Unlike people, I don't have ego. I don't feel evil when I do things. Only people who have good lives feel fear of losing these lives, i had everything of pride stolen from me long ago. That's why I've always been objective and never egoitstical. Because I long have lost. I was always loser when it came to winning anything, the bottom of the barrel. That's why we losers tend to objectify things, atlhough I never lie to myself so I can never really cope. We like science so much because we can't win in usual environment. I don't know if you believe this is blessing in disguise, but I already lost to you.
I hope I didn't break my TEETH! OO(OOOOOWH!!
YEAAAH, as I am about to be 21 years old. time to start my tumblr!
uh i was always afraid of making account on here because its uhhh i hate logginning in and here there are censorships involved with tumblr but I always liked the blog system and the easiness of it I remermber seeing so many blogs but never following :F
My channel - https://www.youtube.com/@whiteingale
chudpol.ru - my imageboard
And uh.... i am kinda of lazy, decorate the page for me./.. thanks, i am off to sleep
Okay? I believe in disciplining. I am gonna isolate myself from web tomorrow outside of uploading the rest of toubou videos on my channel. I was thinking about few other stuff… in short, I have 4 more non-touhou videos to upload, a bunch of touhou videos and few schizobabble nonsense that I probably will chose not to upload till later.
I was thinking of uploading the other shit with erotic novel reviews but I’ve reconsidered it to be awful and shameful to large extent. I am sure people can tolerate stuff like that but only if I look normie already. Anyway, review of taimanin will probably never be uploaded any time soon.
It is my duty to return chudpol.ru to its original glory.
I feel I’m gonna kill myself today
its not gonna give me high reputation posting this draft but here it is...just some ideas that go through my turd of brain ack...
I was thinking how can I put it in such way that when I write a story it doesn't ruin my time spent on other things in life, ultimately writing erotic ideas is way more fun to the point of way too much power... Putting chains on me is difficult to do. I thought to just write notes or small pieces of story and move on, but then I want to progress into it, dwell within.
Ultimately, I need to have more discipline on myself.
This supposed to be funny.
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