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Ultimate tumblr sexyman celebration drawing pulling double-duty for my political opinions š
Being anti-monarchy is an established part of Snykās character, actually, so. Fitting.
Death was a sickening feeling, it was something no one warned you about.
Alex did suppose that made sense, no one whoād experienced it was around to warn about the experience.
Or maybe it simply felt so awful because it was slow.
Tim had certainly got him, he won. Bring a knife to a gunfight, he wasnāt supposed to win, but heād gotten too close and- before he knew it he couldnāt breathe, gasping and wheezing like a breached whale.
The knife was gone and there was nothing but his own hand, clutching at the side of his throat, trying to hold the blood in. He could feel it pour between his fingers, like a twisted hourglass counting down the seconds until he was done for, he could feel the wheeze of air escaping the closest exit rather than inflate his lungs.
He was bleeding out, suffocating, and Tim was escaping.
Heād failed, again.
His body struggled, trying to wheeze in breath as his vision danced, speckled and darkened. He could barely feel the pain, and his hearing was clouded. He may have heard a clatter, but he couldnāt focus on it.
There was static. The comforting hum of T.V. static. Once his enemy, his fear, now brought him comfort. It was the only constant in his life, that static, that ringing, and Alex hoped itād get him, get Tim, seek revenge.
Some say before you die your greatest memories bubbled to the surface to ease your transition into nothingness.
Rage bubbled in his weakened gut, and with one hand heād tried to push himself up, to sit, a scream tearing from his throat, his hand falling from his neck. He was going to get them, he had to, this wasnāt fair. Theyād caused this, he was going to end it.
Black seeped further and further into his vision, spots, tendrils coiling around as he heard less and less, only able to feel the empty in his lungs and the hot mess of blood across his body.
There was a white face before there was nothing.
Rest in peace River Boy. Thank you so much for all the love you put into your projects, both with and outside Cult of the Lamb. Your music is one of the biggest reasons I love CotL: I couldnāt stop listening to āPraise the Lambā for days after I first played the game.
I donāt know if anyone from Massive Monster will see this, but Iām so sorry for your loss. Please take it easy and know our hearts are with you. ā¤ļø
(im late)
COTLtober made by @/stychu-stych
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drawtober board below cut
So. Highly inspired by this series
Imagine dying next to Ghost. Alongside him. In bed, asleep together, and itās no oneās fault. It wasnāt a targeted attack. A gas leak. There was no pain, no panic, nothing. Tragic, before your time, and wrought with the impotent agony that can only come about when thereās no target for revenge.
There are worse things, than being a trapped spirit with the man you loved in the house where you loved him. Despite how all of the world has gone quiet, you can still feel him, and he can feel you.
You can still make love.
But every so often, when he takes you from behind, you feel this sharp, burning pain in your back. You know itās his doing, but something about him has been so⦠hard to read, since you both died. Even though you donāt have anything left to lose, he holds you tighter than he ever did before. Wonāt leave you alone for a moment. Thereās terror in his eyes. You donāt understand itā he died in peace. None of the things that haunted him in life can follow him here. But you donāt have the courage to ask him.
Heāll die a thousand times over before he tells you that heās ripping the feathers from your back because god is trying to take you somewhere he canāt follow.
I wonāt be posting for a while, mental health is going down the drain. For those worried, Iāll be alright :). I and the others just need to process some things, like one of our families dogs that we grew up with are dying as we speak. Idk how much longer theyāve got and itās been stressing us out. Apologies in advance.
Until the curtain rises and we meet again,
Rui Kamishiro