Ways To Un-stick A Stuck Story

the WORLD needs your writing

have *you* ever seen writing "advice" that mistakes harshness for honesty and punches in the gut for powerful points, and then tells you if you are not constantly, every day, scorching the earth on which you walk with your fiery passion for words - then you are not a writer?

I have! And it really gets to me when I see someone tear other people down rather than build them up, extinguish their lights for being more candles in the dark than nuclear bombs dropped from the sky, who would risk there being more misery rather than cultivate the joy of creating and sharing emotions, ideas, worlds...

So I wrote a post on why YOUR (whoever is reading this right now) writing is needed by the world, as long as it is in that spirit of deep connection and creativity that stretches beyond time and space and can outlive you by several orders of magnitude

I actually strongly take issue with "No one needs your writing". It's not just extremely discouraging and depressing, and turning away a lot of people for not burning with passion at temperatures of the sun, but very likely also just wrong.

Someone out there is missing out on a smile in a torrent of misery, a feeling of connection in a sea of loneliness, a moment of peace in what feels like an eternity of hurt. They won't have that moment of bliss, maybe their day saved, or even entire life changed for the better.

People sometimes think this is reserved to some small group of particularly good writers, that everyone else is foolish to think that anyone can have a big influence on anyone. And it's impossible to predict.

It can be in the most unexpected ways: a random fanfic touching someone's heart because they happen to address a very particular grief or longing that is unlikely to ever be published with characters that feel like family, a small poem providing strength at the hardest moments because it used language that resonated with a reader on a niche subject, an autobiographical story inspiring someone to a new, ethical life... there are so many possibilities.

And I know this *because I am talking from experience*. So many fanfics have let me imagine other lives that could be my own, made me see from new perspectives, awakened hidden feelings or mollified pain, formed the basis of years of friendships and self-discovery, or just opened me up to so many new genres of writing. So many random stories of people, imagined or of this Earth, that bring a light to the darkness of apathy, aloneness, and angst that threaten to engulf so many in the world.

And vice versa, I have been told that my writing (not published, not even getting 10 likes on Tumblr or Ao3!) has inspired some people, been "exactly the right amount of humorous" or even that one line I wrote was the best one they had ever read.

PLEASE, WRITE YOUR THING! FOR everyone whose life might be saved by it, even if just a bit.

How can I become a writer?

Write.

But I don't know where to start.

Write.

But I'm worried.

WRITE.

What if nobody likes it?

W R I T E

What if it's not very good?

Write. Write. WRITE. WRITE.

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The sun will shine on us again

5 Tips to Avoid Burnout as a Neurodivergent Writer

When taking on a project as big as writing a novel, you may run into the risk of burnout. NaNo Participant Joana Hill gives some tips on avoiding burnout as a neurodivergent writer.

Burnout.  As writers, we all know it. For neurodivergent writers, burnout can be even more damaging than usual. We can be much more sensitive, both mentally and emotionally, than our neurotypical friends and family.

This means avoiding burnout, and taking care of it when it does happen, can be even more important for us.  I’m here today to provide some tips for my fellow neurodivergent writers to tackle just that.

1. Write What Interests You

Write what interests you rather than what you think you ‘should’ be writing.  Many of us get caught-up in pleasing others.  For neurodivergent people who’ve spent much of their life masking, or hiding their true personality and needs because of fear of rejection, it can be a hard habit to break.

If you want to write a 50k slow burn coffee shop AU of your favorite fandom, an epic space opera starring ants, or a main character with ADHD, autism, dyslexia, or any other disorder or condition you have, go for it.

2. Get A Support Network

For neurodivergent people, we’ve often lived our lives with special interests no one wants to hear us talk about.  It often results in us not talking about them at all before someone can tell us they don’t want to hear about it.

Whether it’s offline with friends and family, or online here at NaNoWriMo or other sites, having people who are actively interested in listening to you and helping you plot and write can be a game-changer.

3. Celebrate As Many Victories As You Want

Many years, my personal goal is that I can get the new Pokemon game, which always comes out around the middle of November now, once I hit 50k.  But you don’t need just one grand goal.

Get a bag of your favorite candy and say you can have a piece every so many words.  Find something on Amazon you want (and can afford to get!) and say you’ll get it once you hit the halfway point.  Whatever motivates you to keep going, set it into motion.

4. Plan For Flexibility

That may sound like an oxymoron, but hear me out.  Neurodivergent people often love to have a plan.  I know I can get frustrated and upset when I’m expecting something to happen and something different does.  For a big goal like writing a novel in a month, a lot of things can end up going wrong.

Carry a notebook and pen or tablet with a keyboard case in case an errand takes longer than expected.  Back your writing up to several places in case your main writing device crashes.  Make sure at least one of those is a cloud service in case you end up writing on a device that isn’t yours.  The more contingency plans you have, the better prepared you are when life happens.

5. Be Kind To Yourself

Some days you may not get the minimum goal, or you might not write at all.  You may feel like you just can’t do it because you’re behind on your word count, or you decide you don’t like what you’ve written.

I get it.  But don’t beat yourself up about it.  Take a break.  Play your favorite game or read your favorite book.  Go for a walk.  And remember that you’re awesome.  No one can write this story like you can.

Joana Hill is a writer of young adult stories, as well as novellas inspired by Japanese light novels and anime. You can find her books, social media, and anything else you could imagine wanting to know about her on her LinkTree. Photo by Andrea Piacquadio

WHAT'S TODAY'S SPECIAL?

✩ THE GREAT GATSBY

: a few luxurious vanilla bean scoops, alongside a bright pistachio scoop and a drizzle of some quintessentially american hot fudge to top it off.

I’ve seen Gatsby: An American Myth at the ART two times now, and it’s been such a pleasure both times, with it quickly becoming my favorite show I’ve ever seen or witnessed in my entire life. At this point, there’s no real breakdown of the songs or story yet, and I wanted to detail my own thoughts on the score of the musical. So, here’s my review and summary of every song from Gatsby: An American Myth, in the best way I could possibly articulate it.

— SPOILERS FOR THE GREAT GATSBY BY F. SCOTT FITZGERALD AND GATSBY: AN AMERICAN MYTH AHEAD. read the better version of this on my substack !!

WELCOME TO THE NEW WORLD

NICK, ENSEMBLE

Welcome To The New World is our opening number, and it’s a phenomenal entrance to the story and themes of The Great Gatsby. It starts with NICK, explaining who he is, why he left for New York, and the general vibe of New York as he arrives, and transforms into a full company performance. The choreography really carries this song, but the detailing of New York and its culture at the time of the story is done so well in the lyrics, really emphasizing the passion and energy in the city and state. what i love most is that the song opens on the common people of New York, those that attend GATSBY's parties but are not a part of the “elite,” with clear references to those characters in the company being immigrants, from out of the country and from other parts of the country itself. This idea of the song being sung by the average person in New York really lends itself to the introduction of TOM, DAISY, and JORDAN, who, during the song, are watching the company dancers from a higher level of the stage. as the song concludes, TOM says something along the lines of “quiet down” or a comment about the amount of noise from the other side of the pond, forming a line of class before the show even truly begins. crazy fun beat, crazy fun choreography, and such a captivating start that really draws you into the world of the great Gatsby, despite its weakness in catchiness.

a solid opening number, being incredibly fun with fantastic and dynamic choreography, although not the best song on its own in comparison to other gatsby: an american myth tracks or other musical openings. won’t be a super interesting listen for those who only have access to the score, but will be a super fun watch for everyone who sees the show, and a great start to an even better show! 

GOLDEN GIRL

DAISY

Golden Girl is DAISY’s first solo, and it’s good. for context, the scene previous to this is DAISY confronting TOM about taking a phone call, presumably from a woman or mistress, while they are hosting dinner, and demanding he hang up. he hangs up the phone and hurts her hand in the process, to which she crumbles in pain, with TOM then telling her that she is “being a bad host,” which leads into the song. Detailing DAISY’s emotions of always feeling the need to be perfect, and feeling as though she was pushed from being a debutante directly into being a bride, Golden Girl should be incredibly emotionally touching, especially as DAISY begins to reminisce on a previous love and another possible life, but it’s just not. Golden Girl is fine, and that’s the best way to say it, and it rests a lot on the gorgeous vocals of Charlotte MacInnes. The lyrics are okay, but at this point in the story, the song reads strangely, and it’s just a bit boring to sit through. I think Golden Girl does it’s job explaining DAISY’s feelings, I wish it just did it in a more interesting way, because it feels a bit like an afterthought, and a little forced into the overall flow of the story. Golden Girl’s crime is that of being boring, and that is the real tragedy of the song.

overall, a very basic take on daisy without very compelling ideas or lyrics, that rests on the vocals and acting ability of the performer and not on its own merits. not the worst i've seen in theater before, but my own personal contender for one of my least favorite of this show’s numbers. disappointing for daisy’s first solo, but will be a genuinely great audition piece for those looking for something from the show. this is likely a controversial take, but i just didn’t enjoy it. 

VALLEY OF ASHES

MYRTLE, WILSON, ENSEMBLE

Now. We’re. Talking. MYRTLE and WILSON are so cool in this production, and Valley of Ashes only cements that further. It’s a fantastic company number with a balanced focus between MYRTLE, WILSON, and the rest of the company that centers on the working class’s view of New York and the dichotomy between them and those with money, both new and old. It introduces crucial characters, interesting plot and thematic elements, and from what I recall, it’s sound and choreography is captivating for an audience. Both Solea Phiffer and Shea Renne performed beautifully as MYRTLE, and Matthew Amira makes me actually care about WILSON in ways I didn’t think were possible. It’s just so good, and is such an edgy, interesting performance. Huge fan!

a great company performance with a variety of skills from acting to dance to vocals on display from every member of the cast performing. takes everything amazing about the opening, and dials it up now that it knows the audience is already sat and listening. i'm obsessed.

SHAKIN OFF THE DUST

MYRTLE, ENSEMBLE (FEAT. TOM & NICK)

Another banger from MYRTLE and the wildly hardworking company, that’s only made better by the acting ability and the raw comedic and dramatic timing that Cory Jeacoma and Ben Levi Ross have as TOM and NICK. Taking place in MYRTLE’s apartment, Shakin Off The Dust gives a balance of a fun, party-like atmosphere that really showcases MYRTLE’s lust for life and desire to really live, which is core to her character, alongside the genuine emotions and motives behind the speakeasies and parties of the 1920s, which came from a desire to feel loose and free after the war and diseases that hurt the country, and also deeply hurt MYRTLE and the company characters like her, who desire to emulate the luxury and freedom of the upper classes. It’s much more emotionally raw than would be expected of the flashy costumes and lights, and the gaudy set, and provides insight into TOM and MYRTLE’s relationship and MYRTLE’s difficulties with her husband, family, and life that lead her to lead this affair. It also gives us canonically gay NICK, which I could never be mad at. Fantastic choreography as always, with a special solo given to a wildly talented dancer in the company, Chris Ralph who has delighted the audience both times I’ve seen the show in an incredibly unique way.

fun, flirty, and emotionally devastating. everything that i look for in a track, only made better by those performing, with phenomenal execution of the lyrics and choreography.

NEW YORK SYMPHONY

NICK, MYRTLE, DAISY, ENSEMBLE

This one took me a second to remember, but once I did, it was hard to forget. Taking place after TOM slaps MYRTLE, telling her that he would never truly marry her, and after NICK’s realization of queerness, New York Symphony is a song detailing the experiences of NICK, DAISY, & MYRTLE as people who have moved to New York in search of something, and emphasizes their similarities. It’s not a very memorable song, but I find it touching and a strong support for the overall story. Nothing too special, but still leaves a pretty hefty impact even with just a vague memory of the emotion it evoked.

a strong addition to the story and an interesting depiction of the similarities between multiple main characters, drawing connections that are crucial, or at least helpful, to the story.

