What My Dreams Look Like

New plants, cats, bugs, mother's day, cats

I don't know what it is but there's something about this piece of music that makes me feel different

I feel like something died inside me, but in a beautiful way

Tragedy

Beautiful death

Melancholy

The cats and fox need to foster a friendship.. that will be beautiful

It would be nice in an ideal world. But its one fox in particular that harrasses them. The cats sleep in my shed with the door open. The same fox came and ripped their bed to shreds and threw it in the soil. Blanket too.

Massive prick he is.

It’s hard to enjoy this journey, yet I’ll try my best still. I’ll keep you in my Duas. Will you please keep me in yours? Thank you.

Take care Mr

It's difficult to explain what I mean by enjoy the journey.. Kinda like, look at the trees, look at the details in the leaves, remember how small you are in this massive world.

Thinking like that always lights a fire in me

I'll also keep you in my duas

Hi. I think I’ll miss him forever. I think he’ll still be on my mind in 10 years. I wish I never experienced him. I cannot seem to pursue another person because it’s unfair. I think I’ll miss him forever and death will be at my door and I’d wonder if he’s alive or not? (My thoughts are currently in darkness and for some reason I felt you might know how that feels. Thanks for the safe space.)

I can relate to you. I was also in a similar situation.

Years went by but I was still there, the memories were fresh. Not a day went by where I didnt think about her. Sometimes I'd even smell her perfume randomly and it would throw me off and I would plummet into the darkness.

What I found beneficial was to analyse my feelings, what did I "miss" exactly. I missed my life at that time, It was a great period of my life. I had the girl that I wanted, the flash car, mates at my place every day, nothing but pure panga/shenanigans. But it came to an end. All those things went wrong or just ended. Lost the girl, sold the car, moved back home, lost the friends.. What im saying is that period of my life I loved, she was apart of that. But if that was now it just wouldn't of worked anyway.

I realised I felt guilt more than I actually missed her. The guilt crippled me.

I did wonder too, I wonder what she's up to, I wonder who's on the phone to her keeping her up at night..

But man it's all pointless, they're most likely not thinking about you. Its a hard pill to swallow. But it's probably true. You just gotta swallow that pill and run it.

It's a good shout to get yourself out there again, make the new connections, even as friends, just get out. You might start prioritising a new person in your mind and that haunting feeling of your past might leave you.

Honestly I don't know if this is good advice but it works for me. I'm cold, cutthroat. My advice usually is too..

Insurance tells me to get a pizza bike but I've still got my eye on you..

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