Neil’s Too Preoccupied With Analyzing Other People’s Emotions To Care About His Own. Like His Feelings

Since my recent post about demi Neil erasure has gotten much more traction than I thought it would, here's a small post about how it feels and felt to realize I was demi because of Neil and then subsequently see tons of people disregard it.

(this isn't a call out or discourse post, just some personal stuff I'm airing out to hopefully help this stop happening)

It was kind of a big moment for me when I realized that like, Neil's thoughts on romance/relationships throughout the books wasn't just someone finally getting it right but someone writing from an ace spec perspective.

So seeing people (and literal friends of mine) say, "Well he is basically gay because he's dating Andrew," or any similar phrase hurts. On top of all the internalized shit I still have to work through seeing that sets me back so far. There is literally no justification for it. He is demi, it is not just a widely accepted headcanon. It's a confirmed canon fact, and he and very importantly every demi and ace spec person in this fandom deserve to have it treated as such. It erases such an important part of his character and the plot of the books. It erases his emotional bond with Andrew.

We rarely get ace spec rep in novels, and to finally have a demi character and see it taken away by people in this fandom because it's 'just easier to call him gay' really fucking sucks.

TL;DR: Neil is demi, he isn't 'basically gay'. It isn't 'easier' to call him gay either. If you want to get into semantics it's one extra letter to type. Calling him anything but demi hurts demi fans more than you may realize, and I hope this helped at least one person understand that.

wymack: sign with my team

neil: strANGER DANGER STRANGER DANGER

hc that neil knows how to braid hair bc of life on the run w his mom, but robin never learned (being kidnapped and all). so neil offers to braid her hair for her one day, when he notices her sloppy low ponytails and frustration. and eventually it becomes routine for her to find him before practices and games and they bond during their mini hairdressing sessions

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rules: tag 9 people you’d like to catch up with or know more about

Favourite colour: pale purple

Currently reading: unravel the dusk

Last song: Like the Dawn - The Oh Hellos

Last movie: Twilight (don’t @ me that movie is a vibe)

Last series completed (book): A Darker Shade of Magic by V. E. Schwab :)

Tea or coffee: tea 100%

Currently working on: uhh well i should be working on my jerejean fic bc i haven’t updated in ages HAHAH but currently i’m doing absolutely nothing

Tagging: @unholy-goddess @allforthegayys @cowpants147 @karmiky @levi-ackerham @play-exy-be-sexy @studiesshow-hoesmad @thisisnotourlasthunt @verdiris (if you lovelies want to) and anyone else that wants to!

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neil. buddy. my guy. you got through christmas at evermore with riko moriyama, but concerned teammates are what you can’t survive. sir, wtf

(the king’s men, pg. 16, ch. 1)

creed from the office would be neil in the future if he’d never signed with the foxes

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Thanks @archiveofourfoxes for the tag :)

Author name: twirlingflurry

Fandoms I write for: all for the game (and one harry potter marauders era)

Most Popular One Shot: Flowers Covered in Thorns by hits and kudos

Most Popular Multi-Chapter: The World Has Somehow Shifted (also the only multi-chapter i have posted so far)

Favourite Story I Wrote: Flowers Covered in Thorns because i spent the most editing this one and also i just loved the prompt and the scenes that i chose. most proud of this one for sure

Story I Was Nervous to Post: Rooftops and Mourning because it was the first aftg fic that i ever posted and i was anxious to see how it would be received

How Do I Pick My Titles: either it slaps me over the head and i think “perfect!!!” or i think of nothing for 2-3 business days and have to make a list and pick the one i hate the least

Do I Outline: HAHHA i wish i was that organized. i normally have a one sentence blurb to remind me of the vibe of the fic, and sometimes i’ll add bullet points of important things i don’t want to forget, but i rarely actually outline

How Many of My Stories are Complete: out of my published works, three of the four are complete

In Progress: four, but i only have solid plans to post one of them

Coming Soon: hopefully bubble bath andreil!!

Do I Accept Prompts: absolutely!! it might take me a bit to get to them, but prompts are definitely welcome

Upcoming Story I Am the Most Excited For: bubble bath andreil probably hahha

tagging: @unholy-goddess @lacuniaa @iamagentcoop @knox-knocks

Fanfic Tagging Game ;)

I was tagged by @fullyvisible. Thank you, this is probably the most fun I've had with a tagging game! 💜

Author name: JayJFox

Fandoms you write for: All for the game

Most popular one-shot: The Photo Strip Predicament (it's an untypically sweet of me high school AU in which the twins don't know each other yet. Aaron really really hates Neil and then a photo of them kissing circulates around the school. Spoiler alert: it's not Aaron in the pic. 😅

Most popular multi-chapter: Based on kudos: Was Sorta Hopin' That You'd Stay - enemies to lovers Andreil + neighbor prank wars, honestly, this is the funniest one I've written. Based on hits: North Star - post-break-up Andreil fic, lots of angst. Love me some angst. 🤷‍♀️

Favorite story you wrote: Uh, toughie... I got a few that I love equally but I'll pick the one I wrote for myself as a birthday gift, also it's my favorite ship: Like A Wildfire Burning Up Inside My Lungs. (KevJean 'And they were roommates' fic where Kevin asks Jeans to teach him how to flirt. Fun. 😅)

Story you were nervous to post: All of them? I'm always so eager to post but at the same time, I need a pep talk to myself before I hit the post button.

How do you pick your titles: Song lyrics mostly. 😅

Do you outline: Most of my fics have a very vague outline. For a couple of them, I did a more detailed one, though.

How many of your stories are complete:  Don't call me out like that! *staring at all my unfinished fics in AO3* 😂

In-progress: Oh gee... Okay. Fics: 5 partially posted, 1 brand new. Original stuff: 3 projects and even though this is my fanfic account, I'm probably gonna scream about it here if any of them gets a shot at publishing. JSYK. 🤷‍♀️😂

Coming Soon: Vigilante Neil / crime podcaster Andrew. Lots of angst again because of course.

Do you accept prompts: No one's ever asked me for one, but sure.

Upcoming story you are the most excited for: Well, apart from my partially posted ones, there's only one in the making soooo: Vigilante Neil / crime podcaster Andrew again.

Tag five fanfic authors to answer the questions: @knickknacksandallthat @mystrana @rapunzellex @paradoxolotl @rainbow-0bsidian if you want to play! Actually, anyone who wants to give it a shot! I'm curious! Loved this one a bunch!

i love that andreil didn’t try to hide their (“not-”)relationship from anyone, they just didn’t bother telling people. they didn’t try to deny their attraction or the fact that they’d been hooking up, and they didn’t panic when they were outed. their reaction was basically “yeah, and?”, and they they just went on with their lives and nothing changed. they’re so perfect for each other and it’s so pure and i can go on about this forever but

nicky buys andrew rainbow socks at pride one year as a joke and also as a futile attempt to bond. he forgets about them, but andrew often wears them under his black boots (especially when they go to eden’s) and no one knows about it. years later, at psu, nicky walks in on neil and andrew asleep on the couch. and there, peeking out from under blankets and neil’s legs, are the rainbow socks on andrew’s feet. nicky doesn’t take a picture because it feels too personal, but his heart soars at the sight and he cherishes this small victory

hold on, so the moment Neil says “do it” when Betsy’s trying to convince the everyone to have Andrew go off his medication, that’s the first time in the whole series he’s put someone/something before Exy, including himself *screams*

Doesn’t even consider for a second how that will affect the Exy season, just immediately does what he can to make it happen because he needs so badly for Andrew to be better or at least have a chance at being better, even when it might mean Neil loses out on the one thing he has been holding onto (insert Nicky’s speech about how Exy can’t love you back and you need someone to hold onto, this shows how Neil has been holding onto Andrew and how much that has changed his priorities).