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okay we can all agree that andrew likes to read, BUT it’s also a fact that he dog ears pages, ruins spines by leaving books lying open, shoves them in bags even if the pages get crumpled, and stains the books by eating messy foods while reading

hola me amiga, back again to ask: tilda minyard and her relationship to both of the twins. thoughts?

hello again! 

(cw: abusive parent-child relationship, tilda, twinyards’ pasts)

oh boy. tilda. she is one character that i just. hate. i don’t hate her for putting the twinyards into foster care. i don’t even hate her for only taking aaron back, bc while it’s heartbreaking all around... she couldn’t handle two kids, which is devastating but fair. not telling aaron about andrew was pretty shitty, but again, she couldn’t handle two and aaron would’ve wanted to reunite, so keeping him a secret was maybe what she thought was the least painful.

but god. i hate her so much. 

she was neglectful of aaron his whole childhood and made him feel like a burden. he still loved her, bc kids want to love their parents so desperately. and in return he was met with snarls and insults and silent hatred. the kind where a person can channel their hate as they’re washing dishes roughly or clenching they’re jaw while watching tv. the kind that festers around you and makes the entire environment stifling and toxic. 

and then andrew. i don’t think andrew had it in him any more to care that he was abandoned. the fact that tilda abandoned him and kept aaron may have stung slightly, but ultimately, he would’ve shoved that down as just another shitty thing in his shitty life and moved on. 

however. 

tilda started to become violent when higgins told them about andrew. she’d been abusive the whole time, but now it was physical as well. and there’s no way aaron didn’t associate that negativity with andrew, even only subconsciously, before he even met him. 

and then andrew was reunited, which tilda had tried to avoid all along. and andrew saw how abusive she was and told aaron he could take care of it, and he did. and aaron despised him for it. because he still loved his mom. because he was still so desperate for the love that came out in fractured fractions from time to time. 

tilda is, ultimately, why the twinyards have such a shitty relationship. she’s the reason aaron had such a shitty childhood. (i don’t think it’s 100% fair to blame all of andrew’s on her, because while she is why he’s there, she wasn’t the actual abuser for him. she doesn’t haunt his nightmares). 

tilda shattered the twinyards and did nothing to put them back together. and i will never forgive her for it. 

the foxes as taylor swift albums 

this post is dedicated to @unholy-goddess oddess (because i know she’ll love it, and because she helped me place a few foxes) and to @andrewssock (because i know they’ll hate it xoxo)

the first three are tentative but there’s more and more good proof the farther along you get, so just bear with me

1- debut: aaron

aaron gets debut mainly because of the longing-for-things-you-can’t-have and i’m-absolutely-in-love-with-you vibes, but also partly because of the slightly judgemental aspect of the album

lyrics that remind me of him: 

- i’m only me when i’m with you, from “i’m only me when i’m with you”

- and i don’t try to hide my tears/ my secrets or my deepest fears/ through it all nobody gets me like you do, from “i’m only me when i’m with you”

2- fearless: dan

first off, just because of the name of the album lmao. the love songs are also great for her and matt, discovering yourself and ending up better off than you were when you were a teenager, and the underlying theme of friendship, loyalty, and desperate love all fit dan. 

lyrics that remind me of her:

- don’t forget to look before you fall/ but i’ve found time can heal most anything/ and you just might find out who you’re supposed to be, from “fifteen”

- this love is difficult/ but it’s real, from love story

3- speak now: matt

he’s so in love with dan and that’s the driving reason behind this placement, but also the standing up for yourself bits are very fitting

lyrics that remind me of him: 

- you’re the kind of reckless that should send me running/ but i kinda know that i won’t get far, from “sparks fly”

- long live the walls we crashed through/ how the kingdom lights shine just for me and you, from “long live”

4- red: allison

my beloved. the whole reason i even thought of this post in the first place. i was listening to starlight and it fit so well and then i listened to the rest of the album (for the millionth time) and it all clicked into place for her. this one is very much about glamour (and its beauty and struggles), off-and-on-again relationships, and the highs and lows of being a (beautiful) young adult. allison vibes all around

lyrics that remind me of her: 

- the whole place was dressed to the nines/ and we were dancing, dancing/ like we’re made of starlight, from “starlight”

- and they still tell the legend of how you disappeared/ how you took the money and your dignity and got the hell out, from “lucky one” 

- the entirety of “i knew you were trouble” and “we are never ever getting back together”

5- reputation: andrew

i have no doubt in my mind that this is andrew’s album. for a second i did consider neil, but he actively avoided having a reputation whereas andrew’s is all people think of when they hear about him. also i think he’d appreciate the beat drops

lyrics that remind me of him:

