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The Very Best Cabenson FanFic there is

So I found this Fanfiction somehow when going down the rabbit hole of shipping Alex Cabot and Olivia Benson from "Law and Order: SVU" once again - and for me, it is THE Cabenson Fanfic. Nah, that's an understatement. It is such a beautifully written, touching, heartmelting story that I found myself reading it again and again. It's almost cathartic. The characters are just so well written and I love how their development both as individuals and as a couple is described in such a relatable, healthy way. This author really knows their stuff, folks!

Trigger warning for mentions of (past) sa, (internalized) homophobia and trauma/PTSD.

Title of Fic: "Stay"

Author:  elphiemolizbethbau

Fandom/Pairing: "Law and Order: SVU", Alex Cabot/Olivia Benson

Synopsis: Young, professionally scuessful ADA Alexandra Cabot feels herself drawn to Detective Olivia Benson. In a bad state, she one day surprisingly appears at Olivia's door and the two women slowly form a bond, their romantic feelings for each other growing stronger each day. But when they finally give in to their feelings, Liv soon finds Alex' erratic behavior quite puzzling and tries to get the younger woman to confide in her. Only when Alex reveals the horrific trauma she had to endure in her childhood and youth, the two women can truly start working at their relationship, with all the highs and lows, setbacks and challenges this involves.

Rating: M

adult life is crazy because you can be going through the most devastating and heartbreaking things while still having to go to work and do the laundry and grocery shopping

"Warm Milk" - a Rizzles Fanfic that has it ALL: intimacy • growth • romance • fluff • sexy times

Title of Fic: "Warm Milk"

Author: YoDrDeath

Fandom/Pairing: "Rizzoli & Isles", Maura Isles and Jane Rizzoli ("Rizzles")

TW: mentions of past abuse, r*pe, PTSD

Synopsis: This fic is based around season 1 & 2 and follows Jane and Maura on their journey from friends & co-workers to becoming a romantic couple. Jane Rizzoli was not only cruelly haunted by Hoyt, but also s*xually assaulted. Maura Isles wants to help the person who is becoming the best friend she's ever had, but she also can't deny her own attraction to Jane who is still suffering from nightmares, flashbacks and severe anxiety. When Maura gently suggests to aid Jane in the process of becoming more okay again with vulnerability - especially regarding sexual intimacy -, the detective is hesitant, maybe even appalled, at first. But she can't quite get Maura's idea out of her head and so, the two women find themselves in one of their bedroomes, talking about stuff Jane is scared of and Maura starts developing a plan to guide her dear friend. At first, all they do is talk. They talk about sexual encounters, about what Jane would like, what would feel good and why, it starts out harmless enough. But of course, their conversations turn a little more heated very soon, and then, slowly, the touching starts, too. And finally, both women realize that they want more which understandably is horribly frightening and confusing for Jane. But on the other hand, Maura is her safe place. She trusts the medical examiner more and more, she finds herself aching for her presence and aching for her touches.

This story beautifully explores their blossoming relationship and the difficultites they have to face. It is a heartwarming, clever, tender story about true love, and it deals with difficult but extremely important issues like consent, PTSD, boundaries and sexual epression. It is the story about Jane, the surivor of a horrific assault, that changes her life forever but that does not take away her personality and her ability to love fully and desire intimacy - physical and emotional. Somehow, this story delicately manages to walk the fine line between the really dark stuff, the beauty of love blossoming in the most unexpected places under the most unexpected circumstances and also captures this really passionate, intense moments between our two favorite ladies.

Rating: M

'kay, so I said "There cannot possibly exist a gayer episode of Rizzles than the undercover in a lesbian bar one" and then this one has Maura going all protective over Jane and wanting to learn how to handle a gun to keep her safe?!?! And asking her "Jane...do I look badass?"?!?! C'mon, kiss already, pleeeaaazzzee

You

You and me

You and me won't be unhappy

Just a platonic butt slap 🌹🔥

Season 2 ep 3: They just HAVE to continue calling each other "babe" plz 😭

Jane rubbing Maura's back soothingly and showing off her chess skills so she can impress Maura... and the way Maura looks at Jane afterwards... Rizzles is real <3