To Every Sharp Pain In My Heart Region : I Hope U R The 1 End Me

I have a boyfriend since a month now and I slept over at his place from Friday to Sunday and my parents were super mad because we only talked about staying from Friday to Saturday and I betrayed my family and chose his family instead. They also said that I have to move out, they will sell the house and go to Italy (that part was definitely exaggerated) but I don't think they were lying when they said I have to move out til Friday. Like bro. I am not able to move out like from what money lmao. I am so scared they will throw me out. They threatened to do that before and now they added that they threw out my stepbrother (he is 30 now) a few years ago I can't remember how old he was then. I just want to spend time with my bf because he makes me feel like there's nothing wrong. When I'm with him I don't have to think about how bad I want to d word and how shitty everything is and how shitty I feel all the time. When I'm with him everything bad is just gone. We don't know each other for that long so I'm not sure if it is because I'm not too comfortable with showing my emotions but I legit cried in front of him because of a movie (more than once actually) and I didn't feel bad for crying in front of him.

I can hear my parents talk in the living room and I am getting so nervous because I just assume that every time I hear them speak they are talking about me. I don't want to be home but I don't want to be anywhere else but my room. Why does everything always have to be so complicated

Holy god I was gone for a long time lmao. just cycling through addictions and ig obsession with insta and twitter is over for now xD

The people telling me to stop and that I don’t need to be skinny to be pretty, yeah theyre all thin. They’re all pretty.

So stfu. Stfu and worry when I look better than you.

being poor is traumatic. even if you’re not homeless or starving. never being able to get anything nice for yourself, never being able to go out to eat without feeling guilty, never being able to do anything fun that isn’t free, making you housebound in bad weather because you can’t afford to go to a cafe or a movie. it takes a toll. being poor under capitalism makes your life a waking nightmare. this post must be reblogged by everyone.

repeat after me:

even if i don’t like my body today i will take care of it

even if i don’t like myself today i will still be patient and kind with myself

even if i do not love myself i will still take care of and be kind to myself, despite not wanting to

how are people able to be skinny but still have boobs?

If you can't bear the thought of going through the rest of the week, take it a day at a time. Don't count how many days are left until the weekend. Make sure you make through this day. When you get home, make sure you take care of the body who carried you through the day, feed it, clean it, watch something that makes you feel happy and wholesome, then let your muscles slowly relax into your bed. Don't think about the next day - think that you are done with this one and be proud of yourself for doing so. And let go, slowly. Allow yourself to drift off. You've taken a big step today and now it is finally over. The future will come, yes, but your rest should come first so you can face it.

PSA

I think i speak for every ED blog when i say that even though i hate myself and my body - i do not think the same about any of my followers.

you could weigh 200lbs more than me and i still would not think you’re ugly, MY body dysmorphia and MY ED does not extend to you

this!!!

hey babes quick reminder that EVERY SINGLE thinspo or body check image you see on here is either insanely flexed and posed to look as good as possible, or edited. don't compare your relaxed body to a completely different person flexing and posing.

i say this, scrolling through thinspo anyway