ONE HEART BEAT

GATSBY, JORDAN, ENSEMBLE

One Heart Beat is our introduction to GATSBY’s parties, alongside the man himself, and it does a great job at utilizing the skills and talents of the cast alongside the fantastically designed set to create a dynamic and fun atmosphere. Great utilization of JORDAN’s character, which this production can occasionally lack, so that’s a major plus. Reminiscent of Shakin Off The Dust, and previous company numbers, One Heart Beat shows the party scene of New York and emphasizes the characters of both old money and new money who crowd together in GATSBY’s grand parties, but in a great contrast to the desperation of Shakin Off The Dust with the amount of opulence it shows. It’s a little bit of a drag, as I feel it’s a little longer than it needs to be, but overall a great track in vocals, score, and choreography, with amazing comedic moments and a great execution of NICK and GATSBY’s first meeting, and leads perfectly into the next track.

a great party song, with a fantastic showcase of skills from the company and the lead actors and actresses. faithful to the story and the ideas of gatsby’s parties, and just such a fun song, despite possibly overstaying it’s welcome.

DEATHLESS SONG

GATSBY (FEAT. DAISY)

Gonna be real with you guys, I don’t remember this song at all. From what I recall, it happens after GATSBY solidifies plans for lunch with NICK. The song itself contains GATSBY detailing the motives behind his parties, talking about scanning every face in the crowd, obviously looking for DAISY. Towards the end of the song, DAISY enters, standing in front of the green light prop that exists on House Right, but she’s more of a vision and GATSBY does the classic reach out to her from across the pond, which is referenced in the book and the musical. It’s not a bad song, from what I remember, just very forgettable, and it has the problem of existing after a very fast paced moment. Gatsby: An American Myth’s largest issue seems to be timing and placement of songs, and this is an example of it, because it is so easily forgotten in between those that come before and after it. 

doesn’t feel fair to give this a review, but i’m gonna say it’s a little forgetable and boring, but absolutely something that would resonate with someone who is not me.

FEELS LIKE HELL

WOLFSHEIM, ENSEMBLE

We are so fucking back with this song. It’s incredible, and defies every stereotype of the “ boring old guy musical song that nobody likes,” by being just so well done. I could write a whole post on this song alone, but WOLFSHEIM as a character is just so monolithic, he takes up all the attention on stage, supported and only contested by GATSBY, who has incredibly unique blocking and choreography throughout the scene. In this song, WOLFSHEIM explains GATSBY’s rise to fortune through his help, and the idea of the American Dream in a way that feels so genuine and wildly inventive and creative. WOLFSHEIM manages to be such an amazing character, with so much personality and wit in ways that I don’t the book, the movie, or the other musical have managed to capture. While I will sing the praises of Adam Grupper all day, Isaac Powell’s performance as GATSBY is nothing to scoff at either, managing to transform himself from a young, naive man, to the GATSBY we know today, and doing so flawlessly. An amazing backstory song that blends rawness and wit into something spectacular. 

fantastic addition to the musical, and a dynamic number that never gets old and one that you always look forward to, with especially amazing performances from all cast members involved. i have a feeling that this song will turn out to be wildly underrated when the cast recording releases, but trust me, it’s great.

A SMILE LIKE THAT IS RARE

NICK, JORDAN (?)

You may notice the question mark next to JORDAN. I can’t fully remember if she has a singing role in this song, or only a speaking role, but it doesn’t really change the overall song. It is, even if JORDAN also sings, largely a NICK solo, as he comments on GATSBY’s charm. The song details GATSBY’s smile, and how his genuine joy is rare for the circles both JORDAN and NICK find themselves in, and it’s the beginning of NICK’s understanding about who DAISY is to GATSBY, as this all comes after NICK’s agreement to stage a tea meeting for the aforementioned characters to come together, which is what GATSBY wants. It leads into a larger song, as NICK’s hesitance to set up the meeting is met with JORDAN’s reassurance that it may turn out well, as she remembers GATSBY for the radiant joy he had around DAISY, and their relationship. It’s a bit of a filler song, but it’s pretty, with lyrics that show an understanding of the characters in the story’s feelings and moves the plot along in a way that doesn’t feel too forced or too slow. It’s small, it’s cute, it’s there. 

nothing too much to say. it’s a cute addition, and it does it’s job. it’s not anything special, but it’s well-written and well-performed, and has a very clean placement in the story itself.

MONTH OF LOVE

GATSBY, DAISY (FEAT. NICK & JORDAN)

Do I remember the lyrics? No. Do I remember how absolutely lovely this song was in essence and feeling? Yes! NICK and JORDAN watch on from a side of the stage as a young GATSBY and DAISY meet and fall in love, with JORDAN being implied to be telling their story to NICK. However, everyone other than DAISY and GATSBY seem to melt away during this song and the scenes within it, even if they’re still present on stage, which seems intentional and phenomenally done. DAISY and GATSBY pull the audience into their romance, with soft lyrics and a romantic backing to every word spoken and action taken, without it coming across too gaudy, fake, or unreliable to the book itself. This is a gorgeous song, and it really demonstrates the skills of the performers to be able to shift into their characters’ younger selves so well, with only a change in costume. A beautiful song, made even better by the tragedy you know will befall their romance.

dreamy, romantic, and gorgeous, everything gatsby and daisy remember their month together as seen from their and jordan’s memory. this number really makes us understand daisy and gatsby’s history in a way that wasn’t available before.