- i don’t regret it one bit/ ‘cause he had it coming, from “i did something bad”

- maybe i got mine/ but you’ll all get yours, from “look what you made me do”

- for you i would cross the line and don’t blame me, love made me crazy/ if it doesn’t you ain’t doing it right, from “don’t blame me”

6- 1989: neil

debated this for about 2 seconds, at which point i remembered the song “i know places” exists. the overall album atmosphere of big cities and hiding and faded memories fits neil to a t. 

lyrics that remind me of him:

- they are the hunters, we are the foxes/ and we run/ baby, i know places we won’t be found and/ they’ll be chasing their tails trying to track us down, from “i know places”

- nothing lasts forever/ but this is gonna take me down, from “wildest dreams”

- but when the sun came up, i was looking at you, from “out of the woods”

7- lover: nicky

it’s an album about loving someone from abroad, with a mix of euphoric songs and hopeless songs and honestly i think this is just perfect for nicky. it was one of the easiest ones to place

lyrics that remind me of him: 

- i like shiny things but i’d marry you with paper rings, from “paper rings”

- have i known you twenty seconds or twenty years?, from “lover”

- something gave you the nerve/ to touch my hand/ it’s nice to have a friend, from “it’s nice to have a friend”

8- folklore: renee

literally listen to any song and you’ll know what i mean

lyrics that remind me of her:

- i just wanted you to know/ that this is me trying, from “this is me trying”

- only twenty minutes to sleep/ but you dream of some epiphany/ just one single glimpse of relief/ to make some sense of what you’ve seen, from “epiphany”

9- evermore: kevin

unholy-goddess and i both actually originally thought fearless for kevin, but some of the songs in evermore are just too perfect of a fit to ignore, so he gets my favourite album. what is most reminiscent of kevin in this album is the exhaustion and the discovery of one’s own worth. it’s best related to him if you listen to it thinking of him looking back on his time with the ravens. also it’s literally called evermore 

lyrics that remind me of him: 

- i know my love should be celebrated/ but you tolerate it, from “tolerate it”

- there’ll be happiness after you/ but there was happiness because of you too/ both of these things can be true/ there is happiness/ past the blood and bruise, from “happiness”

- tell me, when did your winning smile/ begin to look like a smirk?/ when did all our lessons start to look like weapons pointed at my deepest hurt, from “happiness”

- i don’t need your “closure”/ your “closure”/ don’t treat me like some situation that needs to be handled/ i’m fine with my spite/ and my tears/ and my beers and my candles, from “closure”

- and i fell from the pedestal/ right down the rabbit hole/ long story short, it was a bad time, from “long story short”

i honestly don’t think anyone besides heidi will get this far, but whoever is reading this, i truly do love and appreciate you <3

on the one hand, saying “make me” and refusing to kneel when tetsuji told him to is iconic. on the other hand, neil knew he’d be there for two more weeks and he still purposely antagonized him???? very in character but what the f u c k

what’s your mood on a scale of neil “i’m fine” josten to neil “you know, i get it” josten

i don’t think neil ever really let himself fully come to terms with and grieve for his mother’s death. he just kept running and couldn’t stop, and he didn’t really have time to think about it with everything that went on during his freshman year. plus like... he was constantly casually looking for blood under his nails?? like this boy needs some serious help oh man

imagine: neil resting his elbow on andrew’s shoulder every opportunity he gets just to flaunt his 3 extra inches of height

i have not sent an ask in SO LONG (sorry btw) but hi hello i can’t get medicated andrew out of my head and i need to know your thoughts on how sober andrew views/reconciles with the time he spent medicated

oh my gosh hello again!! i always love your asks <33

medicated andrew makes my heart ache. i think that andrew probably tries not to look back on that time - he can’t do anything to change the past, and i wouldn’t say that he’s made peace with it but he kind of,, accepts it? is resigned to it?

when he was on his meds, andrew couldn’t truly control what he was doing, and dwelling on that loss of control would do more harm than good. his choices and free will were stripped away, and he became a prisoner in his own mind. he might look back on that time with flashes of rage, but he’s pretty good at smothering his emotions, and i’d imagine he’d repress most memories associated with that time, because looking back would be unproductive and pointless

in the future, i could see him looking back on those years with some bitterness maybe, but i don’t think he’d really see the point. the past is the past for him, and he made no promises of revenge for the torture his meds put him through, so i’d imagine that he would generally just opt to completely ignore it. the only exception i could see to that would be in therapy sessions with bee when he was first taken off his meds to see how he was adjusting

andrew really said “if you’re afraid to die, you have no place on our court” and neil said “bet”

nicky: damn neil nice legs

neil: well every day is leg day when you’re running from your problems

nicky: