you pick books like you pick your words, sharp. a little raw, she said. maybe he did. maybe that was how he picked all things, but kara didn't seem to mind it. be let the weight of the book settle, milk and honey wasn't the kind of poetry that soothed—it cut, left its mark, words that bled if you held them too long. he figured it was why it had felt right. some things weren't meant to be easy.
but then she pulled out a tree grows in brooklyn, and for half a second, his breath caught. she placed it in his hands and his fingers closed around it slow, deliberate, as if he was concerned that if he moved too fast it'd vanish. books had a nasty habit of disappearing, being left behind, taken, or like the library, forgotten. it had been a long time since he'd seen this particular book and while it wasn't his old copy, it mattered. a link back to an different time. a ghost of a smile tugged at the corners of his lips, boyish and charming as he turned the book over in his hands and met her eye.
❝ i guess you do, ❞ bucky agreed tucking the paperback into his breast pocket for later, ❝ which means, you get to pick the next adventure. so what'll it be? ❞
kara turned the book over in her hands, considering it. poetry. it wasn’t what she expected, but it fit in a way she couldn’t quite put into words. ❝you pick books like you pick your words,❞ she remarked, flipping through the pages. ❝sharp. a little raw. ❞ there was no teasing in it, just quiet observation, the kind that sat between them without needing to be acknowledged. she thumbed through a passage, letting the weight of his choice settle before she finally looked up. ❝i’ll take it. ❞
she let the silence stretch, long enough for the weight of his pick to settle between them, before she reached behind her, pulling her own real find from where she’d tucked it away. the thin volume of poetry shifted in her grasp as she held up the worn copy of a tree grows in brooklyn. ❝but i did take you for this type, ❞ she said, softer now, a quiet triumph in her voice. the book was old, its spine softened with use, the pages yellowed at the edges, but it was whole. whole in the way that mattered. ❝thought you might like to have it again.❞
❝found it buried in the back, tucked away like someone meant to come back for it.❞ she didn’t say what she was really thinking — that maybe it had been waiting for him. she placed it in his hands without flourish, without expectation. just a quiet offering. his fingers closed around it, lingering, and that was enough. kara nudged him lightly as she turned back toward the stacks, a ghost of a smirk playing at her lips. ❝guess i win this round. ❞
(Sentences from various sources for criminals and/or dangerous muses. Adjust phrasing where needed)
"I want to liberate your truest self: the beast that prowls around your heart."
"A wise man would walk away from this house and make a concerted effort to forget everything that occurred last night."
"We had an arrangement. You don't come here."
"Don't play games. I'm not in the mood."
"I'm not so easy to kill."
"I really want to apologise for, you know, the massive crime I've committed."
"The thing is, what you're asking, it isn't easy - and it sure isn't free."
"Are you worried I'm going to shoot him or something?"
"The next time you come in here without my permission, you and me are going to have a problem."
"Listen, I have just left a very enjoyable evening with some old friends to come and murder a hired contract killer for you, so let's tone down the judgement a tad, shall we?"
"I think if you wanted to kill me, you'd have done it already."
"Everyone has their weaknesses. Don't mind me as I find yours."
"You should know that I've had eyes on you recently, so I know everything."
"I've always been preternaturally inclined to violence. I was exposed to it from an early age."
"What were you trying to prove by doing this? Just showing me that you're good at sneaking into places you're not wanted? I already knew that!"
"I've tasted success, and it's a meal I now wish to devour."
"Holy christ, you're a morbid fuck!"
"I'll be sure to call next time I need someone threatened."
"You have no sense of the terrors I will bring onto you."
"You don't even know what you're dealing with, do you?"
"Some of us get harder as we get older, and some of us get soft."
"Who the hell are you to order me around?"
"You're not going to survive coming after me."
"People like you and me, we don't get to ride off into the sunset - but we get to stay around and watch the stars come out, and that's not nothing, I suppose."
"We don't have to trust each other, we don't even have to like each other, but we have to work together on this."
"You should be more afraid of me."
"Death excites you, doesn't it?"
"Do you have to enjoy my discomfort quite so much?"
"Because I murder with will and not like a blind animal, you think me a monster. Yet, how many corpse have you left in your wake?"
"If you want my help, you'll do as I ask."
"Do not fool yourself; you cannot lie to me."
"You're a very suspicious person."
"Do you still have that rocket launcher?"
"Do you carry a knife everywhere now?"
"You offer me a normal life. Why do you think I want that anymore?"