I’VE CHANGED MY MIND

DAISY, JORDAN, DAISY’S MOM (FEAT. GATSBY)

This song is so heartbreaking, it makes me physically ill. DAISY, on the day of her wedding to another man, receives a long-awaited letter from GATSBY, begging her to wait for him. So simple, yet so gut-wrenching, Daisy’s repeated lines of “I’ve changed my mind” show her youth and desperation so well, especially as her mother berates her and asks her to think of their good family name (“Love will fade, but our good name is forever.”) and the luxuries that DAISY has enjoyed her whole life. DAISY continues pleading, standing soaked in a bathtub (like, actually soaked), until the moment she is carried out and dragged to the wedding, and it’s such a deeply ruinous song that absolutely wrecks an audience. TOM is a looming, silent figure throughout this song, and JORDAN’s helpless worrying only adds to the desperation the song carries and the fear DAISY has, every element on stage working to make you see just how much DAISY is conflicted, scared, and naive. I’ve Changed My Mind shows the tragedy of The Great Gatsby that is always so delicious, and it’s nauseating how amazing this track is. The blocking, costuming, and subtle choices made (JORDAN picking up GATSBY’s letter from the bathtub where it dropped as DAISY gets carried away, before throwing it out, DAISY’s mother and JORDAN in black as though they are mourning) elevates this song to heights I’m obsessed with.

possibly one of my favorite songs of the show, with just phenomenal vocals, acting choices, blocking, and just everything that makes a song perfect. i’m obsessed with this track, and I think it’s a real showcase of the show at its best.

POURING DOWN

DAISY, GATSBY, NICK (KINDA), ENSEMBLE

I know I just spent 10 years absolutely showering I’ve Changed My Mind with praise, but Pouring Down manages to elevate to even higher heights as a track. At NICK’s house for tea, both GATSBY and DAISY are overwrought with stress and nerves, and are so awkward and tense they can find nothing to talk about but the stormy weather. It’s difficult to detail in words, because it sounds so simple, but the mixture of their voices and characters combine into something so awkwardly beautiful, emulating the true tense feelings behind reconnecting with an ex. The company aids in the vocals, especially later in the song as they move into GATSBY’s house, and NICK’s involvement in the scene is somehow both touching and incredibly comedic, adding some necessary levity without drawing too much focus to himself when unnecessary. It’s a beautiful, understated but near-perfectly constructed track, and I love it so dearly. Not to mention, the set design including led-lights that flash down in rain patterns during this scene has such visual appeal I can’t even find the right words to describe it.

a crucial addition, that shows both the comedic and tragic potential of the characters themselves, that adds such great character building and tension to the story that makes it absolutely delectable. it’s a treat for me, seeing and hearing this song. understated, simple, and yet so deeply complex and thought out, a real work of ART.

MR. NOBODY FROM NOWHERE

GATSBY, ENSEMBLE

BOOOO!!! Tomato, tomato. Okay, I joke, but in all seriousness, this song is GATSBY’s Golden Girl, if you know what I mean. It’s just so boring, especially as the Act One finale, and it’s just so disappointing because it’s obviously placed there so we can get a serious moment to end on, that centers around GATSBY himself, but it just lacks what the past two songs had and really dampers Act One’s momentum. I understand it’s neccessity, especially for setting up GATSBY’s character, and his relationship with the idea of being “nobody” and finally escaping that boudary with the love of DAISY as his crutch, because that is vital for later on, but I just find this style of ballad-esque solos very boring, basic, and uninspired, which is a shame for a show as dynamic and unique as Gatsby: An American Myth. It was okay, and it does something for GATSBY’s character, but that’s the best I can do.

again, we have another song who’s worst crime is being boring. it wouldn’t be so bad if it didn’t follow multiple fantastic songs, but it does, and it’s rough. there’s not a better place to put it, and there’s no getting rid of it, so we’re stuck. still mildly disappointing, although i’m sure every high school theater boy just cheered for another audition song for them.

JUST A LITTLE PARTY

MYRTLE, ENSEMBLE

Starting off Act 2 with a quiet bang, Just a Little Party is a subtly sinister take on the party scene of 1920s New York, with “the help” at the center of the song. Highlighting the hauntedness of Gatsby's parties and the way the lower class workers are essentially invisible to the party-goers and work jobs that are completely unnoticed every night and every day, it's a dark, but incredibly captivating performance. MYRTLE’s appearance as a maid to contrast the life she wishes she had, as one being served rather than the one serving, is incredibly tragic and adds depth to her character. Her appearance in the song as a whole elevates it, and it's just such a fun way to get dragged back into the world of the show.

absolutely gorgeous re-entry to the world of gatsby: an american myth, that used the entire company to their best, and was just an amazing performance. 10/10, no notes, i’m in love.

WELCOME TO THE NEW WORLD (REPRISE)

GATSBY, DAISY, NICK, JORDAN, ENSEMBLE (FEAT. TOM AND MYRTLE)

DAISY’s introduction to the party world that GATSBY has created for her is within this song, and it is absolutely perfect. Before I write anything else, it’s important to know that NICK and JORDAN shine in this song, especially showing the way that NICK has evolved to mold seamlessly with the upper-echelon’s party mindset that he was once uncomfortable with. It’s such a gorgeous, fun reprise with just the right amount of sinister to remind us that GATSBY and DAISY are on borrowed time, with the threat of TOM right around the corner. Such a fun beat, and a great callback to the original song. All the characters, including MYRTLE and TOM who don’t have singing roles in this song, are utilized so well in both acting and vocal talent and skill.

so fun, so perfect, and an amazing reprise! more fun to watch then the original in my opinion, although the lyrics probably aren’t as strong, or at least don’t change much from the original.

DRIVING MY WAY

MYRTLE

This is MYRTLE incredibly ironic breakup song to TOM, although framing it that way doesn’t do her justice. Post-party, MYRTLE is incredibly frustrated with TOM, and I would describe this song as a type of angry, break-up letter to him, essentially telling him that one day, he will have lost her, and he won’t be able to drive her way anymore. It’s tragic in the context of the show, and that tragedy comes from the hope that it has as a standalone track, but it’s still incredibly powerful in the moment and represents something important for MYRTLE, and the shows overall themes and ideas. It’s a very powerful song, and while that really rests on the power of the performer, it’s just a fantastic track. The costuming of MYRTLE during this scene, in the maid dress she wore to the party, lends so much to the powerless feeling MYRTLE feels like she gains with TOM, and it gives the ending, where she clearly states her power over him, so much more punch than it would’ve otherwise.

overall, myrtle really isn’t in a single song that’s bad, especially not ones focused on her, and the stage presence that is both written into myrtle’s character, and executed flawlessly by the performers, only served to make this piece so much more emotionally fufilling and shattering for an audience.

