… 😔😔😔

mannnn im getting slight urge to draw but refusing to give in 😤

The Empty House - part 4

-Part One

-Part Two

-Part Three

Holmes is quoting Dante's Inferno - there were so many good lines to choose from, but this one had a little bitchiness to it that felt character appropriate.

This is in the Watson's Sketchbook series!

ahhhh came across other peoples figure practices and im so jealous…. It looks so good….

but at the same time i know that my practice now isn’t like an effective method. if o wanted to get better… i should study forms of ribcage n pelvis and how they interaction in diff poses/angles and the forms of the muscles on them….. but at the same I really can’t be bothered with stuff like that so my skill level makes sense but ahhhhh its gets to me some times fjfjjfkdkdk. I feel like best way to motive me is to just draw character shit and be like fckkkk if I want to draw this I have to be able to learn how to…… but also drawing character shit is takes Effort and I can’t be bothered either right now…. But to give myself credit I did a lot of character drawings (okay it was two recently but i also did a lot of stuff last month!!! so!!!!) im actually doing a lot 😌

and I DID get better!!!!!!!!!! like two months ago…. I couldn’t do shit…. as I can now 😌

just stuff I have to consistently remind myself when I get depressed about this stuff ahahaha

back to poses…<3

😐 man… a lot of recent art is highlighting on my weakness and there are Many. such as legs. mainly legs,.. side view…… profile face angle…. neck..,, arms…. arms again..,. (mainly drawing in arms.)….. for leg it’s really everything :/ man. and the problem is that I can’t be bothereddd to learn legs :/ I did do a more in depth study learning of muscles and shit …. and I think it deepened some level of understanding but not deep enough tbh…..