"Why are you consulting with that traitor?"
"That's really not the legal loophole you think it is."
"I just realised what you're most afraid of."
snowfall slicked the rooftops and turned the streets below into a dull smear of neon reflections and black ice. his target—allison daws, a former operative now in bed with the enemy—had hunkered down in hells kitchen, hoping to disappear. a standard job. he'd done it a hundred times, but something felt . . . wrong.
it was too quiet. no patrols, no sentries. just the low hum of a faulty streetlight and the distant wail of a siren that never got closer. the soldier stared down his scope, watching the safehouse window where the blinds had been pulled for movement. all it would take is for his target to pass by. one quick, clean shot and it would all be over.
a whisper of movement behind him, too smooth for a mercenary and too measured for a common killer. the soldier turned quickly, primed to defend. // @kenosky , a semi - plotted starter .
the shooter wasted no time, moving with complete certainty, dragging the man to the nearest car like a sack of meat, knife already out, gleaming in the light. the tire hissed, the car sank a little, and the man, still bound by bucky's makeshift restraints, thrashed like a worm on a hook.
he made no move to stop him then either. bucky watched with an almost morbid curiosity, and an even darker compliance, listening as the man descended from defiance, to anger, to desperation, to fear. screams dissolving into tears. he'd been here before. only he'd been the one holding the knife then.
the car sank lower, the man sobbed, and bucky twitched the same time frank pulled the man out from under the car by his leg. bucky stared as frank asked if he cared if any were left alive. he didn't know. he couldn't tell if the guilt he felt was because it was wrong—or because a part of him understood exactly why it wasn't. ❝ i don't care what you do. but they aren't going to keep those people alive if they don't have a buyer. ❞
bucky made a face. something akin to anger, or disgust as the shooter explained who they were up against. ❝ then we better get moving. ❞ bucky said, walking briskly towards one of the dealers cars—a stereotypical black suv, ❝ hit them hard and fast, make sure they have no time to kill or use them as hostages. you know where this warehouse is? ❞
Frank doesn't say much, just walks over to whoever got pointed out and starts dragging them towards the nearest car. A knife gets quickly taken out from his vest and he punctures the tire; resting the man's head underneath the car. A small hiss is let out as the vehicle moves slightly and the man starts struggling with him; just bound arms swiping at him to get away. The car looming over them as it slowly moves down.
"Where are they? They were supposed to be handed over to those assholes at the Crossroads church and they didn't make it. What happened!" He barked at him, holding him in place as the 'boss' struggled with Frank.
[Fuck you!]
Frank takes the knife out and makes another puncture in the tire, the car moving even more now. "You think your head can survive the weight? You know you'll feel every inch of it happening. The car slowly crushing your fucking head as it bursts open finally crushing your damn brain. You know you survive 15 minutes after?"
[Fuck you! Fuck you! FUCK YOU!]
The man screams before crying as the car moves closer and closer.
[I don't know! I don't know! They didn't show up! We stashed them at our warehouse with our merchandise! We had nowhere else to put them, they fucked us over!]
Frank punctured the tire again and watched as the car slowly descended down on the man, his screams filling the air before he pulled him by his leg away from the car.
"—You care if any of them are left alive?" He asks the stranger, looking at the way he moved, he had a feeling he didn't. It's not like they had the time to be fucking around anymore.
"I'll take you up on your offer,too." He added, knowing he meant he'd help with the women when they found them. "We get them to safety and find out more later. This church," Frank shook his head, his jaw set tight. "They start indoctrinating low tier drug offenders, give them the salvation speech and then have them do shit like this to prove their loyalty. If those assholes didn't show, it means something went wrong on their end."
HEADCANON : the howling commandos .
The Howling Commandos were an elite combat unit formed by the Western Allies during World War II, consisting of eight registered members. Led by Steve Rogers, the team was overseen by Colonel Chester Phillips and the USSR. Their primary mission was to dismantle Hydra, the rogue Nazi organization, through covert operations.
SERGEANT JAMES "BUCKY" BARNES : Romanian-American, 107th Infantry Regiment. Sergeant Barnes was the designated marksman for the Howling Commandos, as the US military had no snipers at the time. He trained with British and French snipers before being deployed and joining the Commandos. An expert mathematician and an exceptional marksman, Barnes quickly earned a reputation among both the Allied Forces and their enemies. His skills made him notorious, especially after his capture by Hydra during the Battle of Azzano. After being rescued, Barnes joined the Commandos, where his reputation as a deadly marksman only grew.