WHAT IS THIS WORSHIP?

GATSBY, DAISY, NICK, ENSEMBLE

What Is This Worship is by far one of the most dreamy, romantic tracks in the entire score, with a slightly sinister undertone, and it’s no wonder that it comes in the seemingly blissful, but secretive, days of GATSBY and DAISY’s reigniting of their romance. The melody and music tell a far different story than the lyrics themselves though, with the music airy and cloudlike, like a fairytale, and the lyrics painting a picture of doomed devotion. According to the song, GATSBY falls into depression the moment DAISY leaves, and places his whole value on her presence, which shouldn’t need to be explained as unhealthy to be understood that way. The choreography shows they can never get their hands off of each other, with GATSBY especially clinging to DAISY and the lyrics reflect such desperation. It’s just such a gorgeous song, and everything about it reflects the love of DAISY and GATSBY without straying from the original themes and intentions behind their relationship, and the complexities with idealism and “the american dream” that litter the relationship as a whole.

showstopper, amazing, and steamy without being gaudy or graphic. one of my favorite portrayals of gatsby and daisy’s romances done, like, ever!

WHAT WILL WE DO WITH OURSELVES 

GATSBY, DAISY, NICK, JORDAN, TOM, ENSEMBLE

shirts getting thrown off, daisy regrets, gatsby asks daisy to tell tom she never loved him

This song is so fucking long, and so fucking good. The whole song is just wrought with tension and stress and it genuinely made me almost claw into my seat, it was so nailbitingly good. Beginning in GATSBY’s home, with DAISY worrying about the past and how much time they’ve both lost, and what their future will look like together (“What will we do with ourselves / Today, and the next forty years”), the song immediately brings a sense of finality that we know is coming to the affair, highlighting DAISY’s insecurities and fears. However, they move on, with the song transitioning into DAISY and TOM’s home as DAISY and GATSBY prepare to tell TOM of the affair —with JORDAN and NICK being the unfortunate bystanders. This begins the “it’s too hot” repeated lyric, which shows the way that the environmental circumstances, along with the tension, are affecting everyone but TOM, unaware of the issue. Later on, TOM becomes more conscious of the affair when DAISY decides to drive with GATSBY, leading him to also remark on the heat later on. All in all, it’s a rich, tense piece of storytelling that relies on the actors’ abilities in the best possible way, highlighting all of the strengths of the amazing performances done.

stressful, nauseating, and just so deliciously good. a fire could’ve started during this song and i would’ve had no idea. i don’t really know how they’re going to split this song and what is this worship up, or how they’ll make it into the cast recording, but that doesn’t change the intense emotion raditating out of this song.

WHAT OF LOVE, WHAT OF GOD

MYRTLE, WILSON, ENSEMBLE

I NEED THIS SONG TATTOOED ON MY BRAIN. Anyway, this is my favorite song of the whole score. MYRTLE and WILSON are fascinating characters, and they’re love and dynamic is so stressful and so beautiful and so heartbreakingly, realistically tragic. WILSON’s desperation for MYRTLE to stay despite her affair is so clear in this song, alongside the clear anger and betrayal he feels for both himself, God, and his and MYRTLE’s deceased daughter. It’s genuinely so raw with emotion that it’s palpable, and MYRTLE doesn’t pull her punches either, with her clear exhaustion with WILSON’s excuses and her pessimism contrasting his optimism, which is a swap of their earlier roles in the story. The contrast between them is what really seals this, with WILSON (And what of love, and what of God?) and MYRTLE (Love will not save you here / ... / God will not save you here) showing clear the hopes that people had in America and how those hopes eventually are crushed. The shift in their personalities is evident too, and it’s just such a realistic depiction of the kinds of struggles they would face as fully fledged people, not characters. It’s so. Fucking. Good.

a really great song to pretend you’re fighting with someone to, if that makes sense. a really great song, period. i am getting a tattoo of these lyrics, and no one can stop me.

THE DREAM FOUGHT ON

DAISY, GATSBY (FT. TOM, MYRTLE, NICK, JORDAN, & ENSEMBLE)

DAISY is going to drive. That’s important for you to know. This is the scene, as in the scene where DAISY takes control of her life, for better or worse, removing herself from being the dream debutante, the dream wife, and then GATSBY’s American dream, and in doing so, taking back both control and the keys to the car from GATSBY. The Dream Fought On is about fighting for a dream, whether this be DAISY’s dream of breaking free from expectations, GATSBY’s dream of having DAISY, and MYRTLE’s dream of truly living, and finding a new life. This is where MYRTLE dies fighting for her dream, running in front of the car as DAISY drives, and the choreography and blocking of specifically this scene is phenomenal, along with the song’s blocking as a whole. While the song can be rather basic, and a pretty common and derivative take on the story, it’s still very well done, especially on stage, and especially with the acting of all those involved.

overall, it’s a great song that has the issue of a lot of acting moments around it, and being shelved in between multiple other far better songs, but still, it’s great. i feel like i’m forgetting something about it, but i’m fairly certain this is a reliable description.

THE DAMAGE THAT YOU DO

TOM, DAISY

If there were to be any song that beats out What of Love, What of God?, it would be this one. TOM and DAISY are such rancid people in this song, and it really highlights the ways TOM and DAISY behave similarly, which calls back to similar highlighting during Act Two’s opening that showed both DAISY and TOM’s affairs in the spotlight. It’s so good in ways I can’t describe, but it’s one of the other great argument songs on this track, and there’s a piece of lighting work I also really love in this song, where the spotlight kicks up from behind them and you can see dirt and blood on the bottom of both DAISY and TOM’s clothing, highlighting the blood and grime they both have on their hands and their consciousness, and how neither of them are clean people. I think it provides a lot of insight into why DAISY and TOM end up staying together.

