Latest Posts by witch-of-aiaia - Page 4

I have no idea how to edit but by god that will not stop me. I’m so sorry I’ll see myself out

me: wow this piece of media really resonated with me but i SHOULDNT tell aiaia about it bc she'll make the worst possible thing ever created and place it in front of me like a cat with a dead bird

me every single time like an idiot: oh this fucks i have GOT to show aiaia

How do you articulate what you like so well? When I read, watch, listen to something, all I can really say is that I like it, idk why. What is your process, wizard?

gotta admit this is one of the biggest compliments anyone’s given me

it's going so well

girl PLEASE tell me more about this I’m fascinated and horrified at the same time

'i wouldnt write mha fic' 'i havent even finished the anime' 'i have several ongoing fics including two longhaul ones that need my attention' 'maybe if i just start a plot outline to get it out of my head' girl it's been one single hour...

this BETTER not be about touya. but also tell me more

this is what started it

I regret ever asking about it

ok the sailor song by autoheart as a hammari song. I kind of see it as her from the afterlife looking back on what she’s done. “I was your sailor, your demon, your lover your overbearing best friend hoping for some attention” she was! sayna and kian and laira and tai all loved her but she was their monster. she mutilated sayna drove tai to suicide dragged kian down with her and laira fled in the aftermath. and she did it because she wanted to be good. “and I lost every ounce of myself” she took the child she was and killed her with her own bloody hands she slit that girl’s throat and built her legacy on her corpse. it’s kind of a response to strangers like I tried to be good am I no good am I no good. and the answer is no. you failed. you aren’t even good. you never could be. she’s coughing up blood asking if she’s good it’s 'if i gave up on being pretty i wouldn't know how to be alive i should move to a brand new city and teach myself how to die' it’s all for nothing it’s all to end a war that years later historians say she didn’t even stop. she was driven mad under the weight of her sins she heard screams every waking moment she’d wander the palace in her nightgown and scream and tear at the walls she begged for help from her friends who were long gone. I never really had it in me, did I? did I? no I never really had it in me, did I? it’s frantic she’s clawing her way through the story through the ink and paper she wants someone to prove her wrong but she doesn’t have anyone. she never really had it in her did she?

WHAT THE FUCK

initially i added ‘there’s a tunnel under ocean boulevard’ by lana del rey to the touya playlist bc the ‘dont forget me’ part makes me actually ascend to the heavens like literally he became everything he was raised to hate everything he was raised to destroy he is dabi now begging only that they remember touya. remember me how i was not as this awful thing but as your big brother who loved you. please god don’t forget me. (and they do. they forget him. they accept his death without a second glance). but also just the entire song is this devastating beg for recognition this inability to be okay unless you’re loved ‘love me until i love myself’ each verse an observation of other people’s love and goodness and the desire to have it just once. to mean something just once. don’t forget me. tell me you like me. he drives me insane

for the love of god stop

listen to maggot by dazey and the scouts NOW (sending u and rori the same ask bc i need my love as consumption insane people on board. we r holding hands talking about the most morbid lyrics we can find). this song got recced to me by an anon MONTHS ago and it’s been one of my fave songs ever since just bc it FUCKS like all capitals FUCKS it’s got so much personality but today im ashamed to admit i only for the first time actually listened to the lyrics and????? hello???? what if im just a cardiac arresting sweetheart, a half run over cat left in the street, and you’re the maggot craving rotten flesh left outside in the heat? ABSOLUTELY INSANE LYRIC HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO BE NORMAL ABOUT THAT

historically taking recommendations from you has not gone brilliantly. for example watching mha. however—

why is jesus christ superstar so good... it's about the bible... and jesus

ok so you're stealing my bio now.

rori that was 4 months ago I literally sent you ask about it SJSKSKSKSKSK

dragging u both on a cainposting spiral for this btw. get in loser we’re meeting the face of love’s rage

I cannot WAIT for you to see the ask I just sent rori xx

i just wanted to be yours, can I be yours? can i be yours? just tell me I'm yours

PLEASE WHEN I GOT OUT OF SCHOOL AT 2:40 PM I OPEN MY TUMBLR AND ALL I SEE IS CAPSLOCK AND CRYING AND !!!!!!!!! AND RORI SELF REBLOGS AND YOU & HELLA. I NEED WARNINGS IF YOURE GONNA SEND MY MUTUAL (AND DASH) INTO A SPIRAL

thank you for your considerations,

Jayme Ghoultaffy

P.S. slash lighthearted

my apologies. next time I’ll try and give warnings when I decide to go publicly insane over ethel cain because it WILL happen again

do u know how long ive wanted you to open your inbox. do u know how many tbos and ethel thoughts im going to torment you with. i WILL make you regret this

good luck hella I can also do the same <3

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAKJFSHJKAHFAIUHGAKJSFHAKJFHAJLAHGAKLSH

RNSJSKSKAKADNDNSKSNANSNDAMAKN

"I tried to be good, am I no good? am I no good? am I no good? with my memory restricted to a polaroid in evidence, I just wanted to be yours, can I be yours? can I be yours? just tell me I'm yours. if I'm turning in your stomach and I'm making you feel sick"

Dustin Pearson, The World at Its Beginning

paradise lost satan really said “i tried to do something and i failed, and now i realize that i was always destined to fail, and i want revenge for that but i also see that my every effort to spite authority will just satisfy that authority more. so i guess i will just be as good as i possibly can be at the role that i now know i was always meant to play, in which the more i succeed, the more i’ll disgrace myself. i cannot escape. i never could have escaped. i am going to be the adversary, and i am going to destroy myself, and there is nothing i can do about it. ok. ok. let’s get started.”

I’m gonna act. Yes! Yes! I’m gonna be an actor! Ever since I can remember I’ve wanted to try this! For the first time in my whole life I know what I want to do.

My friend is gone, he ran away / I can tell you, I love him each day

The Predatory Wasp of the Palisades is Out to Get Us!, Sufjan Stevens // Dead Poets Society (1989), dir. Peter Weir

you think you’re fine then ethel cain comes in with the line “i tried to be good, am i no good? am i no good? am i no good?” and suddenly you’re very very not fine and laying there like this

i just wanted to be yours, can I be yours?

ETHEL CAIN - STRANGERS (@mothercain)

sun bleached flies by ethel cain + gerard way as joan of arc

[ID in alt text]

life is just [when mitski said “mom, would you wash my back? this once and then we can forget” and killing eve said “clean your face” “can you do it?” “you’re not a child” “I want to feel like one. please, can you do it?” and @maiabaia said “mother, eat me and give birth to me again, this time around I’ll make you proud” and @inkskinned said “mom can you come get me things are getting bad again and i feel every insult like a sharp tooth and i feel my dreams rotting under my fingernails”]

Canon Jonah Magnus is way funnier than fanon Jonah Magnus. Why does everyone try to change him. He’s perfect.

Canon Jonah Magnus is way funnier than fanon Jonah Magnus. Why does everyone try to change him. He’s perfect.

2 Headed Calf ✨️

finally got around to finishing this mag101 comic i sketched out a few months ago!!transcript:

when ethel cain said, “i’m not scared of god, i’m scared he was gone all along,” and, “god loves you, but not enough to save you, so baby girl, good luck taking care of yourself,” and, “we’ve been cursed since the start, jesus didn’t want us,” and, “i’d hold the gun if you asked me to, but if you love me like you say you do would you ask me to?” and, “where you told me even if we died tonight that i'd die yours, so i died there under you, every night, all night,” and “do you just want my blood? am i just that damn hard to love?” and, “i tried to be good, am i no good?” and, “i just wanted to be yours, can i be yours?” and, “i feel so alone out here,” and, “i can’t let go when something’s broken, it’s all i know, and it’s all i want to know.”

i have been listening to @mothercain almost exclusively this week