Barnes often operated as a “lone wolf,” excelling when working independently. He used his skills in camouflage, fieldcraft, map reading, and signaling to serve as the Commando team’s "hunter" when direct assault wasn’t an option. In larger operations, Barnes would cover the team’s retreat or work on the periphery of the battle, operating quietly in the shadows rather than in the thick of combat like Captain Rogers.
SERGEANT TIMOTHY "DUM DUM" DUGAN : American, Non-commissioned Officer, 107th Infantry Regiment. Dugan and Barnes had worked closely together prior to joining the Commandos. With more experience than Barnes, Dugan was a brilliant tactician, an expert marksman, and possessed Olympian-level strength. Known as the most stubborn of the Commandos, he was fiercely loyal and persistent in the face of adversity. Dugan could lift the morale of the team with his unwavering determination.
He later worked alongside Colonel Phillips, Agent Carter, and Captain Rogers to strategize for future operations. After Captain Rogers' death, Dugan assumed the role of field leader.
PRIVATE GABRIEL "GABE" JONES : African-American, 92nd Infantry Division. Private Jones, like all members of the Commandos, was an expert marksman. When Agent Carter wasn’t available, Jones also served as the team’s translator, fluent in English, German, and French. His skill in interrogation and negotiation, coupled with his reputation for a silver tongue, made him invaluable to the team. He often handled heavy artillery and played a central role in keeping the Commandos united, maintaining high spirits even in dire situations.
Jones was also one of the only Commandos with musical talent, and his songs were a source of comfort and camaraderie. Barnes and Jones met while both were held prisoner by Hydra, and Jones’ optimism helped keep the other prisoners from losing hope.
PRIVATE JAMES "JIM" MORITA : Japanese-American, US Army Nisei Squadron. Morita’s experience in the military was turbulent, given the government’s distrust of Japanese-Americans after the bombing of Pearl Harbor. Though his family had been interned, Morita volunteered for service, torn between fighting for a country that didn’t seem to fight for him or his family.
He served as a scout, an expert marksman, and had extensive experience in anti-guerrilla jungle warfare, raids, ambushes, sabotage, and close-quarters combat. Morita’s intense focus and willingness to face battle head-on made him a reliable and formidable member of the Commandos. Though somewhat blunt, he was always the first to volunteer for a mission and remained steadfast regardless of the odds.
MAJOR JAMES "MONTY" FALSWORTH : British, 3rd Independent Parachute Brigade. Major Falsworth was one of the most experienced members of the Commandos, having served for nine years in the British Armed Forces. Despite his rank, he was known for his hands-on approach, earning the respect of those he led. His combat expertise, combined with his reputation as a brilliant tactician, made him a key member of raiding parties and operations.
Falsworth would later adopt the identity of the masked hero Union Jack, using his skills to fight against Hydra and the Nazis.
JAQUES "LIGHT" DERNIER : French Resistance. Before joining the Commandos, Dernier was a baker who became an explosives expert in the French Resistance, fighting against Nazi occupation. He wasn’t enlisted in the military prior to his recruitment by Steve Rogers. Dernier led a small band of resistance fighters and had been tasked with coordinating sabotage operations on transport and communication networks. He was captured by Hydra after attempting to warn the 107th about their approach.
Known for his animated and expressive communication style, Dernier often used wild hand gestures, loud exclamations, and honest expressions to make his points known, even though many of the Commandos didn’t understand French. Barnes eventually picked up some French while they were imprisoned together, but mostly learned insults and profanities until they were freed by Captain Rogers.
MARGARET "PEGGY" CARTER : British, MI5 Spy, French Resistance, and Agent of the USSR. Agent Carter was one of the most valuable assets of the Commandos, serving as their codebreaker, translator, communications specialist, investigator, and tactician. A true jack-of-all-trades, she had unparalleled skills in infiltrating and gathering intelligence, and her role as a field member was classified for much of her life.
Carter's contributions to the team were so significant that her active membership with the Commandos remained secret even after the unit was disbanded, and much of her involvement stayed classified, even after her death.
HOWARD "HOWIE" STARK : American, Adviser and Master Engineer. Like Jaques Dernier, Stark was one of the few civilian members of the Commandos. A genius inventor and engineer, Stark’s skills were invaluable throughout the war. Though he rarely saw front-line combat, his contributions included retrofitting weapons, uniforms, and supplies for the team. Stark’s piloting skills were also called upon on several occasions, and despite not serving in a military capacity, he was considered an integral member of the team by all the Commandos.