VIGIL

GATSBY, NICK

GATSBY is going to take the fall for DAISY, and desperately wants NICK to validate this decision, which NICK struggles immensely in doing. This is, I believe, where NICK fully beings to understand the lengths that GATSBY has gone in only the pursuit of DAISY, how the entire empire he has built is for her, and how he will tear it all down for the chance of having her call, for the chance to protect her. This song, while sung by GATSBY and NICK, is more reminiscent of NICK’s point of view on GATSBY’s tragedy, rather than a real duet. NICK remarks that GATSBY is “standing vigil over nothing,” and when GATSBY asks NICK if he thinks DAISY will call, NICK decides to lie and say yes, despite his real beliefs. It’s a truly tragic song, if only in the sheer patheticness and desperation shown in GATSBY. I have, personally, never been one to dislike DAISY as much as many other readers of the book, but this song really hits hard, and really draws a lot of sympathy for GATSBY’s struggle and desperation for something, and someone, we all know isn’t coming.

it’s raw, it’s good, it’s tragic, and it’s all one big beautiful lie, and it’s just incredibly desperate and pathetic as a song, in the most loving, sympathetic way. it’s gonna be great, and people are going to love it.

AMERICA, SHE BREAKS

GATSBY, WILSON

Oh, I’m crazy. WILSON, similar to MYRTLE, is always going to be a smoking gun —see what I did there— of a character, bright and attention-grabbing and with such a loud but welcome stage presence. America, She Breaks is a perspective on the myth of the American dream from both GATSBY and WILSON’s perspective, as they lament on what the pursuit of this dream has lost them. This song genuinely leaves me speechless, a heavy tension and desperation running through the entire thing until the death of GATSBY and WILSON by WILSON’s own hand and handgun. It’s, strangely, a magical experience of a song, with it being wildly captivating and attention-holding. It’s a fantastic commentary on the themes of the show, and genuinely could’ve been a great ending to the show that wraps up the story and the themes, although it would leave parts of the book’s ending out. It’s just such a solid and genuine performance, and it always leaves the audience gasping.

this song drives me crazy. i am crazy. 

POURING DOWN (REPRISE)

NICK, JORDAN, GATSBY’S FATHER, COMPANY

This is where, ideally, the show would’ve ended if it didn’t end after America, She Breaks. The inclusion of GATSBY’s funeral, and the few mourners, alongside NICK and GATSBY’s father is well-done, and I absolutely adore GATSBY’s father being Native-American, which adds a whole new level to GATSBY’s character and desire to fit into the 1920s American dream. I’m not well-versed enough to speak on the representation, but I do think the idea of GATSBY being Native-American adds a lot to the story and adds complex, and interesting dynamics and themes to the overall script. I think this song specifically being a reprise of Pouring Down works well, and I think it’s an emotionally fitting ending to the show. 

emotionally fitting, a perfect mourning song, and a lovely and well-done reprise. incredibly solid as both a standalone song and a closing to the score and story as a whole.

BEFORE I GET INTO THE LAST SONG... I want to say that there are two places this show could’ve ended after this that I would’ve been happy with.

After NICK mentions to GATSBY’s father that DAISY didn’t even send flowers, GATSBY's father asks NICK who DAISY is. This works as a tragic ending, as it shows that GATSBY’s pursuits were largely for nothing, and no one will ever truly remember or understand the lengths that he went to for DAISY, along with being tragic due to the reminder that DAISY was not all that important to anyone else, and that she was only a dream of GATSBY’s, and not nearly as lifechanging for others. It just ties up DAISY and GATSBY’s relationship in a tragic little bow that I think works

And I would prefer this. NICK and WOLFSHEIM have a conversation about GATSBY after WOLFSHEIM doesn’t attend GATSBY’s funeral, that generally goes with NICK saying that GATSBY should’ve meant enough to WOLFSHEIM that he be bothered to go to the funeral, and WOLFSHEIM saying that GATSBY meant everything to him. WOLFSHEIM’s monologue ends with him saying that “[GATSBY] was a beautiful fool” and I think this makes for a good ending.

I’m sure there are other places that would make for a good ending, but not the one I’m about to tell you.

WE BEAT ON

FULL COMPANY

I hate it. I’m sorry, I hate it so much. We did not need a full company number at the end, it really just ruined it. It sucks so bad, I’m so sorry. I’m sure there’s a good reason to have it, maybe, probably, but my idea is that reason was just that they wanted the whole company on stage for bows, which is not a good enough reason to have this number included. It’s a boring song, with boring choreography, and I don’t think it serves a good enough purpose, or emphasizes the message of the show in any way. I believe that this song was only included to have the entire company onstage at the end of the show to prep the stage for bows, and nothing else. Sorry, but not really.

i’m a d1 hater of this song, and will be pretending it doesn’t exist.

so, that’s the scoop!

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8.12.2024🍨 eleanor

Tips for ADHD Writers

(From an ADHD Writer & Spoonie)

As an ADHD author, and a spoonie (migraines) I know that a lot of typical writing "guidelines" can feel overwhelming and often don't work. I taught myself to write (results may vary) and after several decades of this; here's some of what I've learned to keep the dopamine and words going.

Throw out Genre Conventions & Boxes; Discover what stories you enjoy & write those.

There's nothing more restricting as an ADHD writer being told "this genre has to be this way." See those boxes. Break them. Find what type of stories and tropes and archetypes you enjoy writing in the types of worlds you find fun and exciting and write those. This should be fun. Writing may be hard, so give your brain the things it craves to snack on.

