A Process (Ralsei Ver.)

you ever think about how toasters love bread but hate toast

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One should always have at least 2 craft projects going. That way, when one of them is messed up and misbehaving, you can switch to another, and let the first one sit there and think about what it's done.

he's listening and learning

I’m having all my wants and desires surgically removed tomorrow

you have seen, many times, the phrase love your body! and every time, like rainwater, it glides off you. not because you cannot love it - you mostly, like, tolerate it - but because of the word "your".

is this your body? when you were 11 you had to start shaving your legs because other girls found it gross you were hairy. when you were 12, you had to stop wearing v-necks because of your chest - people were staring. your mother didn't let you dye your hair. your first boyfriend makes you dress up in skimpy clothes for him, then hated when other people coveted you. what you wear and how you present determine whether or not people find you funny or annoying or arrogant. other people get to determine if you are pretty, a court of opinion so loud it blots any good intent.

when is the body yours? magazines and instagram and tiktok endlessly advising you to "take care of" (starve) your body as if it is a weed. you must hack and slash at it, defend yourself from its wanton desires. it is a shameful, greedy thing. it is more like an art piece. you are keeping it or being kept-in-it.

you try to language it to your therapist - it's not that you don't recognize yourself in the mirror, it's more just that the thing that is in the mirror - it isn't you. that's why it's so easy to take apart: you're vaguely aware of the shape, but it feels like you are an animal hiding in the back of this cavern, snarling.

obviously you're like stuck in it. it often hurts a lot, buzzes with pain and a strange numbness. so it is your body when it's painful. that makes sense. otherwise - how many times have you been told to save yourself (your body) for marriage. for someone else. you are just borrowing it.

love your body! is so funny. somehow, without meaning to, the phrase reminds you - it isn't you. you're just inside it.

Summary:

(noun): phenomenon in which the sudden introduction of air into a fire that has been depleted of all available oxygen results in an explosion

Teru confronts the reality that his relationship with his parents isn’t as rock solid as he thinks it is.

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hi everyone!! its been uh. a pretty crazy few months since the last update and everything has been super busy so we've made a lot less progress than we'd have liked. but we wanted to share this chapter as a christmas/new years/holiday gift!! gonna be a while till the next one though sorry ToT but thank you all so much for the comments you've left in the last few months, i'm going to try and get to some of them today!!! and as always thank you for reading and enjoying backdraft :D i hope we can get back into the swing of things soon. -mint

happy new year! hope you enjoy this little break in hiatus :] big shout out to mint for writing the majority of this one. she’s been going ham on these chapters while I’m still waiting for the writing bug to bite me again. thanks always for reading! - rose

happy new year! Thank you so much for coming back for this update. The biggest of thanks to Mint, who wrote a staggering portion of this chapter and did an absolutely incredible job!! All the best from all of us! - currant

my heart was POUNDING