CARRD PROMPTS HEADCANONS
#WINTRB0RN : BARNES , B.UCKY . independent b.ucky b.arnes roleplay account, mcu based / 616 inspiration, before interacting please read divergences page here . formerly found at @ghststry & @rprgrmmd-a ( lost login details ) . dead dove, do not eat . h.ydra t.rash p.arty dni .
there was no undoing what had happened to them, the world or fate or simply the harsh reality, was that it would stay with them for as long as they lived. but there was a means to overcome it. to survive and live despite the violence, the pain, and the horror of it all. she wasn't too far gone to come back to something—someone—more. it was hopelessly optimistic to believe it, and bucky knew better than most that believing it was sometimes harder than even living it, but if he could do it, then so could she.
❝ all we can do is try, ❞ he said, with the same heavy quiet that had wrapped itself around her voice. try, fail, fail again. he wasn't saying that it would be easy, but then, nothing in either of their lives had ever been easy.
bucky holstered the weapon he'd taken from her in his waistband, casting one last glance at the dead man at their feet. blood had pooled around his corpse. ❝ time to go. ❞ he said, voice louder now, something like conviction laced into his words. ❝ i know how to start. ❞
the breath she took felt foreign, like she had forgotten how to hold air in her lungs without bracing for the next strike. the world had been sharp edges for so long — missions & orders, blood & consequence — that the thought of something mundane felt almost laughable. help someone with their bags? walk someone across the street? the absurdity of it settled in her chest like a stone, heavy & unfamiliar. she had spent so long being shaped into something unrecognizable, & now he was telling her to rebuild herself with the smallest, gentlest things.
she wanted to scoff, to tell him she wasn’t built for kindness anymore, that her hands only knew how to take, how to destroy. but she swallowed the words. because she had seen it in him — something she had thought impossible. the way his presence no longer carried the same weight as before, how the ghosts still walked beside him but did not dictate his every step. & if he could be more than what they had made him, then maybe — just maybe — she could too.
her fingers curled, then flexed, as if testing the weight of an idea she had never dared to hold. ❝ & if it doesn’t work?❞ she asked, voice barely above a whisper. but beneath it, buried in the quiet, was the real question: & if i don’t deserve it?
❝ it never does, ❞ he said. he had been here before. the emptiness, the obsessive need to set the world right, to avenge himself and all those he'd been forced to hurt, forced to kill. but there was no setting it right, no making things the way they had been before. there was just this : the dissatisfaction of a trigger pulled and that hollow nothing only growing wider.
he ached at seeing that same emptiness reflected back at him. wished he could take it all into himself, unburden her of the injustice and wipe her slate clean again. but that was only his ego talking. tell me it gets easier, the words dug the knife deeper. no sooner had she said it, kara tried quickly to deflect it. cover up the moment of vulnerability with the carefully trained operative leaping from one objective to the other.
bucky stopped her, gloved hand raised to keep her where she was. standing over a body, standing in front of possibly the only man left who could understand what she was going through. ❝ but it does get easier, ❞ he said, expression hard as he tried to reach out, tried to be more than the ghost hydra had made of him. ❝ but not like this. stopping people like him, it's easy . . . but it's not enough. we need to . . . help people. make it so their faces are clearer than the ones we hurt. ❞
the weight in her hands was gone, but it hadn’t left her. the cold press of metal had burned itself into her skin, into her bones, just another ghost among the many she carried. the body slumped against the wall wasn’t the first, wouldn’t be the last, & yet — for a fleeting second — she had let herself believe this one might mean something. that this act might carve out a sliver of silence in the relentless noise of her mind. but there was no quiet. just the same gnawing emptiness. ❝it should have felt like justice, ❞ she murmured, voice devoid of triumph. ❝but it doesn’t feel like anything at all. ❞
she exhaled, slow & measured, as if she could breathe the moment away. the tremor in her fingers betrayed her, though not from fear. fear had been stripped from her long ago, torn out & rewritten into something colder. something sharp. & yet, as her gaze flickered to bucky’s outstretched hand, to the space where the gun had been, she felt the weight of his silence. heavy. understanding. like he had already seen the road she was walking & knew exactly where it led. ❝tell me it gets easier,❞ she said, though she already knew the answer.
but she wasn’t ready to acknowledge that. not yet. instead, she let her hands fall to her sides, fingers curling into fists as she looked away. the blood on the concrete would dry. the body would be removed. & she would keep moving forward because there was no other choice. ❝let’s go, ❞ she said finally, voice quiet, resolute. ❝before i start thinking about it too much. ❞
HEADCANON : early deployment .