For example, I love writing romantic comedy with action. I love scifi and I love fantasy. I love shoving the two together. So, if I told you I feel my style is a blend of Jim Butcher action and Anne Bishop family dynamics, you might not get it. But if I said, I love the Mummy/Van Helsing, the Adam's Family, The Ocean's Series/St. Trinian's, and the Expendables, you might be getting closer. Oh, and Star Wars. Particularly the Wraith Squadron EU stuff of Star Wars. Han Solo and Bounty Hunter Wars.

2. Tackle Writing Craft Issues One Thing at a Time

All the writing guidelines and 'how to write' can be overwhelming. Turn off the noise, and choose one thing you want to work on in your story. Dialog. Description. Character Interactions. Conflict. Pacing. Whatever it is you want to work on, focus on it and only it. If you're working on dialog, then don't worry about description. If you're working on character interactions and group dynamics, don't worry about conflict.

The first "Craft" thing I remember trying to tackle was dialog. I wanted to write fun, snappy, dialog and not do question and answer responses like you see on sitcoms. It was the era of Buffy the Vampire Slayer and hopefully I made it my own later. Then I was like "I love characters, let's have fun characters." Plot and description came last for me. But I wouldn't be where I am today if I'd tried to do it all at once.

Go ahead and tackle this post bit by bit if you need to! I get it!

3. Write down all your Ideas into a paragraph synopsis outline.

Hyper fixation is great when you first get an idea. The juices are flowing, the dopamine is high and everything is all coming together. Or so you think. However, from painful experience, I know hyper fixation may not last between the 360K to 495K words of a trilogy, it might not even last past the first 80K. That's when having this synopsis paragraph outline filled with summaries and dialog snippets will be your savior. It will be able to rekindle your focus and make connections in your brain on what you were trying to do. And yes, it's okay if it's messy. You're the only one who is going to see it, and part of the dopamine thing can be making it less messy.

For example, I'm working on a vamp romcom trilogy right now. I got through the first two books and like the first 20K of the third book before my brain went "we need a break, write something else, PLEASE." then refused to focus on it for seven months. (I wrote a 'proto first draft for something else that I've been poking at for at least 10 years.) Sometimes, your brain won't want to focus on a story for years after you started it. Paragraph summary notes are your friend. And might be more important to do while you have this hyper fixation than the actual story itself. (Do what you can.)

4. Ditch word counts

There's nothing more depressing then trying to set a daily word count goal and not meeting it. Or seeing other people posting their daily word counts. Especially when you might write 50 words one day and 6000 another. Ditch this whole idea you have to write every day, because it's not feasible, and won't make your dopamine go up if you feel you 'failed' the goal or 'failed' in comparison to other people.

Writing is not about your word count all the time. It's about research. It's about idea gathering. It's about making that lore book. It's about getting all those pictures into a folder, and then sorting that folder. It's about day dreaming, and shower thoughts and the story you tell yourself before you go to bed. Or that music playlist you need to trigger your writing. Or buying the perfect candle. Making a map. It can even be scrolling tumblr b/c you might not be able to advance that story until you see something that triggers 'oh, that's what I want.' (I had this happen to a third book in a trilogy of a fairy tale sword and sorcery fantasy I was writing, it was a bit frustrating. But it's written and pubbed now.)

5. Copy and Paste what you might think is Half Assed Description

You've described something like a room or a person in your story, and you need to go back to that room (these are called key places) or person later or in the next book and you don't want to rewrite the description b/c that's not making you happy (unless description writing does that, then go you) go ahead and copy and paste it. It will save you time, and headaches trying to keep details straight.

Because as someone who doesn't see things when I close my eyes and I must define everything into words, people who can see things when they close their eyes probably think you have too much description. (Don't listen to them.) And it's okay to repeat yourself, because you are describing for you, and others like you, who need the description and reminder every once in a while what color hair and eyes and possibly skin, all these characters have and what the room looks like.

And don't be too hard on yourself. Go read Brian Jacques. If you can create a description even a third as well as Brian Jacques, you are winning. Okay, Brian Jacques wrote his books for blind children and thus described everything three times as he tried to include as many senses as possible. (Very important.) If you can hit one third of it, you are golden. (Also, he's fun. Long, as description eats up words, but fun. Err... formative years reading. Oops.)

6. Embrace writing the multiple stories/fanfics/short stories before figuring out what story you really want to tell.

Sometimes, it's not straight forward. Oh, how I wish it was. Sometimes, you end up writing what feels like thousands and thousands of words before you find in those stories kernels and ideas of the story you really want to write that you hope will make your brain shut up about that particular set of characters for a while. (Or not. Or not is okay too.) And this isn't wasted writing. There's no such thing as wasted writing. This can be part of the process.

So, the thing I wrote the proto first draft of, yeah, well, it's probably the third proto first draft and half a dozen other short stories where I figure things out. We are talking about 100s of thousands of words, at least two or three different change ups of where I want it to take place and genre types, but I would not get to the story I want to write without those other stories. And that is honestly, the most important bit, finding the story you want to tell in these bits of other stories you're writing, even if those stories never make it off your disk drive or no further than your closest beta reader.

The upside of this is, you get to know your setting and your characters really well. And so when you get to the story you want to tell, you can write that dynamic really well! On the other hand, you know them really well, and you might forget to show that dynamic in your story because you've forgotten other people haven't read the 300K words you've written over the years and don't know them very well. (This is when you need fresh eyes who have never read any of these other stories.)

7. Remember your readers are not in your head with you, and sometimes your future self isn't either.

It's okay to spell shit out. Especially if you're going for that YA audience or using a limited POV like first or 3rd limited. You can hit people over the head with the hammer. It's not 'show, don't tell,' it's show AND tell. You want to say the characters are good friends. Great! Now, go ahead and write out those fun character chewing the scenery scenes where they interact with each other and show me. If your character doesn't like interacting with other people, then you got to show me that. (Good read for this: Murderbot Diaries.) Tell emotions, write feelings. (How is their body reacting?)

This is good for you too, because you might not touch this story for months, have to go back and reread and are going "who are these people and why is the main character interacting with them?" And it might take a few paragraphs to go "Oh." So, go ahead and write it out for your future self too. (Been there. Done that. Expounded on it.)

