I'm Floating In

Also laut dem Namen bist du dann w?

Ich bin nicht binär.

J. 🌌✨

Our voices sing in harmony.

Our hearts beat in unison.

Our bodies touch and melt.

We get lost together, as we

Collapse under our attraction

And give birth to a new star,

A glowing sphere of bliss.

Promises are broken

And the heart 

shatters 

Words get twisted

And the bones

burst

I always fuck it up.

And I deserve to be miserable

For what I've done.

I wish I would have been

A good partner

But I think I'm not.

Please don't leave me.

I need you.

But if you do

I'd understand

As you deserve better.

Please take care.

I wish you the best.

I'm so sorry.

I love you.

But I hate myself so much.

I hate myself.

But I love you so much.

Ripped into a thousand pieces

Left with a hopeless mess

Spend all my blood on the way

To find a place to rest

And I swear I'm trying my best

But it drags me down

Again till nothing's left

Nothing's left to be found

"How many secrets

Is one secret too much, then?"

I wondered quietly.

I don't know where you are now

And haven't even known you well

But kept you close to my heart

For the way that you helped

Me and probably many others

And so I wanted to tell

You about the call I made

And all the tears that fell

Withered Flowers on your grave

Maybe it's time for me

to go on and let you go.

Maybe I'm just to blind,

maybe I don't want to know.

In the depths of my heart,

the crypt of my soul,

I try to keep you alive

but you're dead like a zombie.

Heartless

Tell me that my lies are true

So I can believe into myself

Kill yourself for me tonight

And I'll blame someone else

I've got no shame to speak of

no responsibility, just guilt

And if you don't obey to me

Then i'll bend you to my will

Remnants of

my inaptitude.

Evidence of

my incapability.

The only constant

in these ruins

is my carcass,

covered in ashes

of what I

cared about.