Anyone Else Use Drafts Like A Todo List

absentmindedly doodling. i always have a nostalgic soft spot for the season 1 dynamics in winx club.

really struggling with this atm.

ive lost all the strength i fought so hard for the past two years. it doesnt seem fair that it can all be taken away so fast.

im exhausted. trying is exhausting.

disabled consistency prt. 2 prt. 1 here (u dont need to read it to understand this post)

what happens to consistency, to habits, when you have a dynamic disability?

i want us to understand the differences between having a consistent body and having an ever changing one. sometimes you could be so healthy you are working/studying, exercising a few times a week, socialising, and independently caring for yourself. but other times.. you’re bedbound? can’t even shower and brush your teeth twice a day? can’t keep up with texting your friends or social media? what habit is surviving that.

you work so hard to build habits and follow routines you and your doctors have set, and then you achieve it, but then it all gets taken away in a flare-up. you wonder what the point is. its a constant vicious cycle. even abled people know its hard to build habits. it takes time. and you might not have that time.

for abled people, theres no time limit on building a habit. they might have a goal in mind of when they want to achieve it, but theres no actual clock ticking in the background.

for me, and for other dynamically disabled people, we are on a time crunch. you may not be aware of it, but you are. it’s always a race to get things done while you can, build those habits and routines and get consistent and get your life together while you can. because even if you’re not thinking it, you are living on a countdown until your next flare-up. until the next crash, the next time you lose all your progress.

and that cycle, is exhausting. it’s like building a sandcastle right on the shore. you build it and you get to revel in it for a second. then it’s gone. there may be a little bump in the sand where your hard work had just stood, but essentially, you are starting from scratch. while the abled people are up the beach a few metres and their sand is perfectly wet and perfectly dry and the waves never reach it.

then those same people, tell you to just keep building. “eventually you’ll get there!” “keep trying!” “habits take time!” they say. but how? there will always be another wave.

understanding this difference in experience is so important if you want to understand why you can’t just tell a disabled person to form habits or be consistent and expect results.

Since the Finalists have been announced I suppose it’s time for me to post my submission!

Imagine my shock and surprise finding out I made it to THE FINALS!!!! Winx club truly means so much to me and I wouldn’t be the artist I am today without it! If you told kid me that the Winx team liked our art enough to pick us in top 25 I wouldn’t believe you haha!

Thank you Winx Club. This has really been like a dream come true! 💕

exactly 😭😭 its always like “aw im so sorry i get it ive been through the same” and then ur like ah shit not another one.. :((

it hurts hearing other disabled people talk about medical mistreatment.

like i am partly grateful to not be alone of course, but i really wish it wasnt a common or even standard occurrence.

breaks my heart.

specifically wanda maximoff please

Disabled and chronically ill people are allowed to enjoy things and do things they like (if they’re able) while still being sick and disabled. Yes, even if they aren’t employed. Hope this helps.

nailed it

i also feel like stella helps tecna to let go sometimes, to help her live more freely and step out of her comfort zone. tenca would totally not break so many rules at alfea if not for her friends.

what i love about winx friendships is that, each duo has its own unique dynamic.

let's take stella as an example!

bloom is her bestie whom she's immediately clicked with. even though it was an instant connection, it has never been an intense nor forced type of a bond. they're simply just so alike. bloom is impulsive with her actions, stella is impulsive with her words. they're both incredibly protective of others. and most things done by either of them, have been done out of pure burning passion. welp, they are literally the hottest fairies after all! :3

flora has a personality almost opposite of hers. stella's tongue works faster than her brain. meanwhile, flora is thoughtful. stella doesn't understand other people's emotions much, but flora is extremely empathetic. them being so different from each other causes them to fight so often. but regardless of their disagreements, they still love each other dearly. (also their arguments are quite entertaining ngl)

musa and stella are equally blunt. this causes constant back and forth roasts and brutal honesty. i feel like people who don't know them well could mistake their dynamic as rivalry. but no, they're just both playful, sassy queens who have an amazing sense of humor.

tecna, even though she's capable of analyzing anything that exists...she can't find logic in stella's behavior whatsoever. why does she get more and more silly as the issues are continuously piling up? why can't she just be serious for once? tecna remains serious and focused in those situations, because what is there to joke about? but even though stella's behavior is irritating to tecna at times, i'm sure she helps her loosen up a lil with her laid back attitude.

also, keep in mind these are my impressions based on watching only first season!! i will yap more about their friendships as i continue watching the show! ✨

yes. yes. yes.

honestly i get so excited when i see someone switch over to the “i could never” response because so many people do the “lucky you, you get to be lazy” and that one just really hurts.

so when i see even a small step in the direction of understanding my life is not glamorous, even if its still a response i hate, i feel excited dkdhks

i really cannot understand how people see disabled life as this glamorised lazy life. i genuinely cannot wrap my head around this.

how could ANY of what i go through be seen that way i just dont get it.