I have had convos with my editor as I'm writing and giving her chapters, where she's like reacting emotionally and we're talking about this or that and some of it, I can't put in b/c it's limited third (and sometimes this happens with my 3rd omni stuff too,) but other stuff we end up saying, I go back to the scene and am like "okay, I should spell this out b/c obviously, I wasn't clear enough." And that's okay. I have a good relationship with my editor and really trust her, so this happens.

8. Don't worry about making it coherent for other people, unless you're going to publish (in any way shape or form.)

Look, if you are writing for yourself firstly, don't worry about structure, or pacing, or "Why do we care" stakes type of thing. Get the story out you want to tell and have fun with it.

However, if you want to publish, suddenly, all of this matters. Your story has to have some type of structure, some arc to it, a 'why do we care' type of stakes for the readers to latch onto very early on and it needs to be coherent for other readers who are again, not in your head with you. (This is why paragraph outlining can help. It can reveal the lack of this stuff before you get writing.) This is when I recommend strongly getting a development editor to help you find the beginning of your story and what the stakes/conflicts are for your characters and keep the story within your vision. (If they don't ask what your vision is, run.) And your structure just needs to exist, it doesn't have to be any 'defined' structure out of guidebooks.

9. When you get stuck have your handy 3 questions ready. What could reasonably happen next, aka what are the characters going to do? What could go wrong? And Does this Work for the Tone of my Story?

If you have trouble coming up with plots and you have no idea how to do conflicts, murphy's law is your friend. What can go wrong, will go wrong. You might come up with multiple ways things they can do and the ways they can go wrong and be like "but does this fit the outcome I want for my story, the ending I have in mind?" You might need to write them out. You might have to sit there and go "is this feasible or do I have to turn the story into pretzels to get it to work?"

Sincerely, watch the Emperor's New Groove. It didn't go through the Disney Process and every turn is "What can go wrong?" For both the protags, and the villains. At some point, generally in the third act, your characters will no longer feel as compelling if things keep going wrong for them. But in the first and second acts things can go wrong or appear to go wrong for the reader. (And then you get the dramatic reveal such as an Ocean's movie or Lucky Number Slevin.)

10. If you find it boring to write, your reader is probably going to find it boring to read. Summarize. Time Skip. It's okay!

This one is hard for me. Your story doesn't have to tell every minute of every day. Time skipping is your friend. Summarizing something that happens that isn't really plot important, they're doing this but you really don't need to show it, go ahead and summarize it. They were busy doing this, but we're at plot now!

Sometimes, that character interaction or fun going to a festival bit, or going on a date is the plot! This is called character development and your readers need to see it! Remember the type of story you're writing and figure out what the plot means for that type of story. (Hey, a romance without dates, is it really a romance?)

There's going to be times where you are going to be info dumping something you went and learned to write the book. And maybe on your third read through you realize, it's dull. And it's okay to summarize or take it out. Or sometimes, given you've read it six times, you might need to ask a beta reader "Was this boring, do I need to break this up?" Just to be sure. Because you know, yes, you will start to skim your own description and exposition. You are the one reading this book 10 times before publishing. Ack!

Or, maybe you've got the entire layout of the city/country in your head and why it is the way it is and all the politics, look, it might be relevant information, is it relevant right this second? No. Keep the story moving and put that information in context when it's important where it belongs! (See making plot paragraph summaries and writing lore books.)

Ten is a good number. In general, I also strongly recommend reading in your genres, and um, if you're writing a trilogy or a series, finish the trilogy, and write as many in the series as feasibly possible (more if they're say 50K words or so) before publishing them. This way if you find you've written yourself into a corner, or you need to make a call back but the call back you want isn't really there, you can go in and add those details or fix an ending without reader confusion issues. It can be something as simple as a plane going by overhead, or setting up foreshadowing for a later book. And you might not come up with that detail until 3 books in or know you need it and be like "crap" if you've already published. So, before you learn the hard way.

Most importantly, one spoonie to another. REST. If you need to rest, take it.

Bless and Happy writing ~ Ginny O.

Some advice as a discovery writer is to outline.

I update my outline after every scene because I make everything up as I go and change everything, but I need to know where I'm going in order to know how to start a scene.

Only do the major plot beats if you really can't outline, but try it. Some benefits may include:

Strong pacing

Confidence in scenes

Knowing your subplots

Foreshadowing

Less editing

Less writer's block/easier to overcome

It can also take a bit of practice and finding what works best for you, writing doesn't have rules.

What to give a fuck about,while writing your first draft!

I`ve posted a list about things you don´t need to give a fuck about while writing your first draft. Here are things you NEED TO CARE about! (in my opinion)

Your Authentic Voice: Don't let the fear of judgment or comparison stifle your unique voice. I know it´s hard,but try to write from your heart, and don't worry about perfection in the first draft. Let your authenticity shine through your words.

Your Story, Your Way: It's your narrative, your world, and your characters. Don't let external expectations or trends dictate how your story should unfold. Write the story you want to tell.

Progress Over Perfection: Your first draft is not the final product; it's the raw material for your masterpiece. Give a fuck about making progress, not achieving perfection. Embrace imperfections and understand that editing comes later.

Consistency and Routine: Discipline matters. Make a commitment to your writing routine and stick to it.

Feedback and Growth: While it's essential to protect your creative space during the first draft, be open to constructive feedback later on. Giving a f*ck about growth means you're willing to learn from others and improve your work.

Self-Compassion: Mistakes, writer's block, and self-doubt are all part of the process. Give a f*ck about being kind to yourself. Don't beat yourself up if the words don't flow perfectly every time. Keep pushing forward and remember that writing is a journey.

Remember, the first draft is your canvas, your playground. Don't bog yourself down with unnecessary worries.

I kind of suck at tagging, so I made this infographic to help make it easier.

Been thinking about this a lot lately... It's especially good advice for those of us that are terrible plotters. Just take it one step at a time.