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Summary: You are Connor were dating until he started acting strange.
warning: shitty writing
Mentions: Suicide and other possible triggering topics
570 words
No one's POV
When it was the first day of school and the only good thing that came from that is seeing Connor. You and Connor were best friends when you were younger but no one knew about you. You never got to meet his parents or other friends. You of course met his sister but she didn't like you, she thought you influenced him to bully people. However, you were the complete opposite for him and help him a lot, or that's what you thought. After a bit, Connor started to push you away and began to argue with you more. He started arguments about everything but never got violent. You felt there was something up and different about Connor.
When you were at school you noticed Connor was avoiding you at school which set you off. You had known there was something wrong because he was usually with you at school. After you had realized what was happening you paid more attention to him.
You were the one to find Connor's body and the note. You felt you had failed him worse than his parents felt. When you found the note you had known that Connor must've stolen the note. Connor's parents didn't know he had a significant other and when they found out they were heartbroken. Connor's parents loved you because you were one of the closest people to him. You reminisced on the days spent with Connor cuddled up somewhere in your house. He always had a hard exterior but after several times he let you paint his nails you knew.
When you found Connor you were heartbroken. You felt like that was the reason you got up in the morning, now he's dead. You sat at their table while chaos broke out around you. You didn't know what do to with yourself. How would you even make it without him, he was your lifeline.
There you were in front of his grave on your birthday. You truly missed Connor but it was time you moved on with someone new. You didn't know how or when but you finally made amendments with yourself. After years of reflection and therapy, you were finally ready to start dating again. That's why you have a date tonight with Evan Hansen. It felt really wrong for you to go on a date with him but it was your only chance.
Pulling into the restaurant you were really confident but you were feeling woozy. You knew this date wasn't going to work for you. However, you walked through the restaurant doors anyways sitting down at your table. When Evan pulled up to the table things were very awkward due to him faking everything with Connor. You and Evan had a great night together but you didn't feel like it was right for you to move on.
That night you were in bed curled up looking at the old photos of you and Connor on your phone from years ago. At the moment you took to your social media and posted the photos. You sit there in bed wondering what you are doing with yourself and why you even decided to move on.
That night was the last night anyone had seen you. You committed suicide figuring it was the only way to be happy with Connor. And it was.
-S
i fear the connor murphy texts that have been really popular of recent are too good. they need to be a legal requirement or something, they're that good. whoever does them, never stop 😔😔