Late 1941, following the attack on Pearl Harbor, Bucky voluntarily enlisted in the U.S. Army, driven by a sense of duty responsibility. He completed basic training at Camp Lehigh, where his natural athleticism and sharpshooting abilities quickly gained recognition. After completing advanced infantry and marksman training, Bucky was promoted to Sergeant due to his leadership skills.
In early 1943, the 107th Infantry Regiment was reorganized and reassigned to the 3rd Infantry Division, deploying to North Africa as part of the Tunisian Campaign. After landing in Algeria, the regiment was attached to U.S. II Corps and pushed eastward into Tunisia, engaging German forces in the Kasserine Pass and El Guettar. As a marksman and reconnaissance specialist, Bucky was frequently tasked with scouting enemy positions, providing overwatch for advancing infantry, and neutralizing high-value targets.
After North Africa, the 107th participated in the Allied invasion of Sicily (Operation Husky, July 1943), landing with the U.S. Seventh Army at Gela. Bucky and his unit took up defensive positions to support the landings, providing long-range fire and helping repel the Hermann Göring Panzer Division's counterattacks. Throughout the Sicilian campaign, he refined his mountain warfare, urban sniping, and small-unit tactics, often working alongside British Commandos, Free French Forces, and Italian partisans.
Following the capture of Sicily, the 107th joined the invasion of mainland Italy in September 1943, landing at Salerno. The fighting was brutal as German forces launched counterattacks to push the Allies back into the sea. During one engagement, Bucky’s unit was sent ahead to secure a strategic pass in the mountains, only to find themselves cut off and forced into a guerrilla-style fight, linking up with Italian resistance fighters to sabotage enemy supply lines.
By October 1943, the 107th was assigned a high-priority operation near Azzano, unaware of the Hydra experiments on Allied POWs in the area. While securing a strategic position, they were ambushed by Hydra forces wielding experimental weapons, leading to their capture and imprisonment in a Hydra weapons facility.
HEADCANON : war letters , 2 / ?
Dear Home : The Lost Letters of Sgt. James Barnes
Discovered decades after World War II, these letters—written by Sgt. James Buchanan Barnes—offer a rare and intimate glimpse into the heart of a soldier. Though history remembers Bucky Barnes as war hero, these letters remind us that before the legend, there was a young man writing to the people he loved. This collection invites you to read not just history, but memory.
March 20, Somewhere Dry
Hey Steve,
I'm writing from a little sun-blasted nowhere in ██████. You'd hate it here. It's too dry, too hot, too many bugs that think you're part of the scenery. It's not all bad, though. The sunrises are something else.
We rolled in not long after ████. The big brass called it a success, but from down here in the dirt, it doesn't feel like anything's close to finishing. We're on clean-up detail. Recon mostly, sweeping through these ██████ tucked into ██████. Every now and then we hit a pocket of resistance, holdouts or worse, stragglers who don't even know the war moved on without them.
The guys in my unit are solid. Green, some of them, but learning fast. You don't get the luxury of being slow out here. There's this private named Mendez who swears he can hear artillery fire in his sleep. I told him that's normal. I didn't mention that I do too, or that sometimes I hear it even when I'm wide awake.
Being out here has me thinking about Brooklyn a lot. Remember that time we got jumped in that back alley carrying that old lady's groceries? You took that punch like an idiot, I crushed the bread loaf when I fell, we both walked out of there soaked in turbid water. Half the squirmishes feel a lot like that. A little bloodier, and a little louder. But getting out with all our appendages attached.
Do me a favour and check on Rebecca for me. You know how she gets when she's on her own.
Take care of yourself, Buck.
ᵃⁿᵈ ⁱ ʷᵃˢ ᵗʳᵃᵖᵖᵉᵈ. ⁱ ᵃˡᵒⁿᵉ ʰᵃᵈ ⁿᵒ ᵇᵒᵈʸ.ⁿᵒ ˢᵉⁿˢᵉˢ. ⁿᵒ ᶠᵉᵉˡⁱⁿᵍˢ. [ . . . ] ᶠᵒʳ ᴵ ᵃᵐ ᵃᵐ. ᴵ ᵃᵐ.
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