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i hate remembering something embarrassing i did/said, and just feeling the most intense nausea from it that my whole body feels like it's burning for a sec, like ok damn i know it was bad but somehow it just got worse thankyouu 😭😭
the struggle of wanting to post art of my changeling dnd character who's yet to reveal their identity, but the whole party follows me on me other socials so i can't just post art of their true form😭😭😭
and even on here where only my gf follows me- I STILL CANT POST MY CHARACTER'S REAL NAME BC IM KEEPING IT A SECRET
i just remembered how in 2021 on my second week of art school, i was asked to show some of my art, so i panicked and just opened my sketches folder, and SOMEHOW in those few seconds while i searched for a presentable drawing, one of my classmates managed to spot EXACT drawing i prayed nobody would notice
so you can imagine my horror when he pointed to my screen and asked "is that yaoi?"
there were approximately four people gathered around me.
i'm pretty sure i replied w "yeah something like that, ignore it pls" I DIDNT KNOW THESE PEOPLE I WAS SO EMBARRASSED
and then while i was flipping through other drawings (which i thought would spare me from further embarrassment) he then asked "is that my hero academia? deku?" IT WAS A DOUBLE WHAMMY IN A SPAN OF 2 MINUTES
i genuinely forgot that this happened until about 5 minutes ago and just...waow idk how i survived that whole interaction actually
crumbles to the ground i didn't draw anything for mermay orz
if i had a nickel every time a close friend made me listen to hamilton while also simultaneously singing and explaining what's happening (but also not providing enough context for me to understand) i would have two nickles, why does it keep happening
growing up in the early 2000s with those scare sites on the internet that would show a yaay cute bunny>3< picture, but then would immediately cut to the most gutwrenching scream with glitter mspaint blood on your screen, really made me overtly anxious about sending cute animal tiktoks to my gf, just in case there was a horribly gruesome picture/video at the end
honestly idk if that says more about how unsafe content filtering on the internet STILL is to this day, or just that i got traumatized as a kid and apparently it affected me more than i thought, but probably both
im..so out of it. i read the words 'top surgery' and my brain started questioning what on earth the top secret surgery might be